When he left for work that morning at five, I called into the hospital faking sick. I couldn't handle being thrown back into a life that wasn't really mine anymore. I was shocked and saddened that Charlie didn't at least acknowledge his grandkids. We had two, Jayson who is six and in first grade and Kyaha, who just turned five months. I rolled over in the bed just in time to hear the low beep on the monitor.

My blessed hubby of a little over six years had invested in a personalized baby monitor. The thing beeped so that we knoew if it was a roll over, toss or turn, the beep was a low frequency. If it was a fuss, it was a medium, but a full on cry was frantic beeps.

I felt the bed dip a little and Jayson snuggled up next to me. I pulled him close into my arms, he looked like Jake.

Jacob Black was one of L.A's most eligible batchlors, from the time he was fifteen. I ran into him on a mini stop on my way to the college and we hit it off. He surprised me on how down to earth he was, but on how romanticly in tune he was as well. He sent me flowers for a month before I called him.

Like most say the rest is history, mine is a little more so than that.

Jake was and still is my night in shining armor. He held me while I cried last night and didn't ask what it was that made me cry. He told me he loved me when he left this morning. He had done it a few times when my mind drudged up a memory of him. There was no way to explain it, I played it off a few times the worst of them being when I found out I was pregnant with Jayson and again when I found out it was a boy. Then the next was when I learned I was pregnant with Kyaha. I found it easy to blame it on the hormones.

I was almost asleep again when the monitor went off alerting me that Kyaha was crying. Getting up I realized Jayson was supposed to be at school an hour ago, groaning I gave into defeat and took on the fact that he was just not going to go.

He walked with me down the hall and I walked into the nursery. I lifted Kyaha up and cradled her as Jayson started to play with toys. Feeding her I watched as he looked around, it was going to be a while before he realized who his daddy was and what he did. I love how innocent he was.

"Hey, buddy," I said getting his attention, "want to go to the zoo today?"

"What about school?" he asked.

"Were taking a mommy and me day, I miss them."

When he first started school and I started working once a month I would take a day off to play with him. I stopped doing that when I got pregnant and worked only four days a week.

"That sounds fun, mommy."

I dressed quickly and got the kids dressed. I held my breath and crossed my fingers that I wouldn't run into anyone while we were out.

The zoo was fun, I missed going to the one in LA. Jayson had the look of pure joy on his face as we walked around. Just as we were about to leave I heard someone call out my name. Turning I found Jessica and Mike standing there with two little blond kids.

"Jessica," I said as she hugged me.

"Wow, Isabella Swan is a mom."

"I am, married too." I could tell she was looking at the stroller, and it was telling her that I either knoew someone with money or I had it.

"What have you been up to?" She asked.

"I just finished my residency and I work at Seattle Grays."

"Wow, really?" Mike asked.

"Yeah, Carlisle just accepted a position there." I said.

"Cullen?" Jessica said, I nodded.

"So did you end up marrying Edward?"

I wanted to laugh, if I had married Edward, Jayson and Kyaha would be fair skinned kids.

"No, I married an old childhood friend."

"Really?"

What was with them and the inquires.

"I would tell you, but I have to keep my personal life out of things like the tabloids and sleazy mag's."

Jessica would be one to sell the story, sure it would end Jakes reign as hottest bachelor, but it would throw our kids into the spot light, and I hated the thought.

My phone rang, the ringtone made Jayson sing 'daddy calls, daddy calls.'

I gave Jessica a weak smile and pushed the stroller away as I pushed talk on my IPhone.

"Hey, baby." I said as I got out the keys to the SUV.

"Hey, I called the hospital and some Andrea girl went into hysterics and then told me you weren't working."

"I'm not we just finished the zoo, I miss my babies. I'm missing out on so much of Kyaha life."

"So, quit. You don't need to work Bells. I know that you would be so much happier staying at home. The hospital said that they could take you on as an on call doctor."

I knew then what I needed to do.

"I'm going to do it." I said.

"What?" he asked sounding a little alarmed.

"Stay home. I'm a mom first, I love being a doctor, but I miss my babies."

"I not a baby, mom!" Jayson said.

Jake laughed hearing him say that.

I said goodbye and drove to the hospital.

I left Kyaha and Jake wit Maria and went to find the chief. I had on skinny jet black jeans a yellow tank under a leather jacket and my favorite heels Jake got me from the UK.

I rounded a corner and ran into Edward, Carlisle and the chief.

"Bella?" he said.

"I faked sick, I have kids." I admitted.

"Were all guilty of that at some point, how's the baby?" he asked.

"She's doing well, I need to talk to you about the offer you made last month."

"About becoming an on call doctor?"

"Yeah, I love it here, don't get me wrong. I just hate that I am missing out on so much of Kyaha's life. Jayson started first grade and Jake is travelling, a nanny… the thought gives me the hebbies."

"I can put the paperwork through, that part is easy, I just want you to make the best decision for you, as a good doctor, and as a mother."

"I am, I talked to Jake. He knows it's what I need."

He nodded and held out his hand to shake mine.

"Well, doctor Swan it was nice having you at the hospital full time." He said pulling me in for a hug.

The monitor beeped, the beep was low but it was coming in fast. I had no idea what that meant.

So I just ran.

Maria was holding a wailing Kyaha and trying to comfort a sobbing Jayson.

"What the…"

"He started to cry, something about you leaving. Well, then the baby did." She said franticly.

"Jay's, baby." I said pulling him into my arms, "I'm not leaving you."

I was unaware of my audience, not only was the chief there, but Carlisle, Edward, Esme Alice, and Rose.

I pulled my phone out, as a mom hearing that Jayson thought I was leaving him broke my heart.

"Jake," I said.

The tears turned into sobs and he said he was on his way.

Kyaha had calmed down, now I looked like a mess holding Jayson who was sobbing, and crying myself.

Jake walked in and released Maria thanking her for holding Kyaha. He put her back in her car seat that was in the stroller and pulled me into his arms.

"Bella, baby. I love you but what the hell is wrong?"

"Can we go back?" I asked as I held onto him.

"Back?"

"To L.A." I said.