02. YOU
Hiro listened closely as you explained your feelings, you trusted him.
The Lucky Cat Cafe began to become busy and Aunt Cass had to go work.
Hiro and you found an empty table, by the window to talk. The sun shined through the glass, and lit on your face, you squinted a little making Hiro laugh.
"You look so dumb!" He commented, eventually calming down.
"Whatever," you giggled.
Hiro stopped laughing and he snapped his finger, a big grin appearing on his face. You giggled again, at the small gap between his two front teeth. He was like a little brother to you.
"I need to show you my bot! It's going to bot fight this week!" He exclaimed.
You hushed him with your finger, he was being too loud about his not-so-legal hobby.
Hiro shut up and looked around carefully. Everyone was too busy to be paying attention, all laughing and ordering their sweets.
"Come on, I'll show you upstairs."
You were already beginning to feel a little better, Hiro always made you smile whenever he could. Though, you couldn't go see the bot because Tadashi walked over and told you it was time to go, since Honey Lemon had to be home early.
Hiro frowned, and stood up, walking away.
"He thinks you're making me leave because we were talking about bot fighting, probably." You said.
Tadashi sighed, "I just want him to do something with that big head of his."
On the drive home, Honey Lemon suggested she should be dropped off home first, and Tadashi can just pick her up tomorrow.
"You sure?"
"Positive, I'll call you!" And with that, Honey skipped up into her house with four inch heels.
In the car, you still sat in the back and Tadashi drove. It was quiet, Tadashi tried to start a conversation but you just stared out the window.
"What's wrong?" He finally begged, frustrated.
You were in shock, he rarely even got to this point with you.
"Nothing." You replied, continuing to stare out the window. "It's just the sickness." You hated lying to him, Tadashi was a sincere person who didn't deserve lies. You did it to protect him though, to protect your friendship with him.
Tadashi parked the car in front of your home.
Neither of you moved or said anything, it felt weird to say goodbye.
It felt like saying goodbye at that moment really meant, "This is it." It felt like the car was filling up with unsaid things and suffocating the both of them.
Without a word from you two, you exited the car and stood on the sidewalk while he drove away.
The front door of your home opened and came out was Aunt Cass. Tea cup in her hand, and sympathetic look in her eyes.
Your mom must have gone to do errands, and guessed this would happen. That was why she probably called Aunt Cass over.
You dragged yourself up the stone steps and when you arrived in front of her, your eyes began to water.
"Oh, baby!" Aunt Cass stammered, placing the tea up on the night stand beside the door inside the house. You fell into her arms and she rubbed your back.
The two of you went inside and sat down together on the couch in the living room.
"What happened?" Aunt Cass asked, handing you a few tissues. You used your hands to wipe away your tears, but took the tissues anyways.
"I messed up." You gulped.
"You told him?" Aunt Cass gasped.
The T.V in front of them was on, and she quickly turned it off.
You shook your head, "I should have." You sobbed. Your heart was pounding, and knees were weak. It felt more like pain than love.
"Is this your first love?" Aunt Cass questioned.
"My only love." It was a sappy thing to say.
Aunt Cass wrapped her arms around you, your head laid on her shoulder.
"[Y/N]," she hushed as you sobbed harder. "You know Tadashi loves you, right? More than he loves Honey Lemon?"
And you nodded your head, however more tears fall down because it's not the love you wanted it to be. Tadashi loved you in a family way, the way you love your sibling or parents. You wanted it to be love in the selfish way, where you could have him all. You wanted him to want you only.
"I know it's not in the way you want it to be like, and sometimes that's just how life is." Aunt Cass remarked. "You can't always expect returns from what you give. Sometimes, love is just not enough."
Then it hit you, what she said.
You would have stood on top of the tallest building screaming out that you love Tadashi Hamada, you would have pushed him out of the way of a car if it meant that he got to live better than you. And in the end, he might still adore Honey Lemon. You would have been remembered as the brave friend, not the one that was loved by Tadashi in the way he did with Honey Lemon.
You sat straight up and wiped your tears, though your lip still quivered.
Aunt Cass watched you and continued to rub your back.
"You okay, sweetie?"
"Yeah, Aunt Cass."
"Want me to make more tea?" She offered, standing up, and grabbing the crumpled up tissue from the floor.
You nodded your head and mumbled a thank you.
Something vibrated in your back pocket, and you pulled it out. There were texts and missed calls from your friends, including Tadashi. You haven't turned on your phone until today after a couple of weeks.
You read them all, and hated yourself for what you thought while reading them. Some of Tadashi's messages also were about Honey Lemon.
'You okay? Honey Lemon said that I should deliver some soup to you. Your mom probably has done that already, text me back please'
'I called your mom, she said you have a serious cold. GoGo told me you don't want any visitors'
'Hiro just told me a hilarious story haha call me so I can tell you!'
'Honey Lemon keeps bugging for me to write you a card, so I gave it to your mom to give it to you. Text me once you read it, I haven't heard from you'
Your head started to hurt, and you leaned down on the couch. Just then, your phone vibrated again. It was a text from Tadashi. You dropped your hand and chose to read it later.
Soon, Aunt Cass walked in with a tray in her hand and her phone between her cheek and shoulder. On the tray were two cups of tea and PB&J sandwiches.
"[Y/N]? No, I haven't seen her, Tadashi. I'm off doing errands right now. Okay, okay, bye, make sure to eat!" Then she placed the tray on the coffee table and closed her phone.
You raised your eyebrows, as to question her.
"Tadashi said he was trying to reach you and you haven't been picking up." Aunt Cass eyed the phone in your hand.
You unlocked your phone and noticed how many missed calls you received from him, and a new message from him.
'Call me, when you're ready.' Was all it said.
A/N: Want a more sweet Tadashi x Reader fanfic? Check out my other fanfic 'Bittersweet'! This story is also on Quotev!
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