Thnx to all those who reviewed my lil song fic thingy...
U guys gave me a lot of inspiration, but I decided to write a chapter on Heero
It is no longer a song fic, but hope u will enjoy it anyway...

It is based on what Heero is thinking, and his emotions...
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//How could I do this to her...?// Heero thought sleeplessly on his bed.

He had been with Sylvia for a month now, but he just couldn't forget about Relena. After all he
did still love her...

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"Heero..." greeted Sylvia with a nod.

Heero did not reply, he just gave her a nod back, and kept his eyes closed.

They were in a dirty old alley, behind a club. Duo was throwing up in a corner, with Quatre
comforting him, patting him on the back. He had a lot to drink that night, thanks to Wu-Fei. Wu-
Fei had a drinking contest with him, and being the baka that Duo was he took the challenge, and
look what it led to...

"What are you doing here?" asked Trowa, who was leaning on the dirty wall beside Heero.

"Hello, Trowa, I'm here the same reason you are: to have some fun..." she replied with an evil
smirk on her face.

The gundam boys never really liked her, but they forced themselves to try to get along with her
for Relena's sake. Heero always thought she was a bitch, but had never told anyone he thought
about her that way. He just kept to himself and remained real quiet around her.

"Duo, would you hurry up, you baka..." asked Heero finally.

"Well, there is no point in having so much people wait for him. Why don't you leave him to
Quatre and come inside." asked Sylvia.

"She's right you guys. You guys go back inside and have fun, I'll take care of Duo." put in
Quatre. It was Heero's only day off, and the blond boy didn't want him to waste it waiting until
Duo stopped throwing up in a smelly alley.

"Suit yourself then Quatre" Heero replied, who was walking back into the club followed closely
by Trowa.

"You sure you're going to be ok by yourself?" asked Trowa.

Quatre smiled at Trowa, reassuring him that it was going to be fine. He knew how to defend
himself. Duo was too busy to say anything.

Wu-Fei watched Sylvia closely, she was up to something, he knew it, but it wasn't any of his
business, men didn't gossip he convinced himself, and looked away.

Sylvia wrapped her arm around Heero's, but he quickly brushed her arm off, he was with Relena
now, he shot her a warning .

"Come on Heero, let's go get a drink..." Sylvia said still smiling.

"Trowa..." began Heero, but he was gone.

//Great. When you need him he's no where in sight.// thought Heero

He gave Sylvia a nod.

They ordered their drinks, and chatted with each other. Once in a while a guy or two would
approach Sylvia to ask for her number, but she quickly turned them down. The same happened
with Heero, many girls were approaching him, but once they got a look at his death glare, they
backed off on their own. One girl was very persistent, and kept coming on to him. Sylvia took
advantage of this situation and quickly slipped a powder into Heero's beer. Heero finally
managed to convince the girl to leave him alone.

Sylvia smiled wickedly, "This is to you and Relena, may you two be together forever..." she
toasted.

Heero brought his glass up and they drank.

Sylvia watched happily as Heero took a sip from his glass, and after a couple of minutes, he
began to sway a little and finally collapsed on the table. She made sure no one saw her as she
helped an unconscious Heero into a taxi.

"Sylvia... what are you doing?" a voice asked from behind her.

Sylvia quickly turned around and faced Hilde.

"Oh... Hilde. I was just helping Heero get home... He had a little too much to drink." she
answered.

"Well where's Duo? Shouldn't he be taking Heero home? They do live in the same apartment..."
pointed out Hilde. She was very curious.

"He's a little busy." answered Sylvia. "Don't you trust me Hilde? Relena does..." she added with a
smirk.

Hilde finally gave up and went to check on her boyfriend Duo.

//Whew... that was a close one// thought Sylvia.

When they arrived at her apartment, she helped Heero onto her bed, and took his shirt off.

//Have to make this look real...// she thought, shredding his t-shirt.

She then went to her closet and bought out several items of clothing. She threw one of her bras
on the dresser, she threw her thong on the lamp which was beside the bed, making sure that it
was the first thing Heero would see when he woke up. The shredded t-shirt, she threw on a
random spot on the floor. She took off her skirt and threw it on the stool that was resting on the
foot of the bed, and put on a pair of spandex shorts. She took her top off and threw it beside
Heero's shredded shirt, and put on a tube top.

//Now for the final touches...// she thought as she examined the room.

She took her shoes and placed them in different places of the room and she did the same for
Heero's. She tipped some light pieces of furniture over and made it look like there was a
struggle. She unbuckled Heero's belt and pants, but left them on. Finally, she crawled into the
bed and put the sheets over her and Heero. It was already 3:00 in the morning, and the drugs
would wear off soon.

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// Oh... My head is killing me...// Heero woke up rubbing his head.

He felt someone's head on his chest, and he was topless!!!!!! He jerked up violently and looked
around the room.

// What did I do????. What the fuck happened...// he thought with eyes wide open.

"Heero, you're awake..." Sylvia said quietly, with covers pulled up.

"What happened? Where am I?" asked Heero.

"Last night... Heero...We..." Sylvia stumbled, with a blush.

//NO!!!!!!!!!!. This can't happen... I always thought Relena would be my first...// he thought to
himself.

He jumped out of bed, and looked for his shirt in the mess that was caused. He finally found it,
but it was shredded pretty badly, then a new thought came to him.

// Did I rape her???//. //Is that why there's such a mess?// he thought. A million questions flowed
through his head.

Sylvia slipped out of the bed quietly.

"It's ok Heero. I won't tell anyone..." Sylvia said hugging him from his back.

He dropped his t-shirt and turned around to look at her...

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"I have to call her, and tell her what happened." decided Heero, one day.

No one knew what happened that night. Not even Duo. But it was eating Heero up alive, he
couldn't take it anymore. He picked up his phone and dialed Relena's number, it rang twice
before she picked up.

"Hello? Hey Relena, it's me, Heero... you busy right now?" he asked.

"Hey Hee-Chan, Yeah, I'm kind of busy-" she started to say, but Heero couldn't take it anymore.
She didn't deserve someone like him. She deserved someone much better, someone who would
treat her right.

"This won't take long..." he said.

" Well O.K. then..."Relena answered, her voice full of doubt.

"Relena... I ...don't think our relationship is working out... and I can't lie to you anymore. Sylvia
and I, we're-" Heero started to explain, but he heard a click. Relena hung up on him. Well, he
deserved it. Heero got off the couch and went to take a shower. He felt so dirty, for doing this...
He wanted it all to flow away, down the drain, with the water, but he knew it wasn't that easy.

He knew Relena wouldn't want to look at someone like him anymore. He wanted to end it all,
there was nothing worth living for anymore...


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Stayed tuned to find out ^ ~
Well there you go people, another chapter.
It was a bit better than I thought it would be, and i know I'm being very mean to relena and
Heero, but then again... Oh well.

Hope you liked it and don't forget to leave me a review!!!!!
Thnx go out to all those who did and thnx for all the cool song suggestions, although i didn't use
them they were all good songs ^ ~

There will be one more chapter coming out, I have no idea what its going to be about, but i know
for certain, that it will end this fic!!!!!! so keep posted.

And thnx again for readin ^_~