Chapter 2: King of Anything
Ohhh and a reminder, I don't own glee
Luckily, throughout the day, I avoided Blaine. At lunch, it got hard, since we usually eat together, but I used lunch to prepare for my song. It would be perfect, expressing everything that I felt the past few days. After lunch, the afternoon classes passed in a blur leading up to Warblers practice. I stopped Wes before going in, asking him if I could do it. It took a little (well, who am I kidding, A LOT) of convincing to get him to agree. Mostly because I wanted to keep the song choice a secret. I couldn't risk him going up to Blaine and telling him.
Since my proposal had taken longer then expected, Wes and I were one of the last to get in. As soon as I walked in, everything went dead silent. Great I thought Blaine probably told everyone. Couldn't he just keep his mouth shut? With the thought of Blaine on my mind, I searched for him in the crowd of boys. And I saw him, his beautiful eyes glaring at me. For a moment I was hurt, but then I remembered my purpose of being here, that I was somewhat okay with out him.
I hurried to the other side of the room, and sat down in one of the empty spots of the couch.
"Okay everyone. I know we usually start of with a warm up, but a fellow warbler has asked to perform a piece for us. Kurt would you like to come up?" Wes said, with his normal monotone voice.
"Of course," I said, making my way to the piano, "I know we are an acapella group, but since I've told no one about this, I really can't expect you guys to magically know the words like in high school musical." I said with a smile, gaining a few chuckles from the warblers. "Well, this is just a song that kind of, well, completely explains my feeling right now." With that I start to play the piano softly, looking right at Blaine.
Keep drinking coffee stare me down across the table,
While I look outside.
So many things I'd say if only I were able ,but I just keep quiet,
And count the cars that pass by.
This happened all the time, though maybe not l how it's like in the song.
You've got opinions man!
Were all entitled to them.
But I never asked.
I really didn't need to know that he had some crush on Rachel.
So let me thank you for your time,
And try not to waste anymore of mine.
And get out of here fast.
Exactly how I felt when he kissed Rachel at the party. Exactly.
I hate to break it to you babe, but im not drowning.
There's no one here save,
Okay, maybe that wasn't completely true, but he would get the point.
So who cares, if you disagree? You are not me.
Who made you king of anything
So you dare, tell me who to be.
Who died, and made you king of anything?
This is how I feel daily. Who made him ruler of this school? Because it surely wasn't me.
You sound so innocent, all full of good intent
Swear you know best
He seems like he wants to help me but if just hurts me. I look right in Blaine's. Can feel the understanding,
But you expect me to jump up on board with you
And ride off into your delusional sunset
This would be wonderful to happen, but he's too ignorant to see it. I'm not the one who's lost with no direction
But you'll never see
You're to busy making maps,
With my name in them in all caps.
You've got the talking down,
Just not the listening.
How can he not see that I'm madly in love with him? The way I talk to him, the way I giggle at literally EVERYTHING he says? Is he that blind?
I sing the chorus. Boring my eyes into his. I want him to feel the hurt, but get the sense of my independence.
Coming to the bridge, which meant the most to me I made my glare softer, gentler, letting some of my real emotions out.
All my life I've tried to make everybody happy
While I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it's my turn to decide.
This was basically my life. Trying to make my father my friends, my Blaine happy, while I just hurt, but I wouldn't show it. I thought it would end with Blaine, but the pain I got from him hurt the worst. My self control started to falter. I closed my eyes for the rest of the song, softly singing the chorus, keeping the tears in. Dammit! I told my self I wouldn't cry, and here I am holding back tears. Just great.
As I played the last key, the room was silent. I opened my eyes, seeing all the boys either looking at me or the newly open door in shock. Looking around to see who had left, my eyes landed on a flipped over chair in the middle of the room.
Blaine.
