Feeling like he was walking on clouds, Bellamy stepped out into the hall where he ran into Octavia. She slowed to stroll, noticing that he looked happier somehow. Turning on her heels, she made her way back to him "what are you on?" she asked suspiciously. Bellamy stopped "on?" he asked looking strangely at her. "yes, on!" Octavia put her hands on her hips, "What do you mean?" he asked her. Octavia studied him "There is something different about you" she declared. Bellamy shrugged "Just enjoying the quiet before the storm" he told her. "uh-huh" Octavia grunted. "Gotta go" Bellamy said kissing her on the cheek before walking away. Now Octavia knew he was on something, the Bellamy that just passed her was not the brother she was used to seeing.
She passed by the communication room. Raven would know what was up with Bellamy. She had been spending a lot of time with Clarke and Bellamy lately. Octavia's mind went in overdrive, her jaw dropped. "Clarke!" she exclaimed "that's what's up." Veering off course to meet Indra, she stepped in the lab to talk to Raven. Clarke was there already looking as happy as Bellamy had. Looking at Raven, whose eyes danced with glee, then to Clarke, she cocked her head "So, whats up with Bellamy" she asked them. "What do you mean?" Clarke asked trying to sound casual. Octavia narrowed her eyes "I mean I just saw him in the hall, and he was practically skipping." Raven tried and failed to hold back a laugh, making Octavia even more suspicious. "ok, what gives" she demanded "you two know something, what is it?"
"sorry" not my story to tell" Raven responded. "Raven" Clarke grumbled. "oh… my… God…" Octavia gazed at Clarke "its you…" Clarke didn't accept or deny Octavia's charges. She tried to keep a straight face "He, you finally…" Octavia trailed off trying to get anything out of Clark, anything at all. "come on Clarke" she begged. "Do anything, blink, snort, tell me…"
"I can't" Clarke sighed, "you're going to have to talk to your brother." Growling, Octavia turned on her heels. After she was gone, Raven and Clarke fell into a fit of giggles "you could have just put her out of her misery" Raven told Clarke. "Yes" Clarke agreed "I could have, but this is such a new and big step. I didn't really want to." Raven knew what Clarke meant "but you're going to tell me, right?" she stared at Clarke pointedly. Clarke glanced in the direction of the door. Rolling her eyes, Raven walked to the doors and tripped the switch that would lock the door to any new arrivals "Now spill" she demanded. Clarke looked nervous, even talking with Raven about her and Bellamy seemed like a scary thing to do, but Raven was the closest thing to a best friend Clarke had. "okay, I'll make it easy to start" Raven sighed "when."
"This morning, after we got back to our room" Clarke answered. Raven chortled "when I told him to take you back to bed, THAT wasn't exactly what I meant" she said. "anyway, carry on.." Raven urged. "It was magical" Clarke sighed "like it was meant to be."
"because it was" Raven declared " people have been taking bets on how long it would be before you two hooked up." Clarke shook her head "Really, are they that bored?" she asked. "you two have been the hottest show in town for a while now" Raven informed her. "The rest of us were just waiting for the two of you to realize that."
"have you told him you love him yet?" Raven asked. Clarke shook her head "I do, at least I think I do. I just don't know how to say it" she confessed. "There's a lot of power in those three little words" Clarke continued "If you're going to say them, you'd better mean them." Raven hadn't thought of things in those terms. She supposed in a lot of ways, her and Clarke were a lot alike in that sense. Life hadn't offered either of them a lot of options in the love department. "One day it'll slip out, just like it did today with Bellamy" Raven assured her "when the time is right."
Clarke hoped so, because she did care very deeply about Bellamy, she just wasn't sure she was ready to say the "L" word yet.
"your turn" Clarke stared at Raven "Tell me about Roan." Raven looked at her "I didn't say he was hot" she pointed out "you did." She rolled her eyes at Raven "So you're saying he's not hot?" Raven looked sheepish "I…I wouldn't disagree with you" Raven "but he is so big and over confident. He walks into a room like he owns it" she ranted. "Well technically…" Clarke began. Raven shushed her "He called me a warrior" she told Clarke "said it was 'impressive' what I did in this room." Clarke smiled waiting for her to say something that was bad or untrue. "What does that even mean?" Raven asked. "It was compliment Raven" Clarke told her "In their culture, warriors are the most respected among the people." Raven sighed "Im not a warrior Clarke" she said "I used to be a badass, but now thanks to this" she shot a glare at her bum leg "I'm useless in battle."
"you couldn't be more wrong" Clarke told her. "Yes, maybe you'll never fight beyond the walls of this ark again, but your brain is so much bigger and better than any of ours. Half the battles we win. WE win because YOU have a king-sized brain. We have guns, spears, horses. THIS" Clarke pointed to the comlink "is your gun, your spear, your horse, ride it and be proud" she finished. "you sound like him" Raven scoffed. "why, what did he say?" Clarke asked. "He said not all wars are won on the battlefield" Raven said.
"I think you're being too cautious" Clarke suggested "like if you find someone else, it's like replacing Finn." Raven didn't really want to think along those lines; Clarke was very close to stepping on a nerve with her amateur diagnosis. "Do you ever think about him?" she asked. Clarke looked thoughtful "I do" Clarke confessed "but Finn and I didn't have what you and he did. We came together at a time when life was a struggle. It was just the one time, it wasn't planned, it just kind of happened. Then you came down and I wasn't going to be the one that came in between you too. I did care about him, but I didn't feel about him the way for him the way I feel about Bellamy" Clarke tried to explain. "Does that make sense?" she asked. Raven nodded She knew exactly what Clarke meant, not that she would ever tell her about the time she and Bellamy hooked up. That one time, for her at least was about getting revenge against Finn for sleeping with Clarke. She regretted it the next morning and it never happened again.
"maybe" Raven sighed "I just don't know how to move on." Clarke nodded "don't rush it, but also, don't run away from it" she advised. "Ill think about it" Raven said "but I make no promises." Clarke shrugged "one day it will just happen like with Bellamy today" Clarke grinned, realizing she had just given Raven her own advice.
"nice Clarke," Raven retorted "recycled advice?"
"sorry, it just kind of slipped out" she chuckled.
