Jess spent the next hour or so avoiding Adam. But she knew it wouldn't work when she was constantly getting called into Resus to help-out.
"Okay on 3..." Dixie began.
"Hey." Sounded a voice from closely next to Jess. Of-Course, it was Adam.
"Hi." She said with a weak-smile before they lifted the patient-over.
"Ad can I leave this one with you?" Zoe asked.
"Yeah sure." He replied as another patient was wheeled through to Peeds, and Zoe went out to join-them, it was a busy-day for Holby ED, even the Cubicles were filling-up quickly today.
Adam was given the patients notes by Noel before he walked over to the bed to talk to Jess. "Listen Jess, I'm sorry about earlier..." He said softly to her, so the patient didn't hear-him too clearly.
"Hey I'm sorry too, I shouldn't of gotten angry at you, everyone has bad-days..." She trailed-off as she slid her hand gently down Adam's arm before taking his hand into her-own.
"Yeah Jess, about-that, it's not just a bad-day." Adam began.
"Oh?" Jess asked worriedly.
"Yeah urm..." Tears began to form at the back of Adam's eyes. "Today's the..." Adam sniffed a few-tears in and Jess tenderly placed a hand against his cheek.
"Hey, what's-up? Adam, come-on...you can tell me." She whispered to him kindly.
Adam composed himself then looked at Jess directly in the eyes. "It's the anniversary of my parent's death today...it's the day of the car-crash...the 3rd July..." Adam said before he couldn't hold back anymore-tears, so allowed them to fall-freely from his-face.
"Oh Adam, come-here." She told-him as she wrapped her arms around his neck, feeling very sorry for her fiance, but also feeling-very-guilty for going-on at him this-morning.
Adam hugged her back as the tears-fell. Nick spotted them hugging from outside of Resus and popped his head around the door.
"Is everything okay in here?" He asked gently, knowing how Adam was feeling today. Usually he would've shouted at them for being all loved-up when they should be treating a patient, but today was different.
Jess released the hug and Adam turned away from Nick, not wanting him to see his tears. He rested his hands on the side. Jess walked-over to Nick. "Yeah, he'll be just-fine, but could you take-over for a while?" Jess had guessed that Nick already knew, he had been there through Alex's death so the pair of Doctors had a friendly-connection over-that.
"Of-Course I can." He said softly to Jess before walking over to Adam and putting a hand on his back. "You Go Mate, I've got this-one for you..."
Adam looked-up at Nick tearfully. "Okay, Thanks." He replied before walking towards Jess, then out of Resus with her.
Adam and Jess headed-straight for the staffroom and Adam sat-down on the sofa as Zoe followed-them-in.
"Hey, cheer-up grumpy-guts." Zoe teased.
Adam took an angry breath-in that could be heard. Jess sat-down next to Adam and placed a hand on his shoulder, telling-him not to say anything, but of-coruse that was ignored by the stubborn-Doctor.
"Zo will you just stop-it!" He told-her angrily before he stormed-out and headed-outside.
"Woah, what was that all-about?" She asked Jess as Jess rose-to-her-feet.
"It's the anniversary of his parents-death today, and he's struggling without Alex here to comfort-him..." Jess revealed to Zoe, she had the right to know.
Zoe looked-shocked, Adam had never mentioned any of this to her. "What? His parents are dead? When did they die?" Zoe asked quietly to Jess.
"When he was a kid, in a terrible car-accident..." Jess told Zoe.
"Oh bless-him, that's awful, he should've said something, I never would've..." Zoe sighed sadly then looked-down.
Jess placed a hand on Zoe's lower-arm.
"Oh Zoe don't-worry about-it, his mind's not in a good-place today, I'm sure he'll come-around tomorrow, but look I best go and see-him..."
"Yeah sure, tell-him I'm sorry yeah?" Zoe requested to Jess and Jess nodded with a sympathetic-smile.
Jess found Adam leant against the wall outside of the ED. She silently, and slowly-approached-him, leaning against the wall, next to Adam.
"They'd be so proud-of-you, you-know?" Jess began.
Adam turned to look at her. She had a beautiful-face, just-like his Mother's soft and fragile.
"I know." He whispered with a calm-but-sad-smile. Adam's hand gently ran through Jess' hair as Jess' hand reached-up and rested against the side of Adam's-Neck.
"Zoe wanted you to know how sorry she is, I told her not to worry, but maybe you should go and speak to her later-on hey?" Jess suggested.
Adam sighed. "Oooaahh...it's not her fault, she wasn't to know."
"Hey don't worry about-it, she understands what you're going through..."
Adam looked-away from Jess for a second and breathed-in deeply. "How can ANYONE understand what I'm going through, the only person who could possibly understand is Alex, and he's not with-us anymore, and it's all my stupid-fault for not being-there for him when I needed-to-be..." Adam trailed-off sadly as the tears returned to his eyes.
"Heyyy, Adam it's not your fault." She comforted before she leanedup towards his lips and kissed-him. "I Love-You." She said as she released the kiss. "Stop blaming-yourself for this sweetheart, you couldn't have doen anything about that Car-Crash, nor could you change Alex's mind, no-matter how-much you liked to think you could've done..." Jess said with small-smile before she kissed Adam again.
Adam kissed Jess back then took a big-breath-in before slowly releasing-it. "She was just like-you, you know? My Mother. She was...pretty, kind, caring...beautiful." Adam told Jess, refusing to move his eyes away from hers.
Jess smiled at Adam. "I'm sure she was all of those things Ad, and it reflects in you, she brought you-up-well, and you and Alex have done your parents-proud, now come-on, there's a kid in there who needs your help, you couldn't save your family Ad, but you can save this boy. Can't you Adam?" Jess encouraged-him.
"It's the reason I became a Doctor-Jess, to save the people in pain. I couldn't bear to see people in pain when I started-out as an F2. What I didn't realsie until now was that it was actually all a cover-up for my-own pain. But it's never affected-me all that much so it's never hit-me, that that's the reason..."
Jess and Adam kissed-once-more before they headed-into the ED together.
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