Lily quietly tip-toed out of Harry's room and turned all the lights off except his tiny broom shaped nightlight. She shut the door behind her and let out a sight of relief. She didn't know how she was going to be able to handle to children at a time. Her tired body dragged itself to her room where she collapsed on the bed without changing into her night clothes. Staring blankly at the ceiling she wondered how she could get herself into such a mess. Lily long ago realized that the entire fight was entirely her fault.


Severus jaw nearly hit the floor when he opened his front door. His heart began to thump painful hard against his chest and his words were lost somewhere in his throat. Just the sight of Lily made him a blubbering fool.

"Hi." Lily greeted him. Silence came over them again. Lily shuffled her feet and bit her bottom lip. "Can I come in?"

"Yes. Of course." Severus answered with excitement laced in his harsh sounding voice. 'What is she here for?' His mind raced with questions. Lily stepped into the house and smiled. It hadn't change a bit since she last saw it.

Curiosity was eating at Severus insides and he blurted out, "Why are you here?" Lily's eyes focused back on him with an expression he couldn't read. For a moment he thought about using legitimacy but decided against it.

"You saved my life." Her once strong, steady voice cracked and her eyes glistened. Severus felt blood drain from his face.

"I don't know what you're talking about." Severus stated coldly. To his surprise Lily paid no attention to his words and instead wrapped her arms around his neck.

"You're my only true friend, Sev." She whispered, not breaking eye contact with him. Severus finally worked up the nerve to snake his arms around her waist and was yet again shocked Lily didn't throw them off her. 'Please don't be dreaming.' Severus pleaded with himself as he drank in Lily's every movement. That's when the whole mess began. Without thinking of her husband and son that was sitting at home waiting for her she kissed Severus. Severus followed her lead when kissing, and then to his bedroom 5 minutes later.

She felt guilt eat away at her when she returned to her perfect little cottage with her perfect husband and perfect son the next morning. They believed her when she said she spent the night with her friend Mary. After removing herself from her family she darted to the bathroom. When Lily looked in the mirror she was truly disgusted at the cheating tart that stared back. But for the first time since she left Hogwarts she felt...free. The adrenaline rush she felt when she looked into James's eyes and lied. Yes she knew she was a terrible person for this but her love for Severus was all that mattered. At the moment anyway.


Lily felt like she had been pacing for hours while she waited for the stupid healer to come back into the room. More time passed before the door open and an older wizard came in.

"Mrs. Potter the results are back and," He stopped to look down at his chart and read. Lily nervously held her breath. "You are pregnant. Congratulations."

Her heart sank to the pit of her stomach. She knew the father had to be Severus since her and James hadn't had sex since she started her affair. Lily gathered her thoughts and slowly made her way to Severus's house with the paper, that confirmed she was pregnant, in hand. She knocked on the door two times before it swung open and she was swept into Severus's arms. Lily momentary forgot about the paper and let herself melt into his kiss for a few minutes.

"I have something important to tell you." She stated as she pulled away from him. Severus's eyebrows knitted together in confusion.

"I'm…" She broke off and looked at the paper, for what seemed like the millionth time. "Here, just look."

Lily thrusted the paper at him. His eyes scanned over it and he let out a growl of frustration.

"So you and Potter are pregnant, again?" He seethed. In anger he began to rip the paper and proceeded to throw it into the fire.

"No." She answered weakly. Severus stared at her until the truth finally hit him.

"Oh." He said and in spite of the situation smiled because who in their right mind wouldn't be happy to know that the love of their life was carrying their child.

"I don't know how I'm going to tell James." Lily said sadly. Severus's happiness seemed to fade immedently.

"Are you going to keep it?" He asked with a heavy heart.

Lily glared at him and said, "Of course I am."

He breathed a sigh of relief and genially placed a hand on her shoulder.

"I love you." Severus said. It hadn't been the first time he told Lily he loved her but it was the first time she responded to it.

"I love you, too."


Lily felt her baby's feeble kicks and smiled as she rubbed in belly in a soothing matter. She won't trade her children for anything in the world, even if they weren't planned, and even thought half of her friends now hated her.

As Lily's eyes began to droop into a night of sleep she felt something wet from her waist down. Her water just broke.