Hey guys! I'm so glad you guys are intrigued by the first chapter! Just want to clear a few things up that y'all mentioned in your reviews.

Amanda is pregnant, not Olivia. And this follows canon so Tuckson broke up the same way they did on the show.

ENJOY!


Feeling his heart racing in his chest, Ed Tucker made his way swiftly through the halls of Mercy Hospital. As soon as Carisi informed him that Olivia was in the hopital, he hung up and headed out the door neglecting to ask for information. She was hurt and if he was being called after a year and a half, it couldn't be good.

Rounding the corner, he noticed that his feet started to move faster at the sight of Carisi pacing the hallway. When Ed reached him, Carisi noticed the panic emitting from his eyes. "She's fine", he prefaced, holding up his hands in a calming motion. Ed released a breath he didn't even know he was holding as he waited anxiously for him to continue. "She took a header coming out of the shower, sustaining a pretty bad head injury."

Ed's brought his to scrub his face as his eyes darted around, his brain trying to comprehend the weight of the situation. "Is she...", he cleared his throat, his voice gruff. "How's her brain?

"Good", Sonny nodded, trying his best to sound convincing. "She recognizes Noah, us. She's aware of who she is and all that..." He trailed off, adverting his eyes.

Sensing the change in the other man's demeanor, Ed's heart dropped. "What is it?" He asked, his voice practically a breath.

Shifting nervously from one foot to another, Carisi reluctantly met his eyes. "She just doesn't know when she is...", he explained slowly. Ed's eyebrows knitted together at his words causing him to continue. "She thinks you guys are still together. I don't know when exactly but the doctor is one the way to assess her."

Nodding, Ed's eyes shifted to the door. "Is she awake?"

"Yeah, she's waiting for you." As he went to move passed Carisi, he felt a hand on his shoulder stopping him. "Um, the left side of her face is... pretty bad, just so you're aware." Ed nodded in response. "Thanks for coming, Capt'n."

Clasping a hand on the younger man's shoulder, he replied. "She needs me, I'm here." With those words, he pushed passed him and opened the door.

Entering the room, Ed felt everyone's eyes on him. He nodded at Amanda who was at the corner of the room, holding Jessie on her lap, who smiled at him in return. He could feel Dodds eyes practically shooting daggers at his back from where he was leaning against the wall.

And that when his eyes landed on her.

She was laying in the hospital bed with Noah snuggled into her side, looking as vulnerable as he had ever seen her. Dark bruising littered the left side of her face and the swelling made her eye to appear half closed. Despite her injuries, she still took his breath away. He could see the weight lifting from her shoulders when she saw him, like she was drowning and he was her life preserver. God, he had missed that look.

Anxiety rose against the back of his neck as he approached her bedside. How do you greet someone who you haven't seen for a year and a half but still thinks you're together?

His nerves were instantly eased when she reached her hand out and grabbed his, their fingers automatically intertwining. Ed couldn't help the smile that tugged at the corner of his lips as he looked down at their hands, a slight ache clutched his heart at the sight of an IV sprouting from the back of her hand.

"Ed", she whispered, a smile on her face as happy tears prickled the corner of her eyes.

At the sound of his mother's voice, Noah lifted his head from the crook of her neck and his eyes lit up. Carefully maneuvering his way to the edge of the bed, he leaped into Ed's arms. "Tucker! You're back!" He squeaked excitedly, causing Ed to let out a chuckle while wrapping his arms around his small body.

"No, my man! You got so big." He said kissing the side of the boys head. Hearing a quiet sniffling, he looked over and saw the beginnings of tears spilling from the corners of her eyes. With one arm still holding Noah, he reached out the other and ran his rough fingertips along the inside of he left forearm in a calming motion.

Pulling back, Noah braced his hands against Ed's strong shoulders. "You have to see my room! Mama painted but I helped." He explained before leaning closer and whispering loudly. "Mama's pancakes aren't as good as yours, she can't make them look like Mickey."

Ed's heart deflated at the child's words, a reminder of his life with the people he had hoped would be his family. Trying to not let them see the smile disappear from his eyes, he turned his attention back to Olivia. "How are you feeling, Olivia?"

She couldn't help but feel a twinge of disappointment, he hadn't used her full name since they started dating. It was so... formal. Her eyes dotted around to the other occupants in the room and he could tell that she didn't feel comfortable talking to him with everyone around.

"Hey bud, why don't you go with Sonny for a couple of minutes while I talk to mom?" Ed suggested, scratching the boy's belly lightly. Noah nodded in response and ran towards Carisi once his feet hit the floor as Ed addressed the adults in the room. "Can you guys give us a minute?"

Carisi and Rollins happily obliged, gathering Jessie and Noah and heading for the door while Dodds stared down Ed from where he stood. "Do you mind?" Ed spat as he stared back at him.

Breaking his silence, Dodds stepped forward. "Actually, I do."

Pressing his hand against the chief's chest, Carisi stopped him. "Liv wants to talk to him, let her talk." Shrugging away from his hand, Chief Dodds practically growled under his breath before turning and stalking out of the room followed by Sonny.

Standing by her bedside, Ed looked down as an awkward silence enveloped them. She saw his hands clench and relax at his side and sensing his uneasiness, Olivia slipped her hand into his again. His eyes fell shut at the feeling off her warm palm against his, a shaky breath leaving his parted lips.

"Tuck", she let out in a quivering sob. His eyes shot opened at her emotional tone, her familiar nickname for him softening his exterior. "I have no idea what's going on." She weeped, releasing his hand and bringing both of hers to cover her face.

Pushing his pride aside, he sat on the edge of the bed. He took her hands away from her face and held them in his lap. "Hey", he whispered gently, trying to get her attention. She opened her wet eyes and looked at him, a look of defeat marring her features. "Talk to me."

Her fingers fidgeted against his as she tried to gather her thoughts. "The last thing I remember we had just gotten back from Paris and then I wake up here, dating Dodds." She said his name like it tasted bitter on her tongue. "They tell me we're not together anymore. And the craziest thing is when they told me that the only person who I wanted to talk about it with was... you."

Bringing his hands up to the uninjured side of her face, he gently wiped the tears away with his thumb. "Shhh", he soothed as her body shook with silent sobs. "I'm here now, talk to me."

Taking in a deep breath, she clasped his hands with hers as she reigned in her emotions. "They said that I fell stepping out of the shower and banged my head on the vanity." She explained and Ed's brows knitted together in confusion. Olivia was very graceful and rarely ever clumsy. "Noah came in and found me and called 911. He must have been so scared." She squeaked, her hand coming up to cover her mouth as she dissolved into tears once again.

Still unsure of what was appropriate in their situation, he hesitantly reached out his hands and ran them along her bare arms. "You've got a brave boy there, Liv. He would do anything to help his mama." He consoled. She nodded, visibly calming down at his soothing words and the familiar feeling of his hands against her skin.

"And then he comes in and sees me like this." She sighed, motioning to her bruised face. "I must look like a monster."

Muscle memory took over and Ed brought his hand up to the side of her neck, his thumb brushing gently over her cheek. "With those eyes and that smile you can never look like a monster." Her heart clenched at his words and she leaned into his welcoming palm.

He couldn't bring himself to look away from her, her eyes closed and as she nuzzled against his hand. Despite the sterile smell, her familiar scent invade his nostrils and it made his heart race.

Opening her eyes, she looked at him with her eyes brimming with tears. "What happened to us?" She croaked, her words causing his heart to break all over again.

He cleared his throat, trying to rid it of the emotion he knew was there. How can he tell her that he was ready to settle down with her and she pushed him to the side? Especially when she was looking at him the way she was now. "We don't have to talk about that right now." He rasped.

Just as she was about to open her mouth to speak, there was a a light knock on the door and a petite Asian woman in scrubs and a lab coat entered. A small smile graced Olivia's face as she recognized the doctor as one that had helped her on many cases in the past.

"I'm happy to see you again, Lieutenant." The doctor smiled kindly as she reached the bedside. "However, I do wish it was under different circumstances."

"Hi, Dr. Pham", Olivia greeted with a forced smile. She noticed that her other guestS had begun to file back into the room.

Taking a pen light out from a pocket on her lab coat, Dr. Pham shined it in Olivia's slightly opened left eye. "So, I hear you're having some memory loss?" She asked, moving the light to her other eye to check her pupillary reaction.

Olivia nodded in response, extremely aware of Ed's hand resting on her blanketed thigh. "Do you know what year it is, Olivia?" The doctor asked and Olivia's eyes shifted around the room. Amanda and Sonny were in the corner with Jessie and Noah, their eyes laced with hope and worry. While Dodds was leaning against the door jam, his eyes radiating with anger at Ed's proximity.

"2016?" She replied, more of a question than a statement. The doctor face remained professional, not outwardly reacting to her answer but she could sense the air in the room shifting.

Placing her pen light back into the breast pocket of her white jacket, Dr. Pham reached for Olivia's chart. "And can you tell me who the president is?" She asked while scribbling notes down furiously.

"Obama." She answered, seeing Ed's face drop out of the corner of her eye.

"If only." Carisi snorted from his spot next his wife, earning a smack on the chest.

Turning her attention back to her patient, she asked. "What is the last thing you remember?"

Closing her eyes, Olivia tried to gather her thoughts. "Um, we had just gotten back from Paris. We were working on the case with the little boy who had the gun in the park."

Dr. Pham glanced at Ed a questioning look on her face. "That was about two years ago." Ed confirmed. Olivia's eyes widened as she let out a heavy breath. Two years. She had missed two years of her life, of her son's life.

Finishing her notes, the doctor closed her chart and placed it under her arm. "Well, Olivia, it looks like you're suffering from retrograde amnesia." She could see the panic flash in her patient's tear filled eyes and continued quickly to put her mind at ease. "I assure you that it is extremely common in a brain injury like yours and in most cases the patient does regain their full memory."

As if it had a mind of its own, Olivia's hand immediately clasped Ed's. While surprised at her action, he held her hand and covered it with his other in an attempt to soothe her. "What do we do moving forward?" She asked, her voice shaky.

"You're going to need some time to heal physically but besides that just continue with your usual day to day life. You won't be able to get back to work until we clear you but go home, spend time with your son, look around your house. As you heal your brain will start to remember." The doctor explained and even though her head was spinning, Olivia nodded. "You will get severe headaches from time to time and with your bruised ribs it won't be easy to get around, I suggest having someone stop in often to help you. Especially during the day."

Stepping forward, Dodds cleared his throat. "I got it, Doc."

Sensing Olivia's uneasiness, Carisi stepped forward. "With all do respect, Chief, Lieu doesn't remember the last two years. To her, you're just a work acquaintance. Why don't we let her chose?" He suggested, seeing his boss' warm eyes thanking him.

"Detective Carisi is right." Dr. Pham agreed before turning to her patient. "Stress is not good for your recovery. It should be someone who you are familiar with, someone you're used to having around."

Looking around the room and the expectant eyes, Olivia's eventually landed on Ed's face as he looked down at their joined hands. "Tuck...", she muttered, causing his eyes to shoot up in surprise. "I mean... if you have time."

Stepping forward, Dodds garnered their attention. His hardened expression sending a chill down her spine. "I'm heading back to work, I'll... call you." He practically hissed before turning and leaving the room.

Olivia jumped slightly at the sound of the door slamming as she watching Ed turn his attention back to her. "For you, Liv, I have all the time in the world." He stated. He knew this was not helpful for his mending heart but how could he deny her?


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