Spoilers: Set during Cry Your Name
Summary: This series looks at everyone's thoughts as Max was trying to heal Alex in the van. Maria POV.

Random Thoughts on a Dark Night

MARIA


I brush away a tear. Yet another tear.

Please. Please let it not be too late. Alex is my friend. He is my best friend. What will I do without him?

I once told Kyle I need Liz. I take it back. I need Liz and Alex. Please God, don't take Alex away from me.

It's not fair. What has Alex done to deserve this? He has done nothing but be there for me. For all of us. And this is what happens!

Isabel is talking and I can't take it any more. I can barely stand. I rest my head on Liz's shoulder. The comfort of an old friend who understands what I'm going through.

Isabel is still talking. She won't stop. Everyone is on the verge of tears. They feel the same as me. They hurt too.

I hear the door open. When I look up, Max and Alex will walk towards us and everything will be fine. Everything will be fine.

I look up. Max is walking to us. Walking alone. No Alex.

Oh God! They're taking his body inside. Oh my God. I think I'm gonna throw up.

Michael is instantly beside me, holding me up. He tells me he'll take me home.

I can't go on. Alex is gone. My best friend is gone.

I love you Alex. And I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry.