Day 7 Part 1
"Bite me, Carlisle."
I stood there, motionless, staring at Edward, his empty red eyes staring back at me. I stepped foreward and he stepped back into the empty apartment livingroom.
"Edward... I can't go back without you... I need you."
"Carlisle. Dont pretend you do not hate me. I killed her."
I tilted my head quietly as I remembered my love, Esme, being ripped apart by to
protect Edward. My unbeating heart ripped apart in my chest. I was in hell and Edward was feeling nothing but regret. A part of me did want Edward to hurt. But my love for the boy was much stronger. I would do anything to make him happy once more.
"No," I shook my head "she wouldn't want it like this, Edward. She died so you can continue living."
"This is living? Carlisle, I hurt my family, killed Esme. Killed Bella."
I stepped foreward again, pushing Edward back once more. I then moved even quicker and caught
the faster vampire in a tight hold. I held down Edward's arms as the weaker vampire struggled to escape. Did he not know I was going to do that? Then again... I didn't even notice I did it until he was in my arms.
I held him until Edward stopped struggling and just leaned his forehead against my chest. I pulled my hand up, still holding him tightly as I pushed his hair out of his eyes. I ran my fingers through his unkempt hair. I felt him hesitate then wrap his arms around my waist. I felt that if he could he would be crying at the moment. I didn't need a special ability to feel that. I knew my Edward. I continued to comb through his hair, letting him stay in my arms.
"I'm so sorry, Carlisle..." I heard his whisper against my chest; my grip on him loosening.
"I know, Edward" I rested my chin on his head. I haven't seen him like this before. He was so open. So vulnerable. It was ripping me apart to see him like this. I let go of him and he looked up at me, obviously listening in on my thoughts. I quietly leaned down and did something I promised I would never do. I pressed my lips against Edward's.
I kissed Edward.
I had thought about things such as this before. Ever since the first years we spent together alone, I knew of my feelings for Edward. But they were wrong. Very wrong. He was only 17. I kept my thoughts on other things to throw him off, apparently I was doing a good job because he said nothing.
He pressed up into my lips to my surprise. I was taking advantage of Edward. That is all I could think of. My morals screamed at me to stop. But I couldn't. My self control was gone, lately I was so overwhelmed with the empty feeling of being alone. I needed something. I was almost desperate. And I was ashamed of that.
"You aren't taking advantage of anything, Carlisle" he whispered against my lips softly.
I opened my mouth to argue but he just took advantage of the moment and slid his tongue into my mouth. That really surprised me. But I allowed it, stroking his hair softly. I wanted to make him happy, and if that is what he needed then that was fine by me, I suppose.
He pulled his mouth away from mine and I watched him silently, unmoving. In a state of utter confusion. What had I just done?
"Carlisle... Why do you want me to come back?" Edward asked, red eyes staring into mine. I saw a dim glow of hope in his eyes. As if I were handing him his last chance to redeem himself.
"Why...?" I frowned in thought. I never knew he would ask so I didn't know, really. I dwelled upon the subject for a moment. I knew he knew what I was thinking and he held back a smile, waiting for me to say it. I sighed heavily but smiled, leaning in and kissing his forehead "because I love you, Edward. And I need you... Especially now..."
"Love me, huh?" Edward quietly mused with a crooked grin.
"Of course, Edward. You are my son and I will always love you."
Apparently that was not the answer he wanted and he just nodded dejectedly. What had I said that was wrong? Was that inappropriate? It was actually quite the understatement. My feelings for Edward were much greater than that of just a father son relationship but I doubt that was what he wanted. I said nothing, just reached forward and put my hand on his shoulder, squeezing lightly. I knew he wasn't alright, and won't be for awhile. But I was being hopeful, maybe too hopeful.
"Can we stay here for a day, though?" Edward asked, his voice low and empty. Without so much as thinking about it I nodded slowly.
"If you want, Edward."
"Not even that. It's sunny out... The down side of Florida."
"There are upsides to thick swamps and Disney?"
And for the first time in days I heard his angelic laugh. No matter how hollow it was... It was a start. I smiled happily.
"Carlisle... Can you kiss me again?"
My brain stumbled over all the thoughts I was occupying myself with. Did he really ask that? I stared at him, he looked up at me. He looked so hurt.. So broken. My hand slid up his neck and came to rest on his cheek. I smiled, figuring it must have been some new comfort thing. I leaned in and kissed him again.
He wrapped his arms around my neck which I didn't expect but didn't argue.
This was wrong.
I invaded his mouth with my tongue, his welcoming mine quickly. I ran my hand through his hair again, tilting my head and pressing against his warm body. Maybe this was because I was lonely... But I had no control over my actions. Only my thoughts, and I was closely controlling everything in my mind. He pulled me back, pressing himself against the wall. I quickly pulled away.
"Edward... No... I can't..."
((Part two will have more hottness -grin- Trust me, I'm not going to cut out that stuff. Just like to leave cliffhangers 3 If you don't want to read stuff like that... Skip part two? But trust me. You won't want to.))
