After everyone had headed out for breakfast the next morning Remus had stayed behind since he woke up late. Remus felt pretty well after his good night's sleep. Sirius had really helped him get the fear out of his dreams somehow. After getting his pants and shirt changed to his uniform he began to organize his things and hum a song his parents listened to over the summer. Somehow it got stuck in his head. He began top quietly sing in an attempt to get the song out of his head.

"If I didn't care. More than words can say." He swayed a little. He began to tie his tie. "If I didn't care would I feel this way?" He smiled and kept swaying. This was about the time that James reached the slightly ajar door of their room. He had rushed back to get his tie. "And what makes my head go round and round while my heart stands still. If I didn't care would it be the same?"

Remus began to pull his school robes on over his uniform. He rocked his he slowly back and forth he the music playing in his head. "Would my every prayer begin and end with just your name? And would I be sure that this is love beyond compare?"

James listened to his friend singing in his oddly chipper mood. He thought about how he saw Sirius have Remus slip down to the common room last night and they spent a while down there. Surely, they were alone. "No," James breathed out and Remus jumped and turned to face the door. James began to panic, should he run or just walk in?

"Hello?" Remus asked looking quizzically at the door. "You can come in." He warmly invited the unknown person.

James gave up his internal battle and slowly entered the room. "I didn't know if you were decent. I was about to knock."

Remus just nodded. "I was just about to head out." He smiled and gave a big sigh. "I just got a little distracted."

"Yeah, I heard." James just blurted out and wished he could instantly take it back as he saw Remus' face heat up. "It was nice." He tried to save his friend the embarrassment. "What was it?"

Remus grabbed his book and parchment on his bed and put them in his bag avoiding looking at James. "Just a muggle song my parents like. I've got it stuck in my head for some reason." He shook his head and gave a forced laugh.

James just nodded giving the sound, "Uh huh." In a slow response. He grabbed his tie while watching Remus slowly yet hurriedly leave the room. James rushed to catch up to him. "You know, why do you think songs randomly pop-up in our heads?"

"I haven't got a clue why." Remus answered trying to act as if he wasn't even the slightest humiliated.

"See I think it might be because certain events can maybe trigger songs in our head." He paused and studied Remus' expression. He looked a little surprised. "You know, like if you like someone it might make you think of a love song."

Remus looked a little stunned. "Well, that would make sense." Remus then thought of the song he was singing before and began to justify himself. "Well, besides in my case. Just because you are singing a love song doesn't necessarily mean you have feelings for anyone." He tried to laugh it off. But James just smiled at him deviously as they slipped through the portrait hole and down the stairs. They had to wait for the stairs to match up correctly and Remus couldn't stand the look James was giving him. "What?" He asked almost angered.

"Nothing. I just think if there's anything you want to tell me you should know that I can keep a secret." James said holding his hands up defensively.

The stairs matched up and Remus stormed down the stairs. "There's nothing to tell. It's just a song that was played a lot this summer at my house. It means nothing." He spoke sternly

James began to snicker. "Look, all I'm saying it that if you like someone, you can tell me if you want to talk about it."

"But that's the thing." Remus spoke angered but took a breath and tried to calm himself. "I do not have feelings for anyone, like that. Not right now." He tried to explain himself calmly and sternly but it came out sounding awkward which make James more suspicious.

They entered the Great Hall with Remus' face red and James looking completely humored. They walked towards Sirius and Peter. Remus sat down by Sirius and pointed to the other side of the table by Peter. "You can sit over there today." Remus growled and rolled his eyes. His mood felt spoiled.

James grinned as he began to walk backwards away from the group to go around the table. "For any particular reason?"

"Just go!" Remus hissed and heaved a distressed sigh. "I don't understand where he get these ideas." Remus mumbled setting his bag down and he noticed that the girl he was sitting by was Lily's friend that he commonly would talk to. Remus began to feel panicked. 'Is this who he thinks I like?' He thought to himself look straight ahead hoping she wouldn't notice him right away.

She turned and made a happy sound. "Hey Remus!" She laid her hand on his shoulder. "How was your summer?"

Remus just nodded trying to avoid giving her too much attention while still being casual. "It was good. Yeah. How was yours?" He just couldn't bring himself to not be rude about it.

"Oh it was great." She was called by another girl who was leaving the hall. "Oh sorry, I got to go but we'll talk later." She stood up and rushed off.

As she left Remus waved and said, "Yeah, of course."

Sirius pat Remus on the back. "Good job, weirdo." Sirius took a drink. "What is going on with you today? Fighting with James and being awkward with your friends?" Sirius shook his head and looked at James who was sitting down and grinning at Remus. "What happened?"

Remus gave James a dark glare and slowly shook his head. "Nothing, just having a little fun messing with him. It seems I have gone too far." James began to put food on his plate and looked at Peter. Peter was stuffing his face. "Got enough there, mate?" Peter nodded nonchalantly.

Remus relaxed and began to put food on his plate as well. "Here. I saved you one." Sirius took a chocolate scone off of his plate and placed it onto Remus'. "I know you like them." Remus smiled at it. James once again watched the two closely. Sirius smiled at Remus and went back to eating.

"Thanks, that was nice of you." Remus spoke in a much happier and relaxed tone.

The rest of the day, during classes Remus had sat in between Sirius and Peter unless the teacher had specified otherwise. James watched the two joke around when he wasn't involved which was rare. It was mostly he and Sirius messing about during the classes. It was at the end of the classes that James had noticed anything weird between the two. Which might have been normal if James' mind wasn't stuck on this new conception he had of the two.

Sirius had taken Remus' notes. These were the notes he was reviewing while they sat in the courtyard waiting for dinner. "I was reading those." Remus stated in complete disbelief that Sirius had just so blatantly snatched them from his lap. "Seriously, you can take your own notes."

"I don't want to take my own. James and I were talking serious business in charms anyways." Sirius stated as if it should have been obvious to Remus. "Oh but you took remarkable notes, didn't you?"

Remus stood up to face Sirius at his full height. "You're not seriously going to read them so, could I just have them back?"

Sirius grinned and turned away from Remus. "No." He said simply as he began to shuffle through the parchment. "You can't always read and be a good student. You got to have fun too."

"Have fun too?" Remus almost laughed. "Last warning." He placed his hand out in order to receive the papers from Sirius. "Give them back." He wasn't at all mad but kind of found Sirius' actions a bit odd.

Sirius shook his head and after looking back at his friend's posture. After turning back around Remus jumped on his back making him stumble forward. Sirius dropped the notes and grabbed Remus' legs so he was stuck piggyback style on Sirius' back. "Well isn't this a predicament." Sirius said jokingly as he turned to James who was laughing at the sight. Remus began to try to push off of Sirius any way he could. "Well now you're stuck."

Remus was laughing but getting frustrated with Sirius. "Well if you just let me down I can-" Remus began complaining and trying to reach for the papers over Sirius' shoulders and by leaning to the side but Sirius' arm prevented him from leaning too far.

Peter watched the two as if they were insane with a few chuckles. "What in the hell are they doing?" He asked James. James shrugged and shook his head.

Finally after fighting for a while Sirius finally leaned down enough for Remus to grab his notes. "Okay, I get it." Sirius backed up to the bench James was sitting on and set Remus roughly down on it. "I could get on board with more fun." Remus exhaled and looked at James but Sirius sat down on Remus' lap before he could get James' attention. "What the hell? No, get off." He began to use all his force to shove Sirius off.

"You are a boney arse." Sirius spoke surprised. "You should really eat more or something. Damn."

James out his face in his hands. "You two are ridiculous."

"Oh, I'm ridiculous?" Remus shouted with disbelief. "How about his heavy arsehole? You know the one who won't get off." He spoke with strained words as he shoved his friend harder and harder.

Sirius just laughed. "You sure sound ridiculous." Peter said as shook his head.

"Okay," Sirius spoke through laughter. "Before I stand up I want to know that you'll have more fun with your life."

Remus stopped pushing and complained. "I had already stated that I would."

"But, you didn't tell me how great I was." Sirius said with a hint of playful concern.

"Oh, Sirius Black, you're the greatest friend and most handsome of men." Remus stated in a sarcastic tone laced with amusement. He felt that the ridiculousness of the situation was somehow making it more humorous than annoying.

Sirius instantly stood up, satisfied with the answer given. "Well, only if you say so." Remus organized his notes back into his bag. After several minutes of talking about their homework and classes they began to head in for their meal in the Great hall.

A few weeks later Remus had just gone through a full moon. He sat in his bed at the hospital wing in the school. He felt it was unnecessary to waste the school's time and resources to heal him after a full moon since it was not such an easy fix. "Well you're looking chipper, mate."

Remus looked up to see Sirius walking his way. "Oh? Well I don't think you've had such a terrible night." Remus answered bitterly.

Sirius looked surprised at his friend's response. "Did something happen?" Remus lifted up his shirt to show a semi-healed gash on his side. "What? How did that happen?"

"What don't you get?" Remus started to feel the anger boil his chest. He lowered his voice in case of other students nearby and nearly growled, "I'm such a danger that I can't even know if I'll be alive the next day."

Now knowing the severity of Remus' nights with the full moon Sirius couldn't help but sit down. "To protect others you have to sacrifice yourself?"

With an aggravated sigh Remus responded. "Not exactly like that. It's like I lose my mind and I have to hurt something. That's how my father explained it."

They both sat in silence for a few minutes. Remus laid back down. He watched Sirius' eyes dart around the room as if he was looking for something. "I know you're hurting, physically and well emotionally. I just wish I could help. I wish anyone could help."

Remus closed his eyes. He didn't want to hear about how much people cared for him. He didn't want to hear about how someone felt sorry for him. He just wanted to pretend it never happened to him each time the full moon had come and gone. "It's fine." Remus mumbled in the politest way he could managed.

"It's not like I pity you or anything. I just want to know if there is anything I can do to make you…" He paused looking for the right word. "Well, happy."

"Look, you were the one who was the most apprehensive when it came to finding out. I don't care why. I don't need to know why. You're sudden desire to help me is just bizarre." Remus spoke trying to figure Sirius out. He was trying to be as calm as possible. "I'm an unhappy monster. Who gives a shit? I don't understand what you want me to say."

Sirius looked pained. The look he gave Remus made Remus' chest feel tight with guilt. "I don't want you to say anything." Sirius looked away. "I just wanted to do something that would make you happy." Sirius pulled shiny and reflective pieces of something Remus didn't recognize out of his pocket. "Just something like this." He sounded somber as he whispered, "Avifors." He pointed the wand at the objects as he whispered.

Remus gasped as the objects became small yet beautiful birds reflecting in the sunlight that sparkled and shined. James had entered the hospital wing when the birds rose from Sirius' hand. "Blimey." He spoke as he watched the birds flap around near Remus reflecting light all around. "How did you do that?"

After hearing James speak Sirius turned to see him. "I found it in a book. The spell that is."

James and Remus looked surprised. "You have been reading?" Remus asked as James reached the bed he was in. "What have you been reading?"

"Just a book." Sirius spoke glancing at Remus watching the birds. James was astounded by seeing this little glance. He was sure now. Something was going on between them.

James cleared his throat and began to speak uneasily. "You know, if there's anything you guys want to talk about, ever, just…" He looked at the two that were now staring at him with interest. "You know, you can tell me. We can talk."

Remus smiled. "Thanks, James."

"What would there be to talk about?" Sirius asked slightly humored. "Is there something you want to talk about?"

James shook his head. "No, I just wanted you guys to know."

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