Anxiety

BB's pov

I watched the boys fall asleep, lost in incoherent dreams. There was something about that boy. Matt. Mail Jeevas. He was always there to stop me falling into the grasp of insanity. But the numbers I saw above his head were limited, he had a short life. 01262010 1723. 19 years of life. That means I have 19 years to get to know him, minus the 9 he has already lived. Hmmmm. Why was this particular boy always near him? I stuck my finger in the jar of jam I had, withdrawing its sticky contents, and licking the sickly sweet substance off my finger. I instantly got my fix off strawberries; they soothed the itch in my throat, as if every strawberry seed was massaging me. One can never know the enjoyment of eating pure strawberry jam. Especially not L. No, he was always dumping sugar down his throat, but when kissed after eating strawberries, the enjoyment was far more potent than just jam. It was bliss. Heaven. Replacing the lid on my jar of jam, I climbed down the tree and set off back inside to seduce L. I really love L. I hope he's eaten strawberries.

L's pov

"Hmmm... yes. I see your point. But nevertheless we must not let slip at all costs. And watari?" I left the question closed. The old man must be getting annoyed with my requests.

"Yes?" Watari was always quick to answer.

"Can you please fetch me some strawberry cake from the kitchens please?"

"Certainly L" He left for my cake, while I piled sugar into my new cup of coffee. The other one had gone cold when I had my mind attending to another matter of a new urgency.

I reached over to my laptop, and with a click of the mouse, it whirred to life. Watari returned as I finished up some documents from a case I had recently finished.

"Here you go, enjoy" He set my cake down. I didn't see him leave but he probably had. I noticed the pattern on the china. It was off two birds flying freely. This made my mood worsen. But on the upside I had my cake. Biting into the fluffy sponge, I felt my stomach twinge in excitement, and my mood instantly went from depressed to ecstatic. Feeling the layer of strawberry jam coat my tongue, I sighed in content. Before the next bite I put some sugar on top.

"You'll ruin your teeth doing that L." Beyond's voice came from the door way.

"Why would you care if my teeth got ruined? And I need to eat the sugary things because of my high metab-" Beyond cut me off

"I know, I know. Your high metabolism. At least your cake is strawberry. Can I have some?" He asked for the impossible.

"No." I pouted. He came and sat opposite me. Before I could react, he reached over and swiped a finger over the top of my cake, and licked the jam off his finger. Satisfaction was visible on his face.

I pulled my cake away from him as he laughed at the look on my face.

"Lovely. Bet it would taste better with you" With you? What did he mean? But before I could ask him to elaborate, he put his face close to mine. I could smell strawberries on his breath, melting me for some reason. Melting me? I do NOT melt!

Before I had a chance to argue, beyond had kissed me. Had? Still was doing. In fact the term 'lock lips' sprang to my mind. What was he doing? He had his hands cupped around my face drawing me closer. Then he let me go.

"What's the matter?" It was a simple question, but I couldn't reply. I just looked at him. He had kissed me. L. Why? He knew I had no emotions. No feel of love, friendship, defiantly not family. Maybe watari came close to a dad, but I certainly held no feelings to him. Neither Nate, or Mihael or Mail. They just had to become me. But Matt (Mail) probably wouldn't he just followed Mello (Mihael). Mello hated Near (Nate) but Near would always be 'first'. I didn't really care as long as one made it.

So why had this man, this person who had the chance to be my successor, just kissed me?

"B-Beyond. What was that?" I meant the feeling.

"That L was a kiss." He was playing stupid

"No. That feeling. What was it?" It had me stumped

"Love" Just a simple answer, held so many questions.

I decided that I like love.

I like it a lot.

Mello's pov

I woke up with matt in my arms. Feeling him there, warm, and sleeping peacefully was reassuring. I moved slightly, before getting up to go to the bathroom. On my way, our digital clock read 07:34. Class was starting in just about 25 minutes.

"Hey, Matt! C'mon, class starts soon" He stirred a bit then fully woke up.

"Hey Mel…" His voice trailed off as he saw the look on my face.

"Well go to breakfast together, okay?" He had no choice.

"Yeah… let me just get dressed" He sounded beat.

We went down to the dining room at quarter to eight. When we walked in, we immediately saw Beyond Birthday and L chatting. Quite amicably, if is say so. When Beyond saw us he smiled. Or rather when he saw Matt he smiled. I was NOT having it. I marched up to him without a word. And punched him square in the nose.

"Mello. What are you doing?" L's voice (as usual) sounded uninterested.

"Isn't it obvious? I punched him." I was angry. It kinda showed in my tone.

"Mello, let's just go. Please." I heard matt behind me. He sounded scared.

Beyond however had come up off the floor, and looked even more menacing that when he didn't have blood on him.

"Mello, Is it? Yo-" he was cut off by L.

"No Beyond. We are leaving. It was a disaster waiting to happen; letting you come along." With that he got up, grabbed Beyond by the arm and led him of.

"Matt?" he was shaking slightly.

"I'm… I'm okay. Let's just eat, 'kay?" He walked to our usual spot by the window. As always it was deserted. I had laid down the rules. This was OUR space no-one elses, End of.

"Pancakes, with chocolate sauce." The chocolate sauce was vital

"Hahaha! Mello, you are so predictable!" In a way I was.

"Just the way I like it!" Then when I said that in my head, I couldn't believe the purr I put in my voice!

"I'd like to see you covered in chocolate" Wait, what?

"Really?" My face went a bit red, and I smiled too. I couldn't help myself.

"HAHAHAHA!" He startled me by laughing. Some of the hall looked our way. They looked away once my gaze met theirs.

"You totally fell for it!" I was hurt. Really.

"B-b-but, I…" The bell went.

We always waited until everyone left, taking out time. We had at least 5-10 minutes before actual classes started. We had to get out books. When everyone had left, Matt was with me at my side. I looked at him. He looked at me. I blushed. But god knows why! I looked again. He kissed me.