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Author's note: I'm sorry for should the delay on this, but i've been waiting to get this back from beta for a week. It hasn't come back yet, so this unchecked so sorry for any mistakes. Thanks for all your reviews.

Dreams shatter not break

Chapter 1- Getting back to reality

It's amazing how things get stuck in your head. You try and try to think of something else, anything. Just hoping that you can get rid of the mental pictures in your head. But it never works. Every time you shut your eyes the memories play behind them. That was what happened every time my eyes closed. The bodies pilled high being licked at by flames. Jacob's terrified eyes as he watched his friends burn. The tears that glistened in his eyes as he turned and ran. These images would haunt me forever. Edward was wrong vampires were not distracted easily.

I sat in the small-enclosed forest crying invisible tears. The wind whipped around me and the rain hammered at my back. But I noticed none of it; I was over come by grief. One week I had been in this state. But I couldn't help thinking it was entirely my fault. I knew that everyone else disagreed with me. But my conscious was still there in the back of my head whispering, you did this, these deaths were caused by you.

All the werewolves that were slaughtered, they may have been enemies, but they didn't deserve to die. They were protecting their families, and what did I do, helped kill them all and took them away from the people who cared about them. At the time I didn't think about that, I just killed. But now I had time to think I realised what I had done. I had not only killed someone, but I had taken them away from their loved ones, denied someone the chance of grand children.

And I'd left Jacob. He was the one that had cared for me when Edward was gone; he even cared when I was a vampire. And I had left him, friendless, hurt and alone. But I could not go back for him. It had all changed. Edward was back he was my sun, whereas Jacob was my moon. Only visible when the sun is gone. The leaves behind me rustled as a vicious wind attacked them. But my thoughts were not disturbed.

Only the sharp, sweet, chirp of a bird made me turn. Yes I still had Charlie, but I hardly ever used him. It wasn't fair to keep a wild creature as a slave. He had once again brought me a note. I already knew whom it was from and what it said. I took it from Charlie before he flew off again. The note slipped from my hand and as it joined the growing pile on the floor Edward's sweet voice entered my head and spoke its message.

Please come back

I wasn't ready, but I had to go. Edward was worried. He thought I hated him. He was wrong. I didn't hate him I hated myself. I stood and the wind danced around me tugging at my hair and clothes. I cleared my head and thought clearly. I'm coming. The wind disappeared and all was calm. My powers had changed. Now I could project my voice into the wind, but because of that the wind always followed me.

I went to run my fingers through my hair, but stopped as I came across a mass of knots and tangles. I sighed and closed my eyes. But instantly regretted it as the images came back. I was almost glad that I could no longer sleep, because at least I would not be haunted by nightmares. But then again, while I was awake, my head tormented me and I knew only the sweet release of sleep would rid me of it. As of this, I would live forever with it.

My bare feet walked across the ground, crunching the leaves underneath my feet. Soil covered me making my already brown feet black. I stepped out of the forest. The sight still amazed me. The mountains rose up into the sky, covered by think green forests. The sky blue, without a blemish. And then hidden in the middle of it all on the valley floor, the beautiful log cabin that my family called home.

When we first arrived in this remote location there was not a house in sight, but after some careful planning Esme had constructed the most beautiful house ever seen. There was space for us all inside. But I had not seen much of it. I had left the day it had been finished. I had told them I needed time alone. I still needed that time, but there was no time left. I had eternity and still I did not have enough time.

I knew Edward would be waiting for me at the door, his bronze hair blowing in the wind. I knew that when he saw me his face would erupt into a smile, causing me to smile. It would seem as if all problems had gone. But only me, and Jasper would no different. There would always be that little voice in my head reminding me about it all. And I doubted that anything would ever change that.

I was right. As I stepped onto the top of the hill I could see him. Stood at the door with that crooked smile of his covering his face. I smiled and the voice became quieter. But it as still there just not as loud. I ran towards him the dirt flying up behind me. I stopped inches from his face.

"I missed you." He said before his lips crashed into mine. His soft lips pressed against me and opened. His smooth tongue ran over mine. And after a few minutes we broke apart.

"I missed you too." I whispered back. We smiled at each other and in the back of my head I heard Murderer. Once again I was glad Edward could not hear my thoughts. As he bend to kiss me again I was so sure that nothing would ever hurt me again. Nothing would spilt us up again. But I was so wrong.