Senior year
I walk into the Lopez's house after I receive a text from Santana to come over. After we introduced each other freshman year are friendship took off. I reformed myself into the sweet "innocent" girl I am today and showed her the real me. We fell in loveā¦hard. After, a long battle with herself Santana finally let herself be who she is and by the end of sophomore year I had her completely. We've been going out ever since. I smile at the memories.
"Hi, Sanny." I said smiling at my beautiful girlfriend. Santana looks up at me and my smile immediately fades away when I see her normally happy chocolate brown eyes are now filled with sadness and guilt? Why guilt?
"Britt, baby." She says with a sob. My heart aches when I hear how distressed she is.
"Sweetheart, what's wrong?" I said while grabbing her hand. She immediately breaks down into tears and I wrap my arms around her trying my best to comfort her.
"I I Im so so sorry. I I was d drunk." She says between sobs. Wait? What is she talking about? I pull back and look in her eyes.
"What happened, Santana?" I say with a little more sternness in my voice preparing me for the worst.
I see her visibly gulp before opening her mouth telling me the four most painful words ever uttered. "I I cheated on you." She starts to cry even harder. I feel something break inside of me and all the sadness and heart ache I was just feeling is being shoved away by anger. The old me would never show vulnerability. At that moment I know that the sweet innocent Britt I built in McKinely high is gone. I feel a hand on my arm and eyes on me.
"B Britt baby, please say s something." She says with pleading eyes. I bring myself to look at her before getting up and leaving the Lopez house without a word leaving a distraught and heartbroken Santana behind.
I walk straight to my room without a word to my parents. I sit on my bed feeling the need to cry but I can't. The old me wouldn't dare cry so I settle for punching the mirror until it shatters and I'm just left with a bloody hand and a broken heart.
"Come here sweetie. It's time for some more special daddy and daughter time" he says grabbing my upper arm forcefully as I try not to cry. I cant fight it. It's going to happen whether I like it or not. I have to be strong he cant see weakness or it'll be worse. He looks down and sees a tear down my face. Now it'll be worse.
"What the fuck is this!? Don't you understand this is not to hurt you! It's because I love you that I'm doing this you ungrateful bitch" He says with obvious anger right before he raises his hand to slap me.
I wake up with a jolt and sweat all over me. This is the first nightmare I've had since I first saw her. *sigh* I even need her to sleep right. I feel tears start to threaten to fall. No! I can't cry, it'll be worse if I show weakness. I get up and dressed then I climb out of my window. I need to get out. I need to forget.
I don't want to risk waking my parents by starting my car or bike so I walk instead. After, walking for a while I find myself at Puck's house. Even though I transferred we still remained close. No matter what he's still my best friend even though I was a new reformed person..well was...that girl is gone...again.
"Yo Puckerman open your door." I yell by his window loud enough so only he can hear. He opens the window and sees me.
"Pierce? Dude, what the fuck?" he half yells half whispers but all I see is concern in his eyes.
"Just open your front door."
He lets me inside and I tell him everything that happened today. He's pissed that Santana did what she did. He hates that she hurt me so deep and bad.
"Dude, I I just want to punch the little fuck that she cheated on me with then just fuck some random girl. I need her out of my head!" I yell with tears in my eyes.
"No, Britt you don't want to put your dick into some random girl and you know it." He says. Oh did I mention that I was born with a dick? That's right I'm a girl with a dick and not a small one either. Girl's used to line up at Lincoln high whenever they found out and they were not disappointed with my performance. That all stopped when i met her. After that I used it to pleasure her and only her.
"Well apparently my dick wasn't enough for her," I say fighting back the tears, "So why shouldn't I just have sex with some random chick!"
"Because! Look at you, you're trying so hard not to cry but I can see you need to. She made you turn into a better person. I've never seen to people more in love than you two. She made a mistake and look at what happened, I don't want you to make the same mistake." He says rubbing my back. I know he's right.
"You're right, Noah." I look outside and I see the sun rising. "I should probably get going. I need to run home before my parents wake up." I say as I get up from the bed.
"Come on I'll drive you, Britt." He says offering me a smile. I give him a slight nod as I walk slowly towards his car not wanting this day to start.
