Hinami gasped for air as she pulled away from that edge, her heart pounding as she nearly let those thoughts dominate her, the want to fly through the air, maybe she would be able to see everyone again... She shook her head as she tried to think through the fog of grief in her mind.
"How could they... do all this...Why... are we not allowed to live?" She pondered out loud as she slowly began to climb up onto the bridge, hiding herself behind another arching support on the surface. She didn't quite know what to do... And let her feet carry her for a while, thankfully her clothes were not too dirty or ripped, most of the gore being blocked by Touka. She did get some strange looks as some noticed something was wrong with the young girl, yet did not approach seeing the specks of blood.
With the sun moving upwards a bit more in the sky Hinami only now started to be aware of her surroundings, and caught a few people looking away as she nearly met their eye. Her wandering feet took her to the place her heart longed for the most... At least as close as she could get. With the entire street a wreak and blocked off and filled with at least a dozen Doves. Hinami peered over at the destroyed shop that was always a second home for her, and all the blood over the street from oh so many people, ghouls and humans alike.
Clenching her eyes shut she forced herself to walk away from the painful sight, her mind barely functioning, and most certainly not logging the fact she was now being followed, or caring if she did.
"This is Amon... I think I've spotted one of the low priority targets, I'll pursue at a distance, she might lead us to a hideout." Spoke the tall and bulky investigator as he clenched his briefcase and tapping Akira on the shoulder. "Lets go." He said as they both locked their sights on the young ghoul, following slowly behind her.
Akira seemed quite motivated to keep walking towards the brown haired teen, she might be able to get her revenge for her Father's murder. "She certainly isn't very alert...You would think any ghoul within 10 miles would be tucked away for a few weeks..." She mumbled to her partner as she kept her eyes tight on her prey.
"Perhaps...She had connections with Anteiku, it was a confirmed ghoul nexus...Lets see where she goes..." He said as he wondered just where this young seeming monster was going...
As their walk neared the hour mark their target still just seemed to be walking aimlessly, even if she was a monster, a part of Akira almost felt the despair coming off Hinami in waves, before she reminded herself eliminating ghouls is for the good of all, no matter their shape or size.
Both investigators raised and eyebrow as Hinami stopped at the end of the block, and stared across the street at one of the largest buildings in the 20th ward, the CCG HQ. They could see the girl tense up seeing that imposing building, its surfaces reflecting the light down into everyone's eyes.
The two doves picked up their walking pace as they saw... the Ghoul walking to the building?! "What is she doing...Kamikaze attack?" Amon would ask as they started to catch up to Hinami, and watched her enter those bullet proof glass doors.
Hinami would take a deep breath at that street corner, before pressing the crosswalk button. What did she have to lose? What else could she do besides scream at the wrath of god, get everything out of her system to become truly empty. Her thoughts momentarily thought of the near suicidal danger of walking right into the enemy's base, but she had long since...decided she was done, she was just...done.
The cold of the glass of the door seemed to only heat up a fire building inside of Hinami's stomach, she decided she was going to at least express her despair, let them see the face of someone who has lost everything.
She would get a few alarmed looks as one by one, doves in the lobby locked their eyes on her as she slowly continued to walk through that pre-lobby area, unhesitatingly walking through that RC cell scanner.
The sound of the wailing alarm from the scanner seemed like it was so far away as she saw a couple Doves unpacking their Quinques, thankfully seeing... none of her friends, they might scare off her nerve.
She looked back as the wailing stopped as the machine was turned off by Akira Mado, following behind investigator Amon, both having their Quinques in briefcase form still, observing her for any sudden moves.
The investigators around her seemed to be waiting for the moment when her Kagune would come out, only to be left hanging as the girl started to try and speak, working up from a mumble into a squeak.
Clenching her fist in her despair filled rage, the thought of violence on her part didn't cross her mind, it was... not in her nature, she didn't want to hurt others, to prove these monsters right... "My name... Is Fueguchi... Hinami...You probably know that... stalking my family, friends, and me...Why?" She would quietly ask, her tears dried up it seemed as she began to let her words flow.
It took a good 20 seconds before anyone decided to answer. Akira would walk more up to her from behind, her chimera Quinque idle by her side. "Because... You monsters murder and devour us, or our loved ones...How could be Not kill all of you... we cannot sleep in peace knowing abominations like you roam our city. I've known of you for a while... and your role in my Father's murder." She said pointedly, trying to keep her cool. Who was this Ghoul to walk into their home base and sound like a victim?
"I've... never killed anyone! I don't want...I don't want to fight anyone... I just wanted... to live! Live with my parents... But... you all stole them from me...you tried to kill me with them..." She trailed off as she looked deep into Akira's eyes.
Akira would look right back into those abyssal eyes, eyes that looked... not as frightening as they should on a ghoul...She hadn't even activated any of her ghoul traits yet? "Ghouls by their very nature are killers... a menace...You kill you eat, there is no getting around that...DNA matching from you matched my father's hand...Even if you didn't stab him in the end, you are still just as guilty as who did!" She yelled, ignoring everything else to the contrary, if a ghoul killed then it is murder.
"My family... we never killed anyone, ANYONE! A-anteiku... we tried to be peaceful... we didn't kill anyone for food...we gathered...suicide victims, societies ignored...It was all we could do...WE DON'T HAVE A CHOICE! You think I asked to be born like this?! To never be able to be safe?! To be told I'm a monster from the moment I was born?!" She screamed her rage at Akira, fully facing her as her eyes showed a dying fire in them, and fresh tears flowing again from her. "I'm... I'm not the monster..."
"You are... You stole Investigator Mado from us, at least you had the decency to end your hide and seek." Amon said in a deep rumbling voice, his Quinque not yet out, he didn't even think he would need it... And he felt Akira would prefer the honors.
"Recognition appeared in her eyes at the name of the person who cause her so much pain in her life. "No... He stole my mom and dad..." She said as she clenched her fist, her anger rising back up causing all the Doves to tense. "HE USED MY DAD TO KILL MY MOM! He tried to kill me with both of them! He put... my M-moms head where I would find it...HE IS THE MONSTER NOT ME!" She yelled back, her throat hitching with some quiet sobs as she shook her head "This world... it is so wrong..." She mumbled mostly to herself "Why... why did... no one at least try peace... You figured out... how to rip off parts of our bodies and kill us with them... but no one tried to figure out.. why we have to eat p-people? All that research you must do... just for more death..." She said as she collapsed downward, her legs suddenly feeling far too heavy to hold her.
Akira wanted to behead her right there for daring to insult her father...Yet... a part of it ringed inside of her head. She slowly walked by the unresponsive Ghoul, taking in how ripped her outfit was, how... worn she looked, and yet how young she was. "Yes... This world is wrong...eliminating Ghouls is how we fix it... You all shouldn't have existed in the first place... Even if we gave you an alternative, Ghouls wouldn't care, you all would just eat for the hell of it... So don't you DARE act like the victim!" Akira yelled as if trying to convince herself instead, to justify herself.
Hinami took a few breaths and looked up into Akira's eyes. "It... doesn't matter... I'm done...Everything is gone...Everyone..." As fresh tears started to well in her eyes she started to work the lump in her throat down. "I've said.. what I wanted to say...Please just... kill me..." She mumbled that last part as she looked right back down, exposing her soft neck to the air, seemingly resigned.
Akira looked at the girl in shock... she had never had a situation like this, her or Amon... She looked back at him, for him to only give a nod. She never had a Ghoul use her to commit suicide, if only their jobs were that easy... Yet...It felt wrong. Her mind whirled as she thought ~Is this... right? It had to be...~ She thought as she raised up Amatsu, holding the blade, ready do her job.
Time seemed to slow as Hinami closed her eyes awaiting that rush of air, and the relief death might bring to her tired mind. "Mama... Papa...Onii-chan...Onee-chan... wait for me..." She mumbled quietly, the sound causing Akira's hand to tremble some for a moment. As her hand steadied, she swung...
Now I could leave it as that, I'll decide if this gets any reception, if I do I have a lot planned out after this emotional opening. Feel free to comment if you want this to be more than a depressing one-shot
