Bonjourno all (that's Italian!)! Just so you all know, my birthday is Tuesday and I'm so flippin' excited, you have no idea! But I have a moacho test that day, so if you just happen to think of me, say a little prayer:) You should be happy, I posted a chapter of this before Legacies Die Hard (Star Wars), only because I'm on a Twilight hyp right now! So enjoy it and the new chapter! And read and review, please!
Note: This chapter is told from Edward's Point of View, most chapters will be from Bella's, but I thought it'd be easier for this chapter to be in Edward's eyes! And forewarning, I've never written from a guy's point of view, espescially someone like Edward Cullen (swoons), so be gentle:)
It had been exactly 8 months, 1 week, 4 days, and 7 hours since I stranded the love of my life in the woods. Not that I was counting.
I couldn't believe I was here, back in Forks. Back to go beg for Bella's forgiveness. I zoomed around the curve that led to her house; it was dark. I knew though that she would most likely be in her room.
I walked easily around to the rear of the house and climbed up to her window, "Bella?" I whispered, knowing Charlie would never hear me.
I didn't get an answer, surprisingly. I stepped into the room cautiously, "Bella?" My eyes adjusted to the dim light and I held my breath as shock rested on me. Her room looked…empty. Yes, her furniture was still there, but…no Bella. All her pictures were gone, the closet empty.
Panic surged through me and I raced down the stairs, not caring if Charlie knew I was up there.
"Where is she?" I demanded.
Charlie looked up from his game and practically fell off the couch, "You," he growled.
I rolled my eyes, "Yes, me. Where is Bella?" I could feel my lips starting to move back into a snarl.
"None of your business, Edward. She's better off now." He glared at me. What did that mean, she was…dead? No…she couldn't be…how could I not know…wait…
This is the part where I loved being a vampire; Charlie was basically screaming Phoenix in his head. She was in Phoenix. Without another word, I dashed out of the room, making Charlie wonder if he had just imagined everything.
I caught the next plane to Phoenix and tapped my legs nervously while I waited for the plane to land.
I caught a flight attendant by the elbow, "Could the pilots maybe hurry a little, it's a little urgent," I flashed her a smile and her thoughts scurried for the right words, dazzled by me.
"I'm sorry, sir. I can't do anything; we have to ensure all of our passengers' safety…" she was off on a tangent about flight safety and what not. Gag me.
Finally the plane landed, I raced off before people even started to get up out of their seats.
As soon as I reached Bella's mother's house I knew she wasn't there. I heard her mother and Phil talking in the kitchen.
"Bella seems to be doing much better now, doesn't she?" her mother asked.
"Yes, she does, I'm so glad too. I know she'd been struggling. Her grades are up too, it really is wonderful." That must have been Phil.
School…she was at school…why? I didn't really think about the answer but instead drove off to the nearest high school.
Jenkins High School came into view rather quickly. I pulled over to the side of the road and glanced in on the campus, it was transition time, students milling about in the courtyard, couples grasping hands, hugging as they parted as if they would never see each other again. It was sickening. My eyes strained to pinpoint her in the masses of people.
That's when I heard her, heard her laugh. My head whipped around to see her coming out from a group of trailers, talking to some to other girl…Charlotte, I found out quickly. Her eyes were bright with laughter.
"I know! I started tallying how many times he said it!" the girl Charlotte giggled, Bella grinned widely before saying goodbye and heading in my direction.
I held my breath, what would she do if she saw me? Did she already know I was here? Would she scoff me? I couldn't stand this agony.
"Edward," a quiet voice breathed over my shoulder.
"Alice?"
My sister Alice looked back at me with questioning eyes, "What are you doing here, Edward?"
My eyes narrowed, "What are you doing here, Alice?" I mimicked.
"Checking up on Bella," she answered simply. I scanned her mind, she was starting to go through population ratios of various countries in her head; she was trying to hide something from me.
"What is it Alice?" My voice edgy, it was taking all my willpower not to go up to Bella and grab her in my arms and kiss her until time stopped.
"Nothing…"
"Alice."
"Yes?"
"What's going on?" I practically yelled. "Hey David! No, just on my way to Music Composition, yeah, I'll see you at lunch." Bella's voice ran over me like a fresh rain, she smiled at a blonde boy who oddly reminded me of Mike Newton back in Forks, then walked up into another trailer.
I shook my head, Bella didn't act like that, she didn't even talk like that. What was up? I had an eerie feeling my dear sister knew.
"Just tell me now, Alice. I'll figure it out sooner or later. One of these kids has to know…" my eyes scanned the minds of a few passer-bys, their minds filled with test anxiety and perverted thoughts. Nothing on Bella.
Not that Alice knew that, she huffed, "Okay, but if I tell you, you have to promise not to freak out."
My hands gripped the railing, turning my knuckles even whiter, "Just tell me."
She sighed again, "Edward, Bella was in a car crash about 6 months ago," she began.
I sucked in my breath, "What…?"
"She lost all her memory of Forks…of us…you. She thinks that for the past 2 years she's been living, here, in Phoenix," she finished never missing a beat.
"No…" I saw the image of the bright lights glinting off the crystal heart I'd given her, the truck slamming into her through Alice, what she had seen.
My teeth clenched, "You saw it happen and didn't tell me!"
Alice shrunk back, "I didn't want you to act like this! Besides, didn't you say that if you could choose, it would be better if Bella forgot all about you? She's not in danger anymore, Edward, she's safe."
I could feel my cold heart sinking in my chest, yes; I had said that, at the time. But for her to completely forget me?
"So you mean, if I were to go up to her right now she would have no idea who I was?" Alice nodded grimly before her face went blank.
After a second she came back, "Come here, Edward, you need to see this," she yanked my arm and led me to the window of the trailer Bella had just entered. My eyes fixed on her and I couldn't believe what had ever compelled me to leave her.
"Bella, you're up," the teacher at the front of the room called out. Bella glanced around nervously before making her way to the piano at the side of the small room. Piano? Bella didn't play the piano.
"Alice…?"
"Just watch, Edward," her eyes held wonder as she stared at Bella.
Bella closed her eyes and took a deep breath; I found I was holding my breath for her, what was she doing? Her fingers touched the ivory keys and I stopped breathing; she was playing her lullaby, the one I wrote for her. Her fingers danced over the keys and if it couldn't get any more shocking, she started to sing, sing well.
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
and pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now you're my only hope
Sing to me the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again
So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope
I give You my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back
She finished with triumph the room quiet with amazement, my mouth agape, stunned.
"I thought you said she forgot everything," I mumbled to Alice.
"She did," Alice turned to look at me with frightened eyes.
Alice looked back as Bella's cheeks flushed red to the standing ovation, making her way back to her seat.
"She wrote it, she said it came from a dream, a dream she has every night. Something from her past."
"What are you saying?" I asked, still not comprehending what had just happened.
"Carlisle said she suffered from 'selective memory loss', while she was in a coma, she 'forgot' all the things that ever hurt her…you. But her sub-conscience remembers, which is why she has those dreams…about you."
"How do you know they're about me?" I asked slowly.
"I've seen them. And…" she seemed hesitant, "I've watched her when she sleeps, she says your name. At first it's soft, but as the dream progresses she starts to scream it, a nightmare." Her eyes cast downwards as the bell rang for the next class.
My head turned to the door where Bella exited, followed by compliments galore.
"So great Bella!"
"How ever did you get that one?"
"The piano was amazing, I would never be able to think up that!"
Bella blushed some more before muttering, "Neither could I."
The day passed quietly, I followed her everywhere, my ears always straining to hear just one syllable from her mouth, just to hear her voice.
At last, the final bell rang, ending the day. I imagined myself walking Bella to her car, giving her a quick kiss, and sending her off home, then laying in her bed as she slept, watching her breath go in and out. Those were probably my favorite memories, feeling her warm breath on me, her face at total ease, the whispers of my name through the night.
I was leaning next to a set of lockers, just out of sight of Bella as she got her things. This one kid could not get his locker open for the life of him. After the third try he saw me standing there, and tried to recruit me to help him. I didn't want her to see me, but then remembered it wouldn't matter, depressing, I know.
I read his combination from his head and spun the dial quickly when I heard her voice get closer as she started towards the parking lot. I opened the locker and started to turn, just as she ran into my stone arm.
"Ow!" she yelped. She turned around, her friends a few paces ahead, "Watch where you're going!" she scolded me, rubbing her elbow, I grinned, now that sounded like my Bella.
Her eyes moved from her damaged elbow to yell at me more when the color drained her face. She looked at me with wide eyes, searching my face. I looked into hers too, wondering if maybe she really did remember, she was my Bella, and she could never forget me.
I wanted to take her in my arms and tell her sorry, beg for her forgiveness and take her back home to Forks, with me, where she belonged.
I was pulled from my fantasies when she groaned and banged the locker next to her, "Every time!" she screeched and stormed off where her friends waited, giving me curious glances.
I was very confused so I slipped into one of her classmate's mind, the girl from earlier, Charlotte: Another memory…I wonder if she knew him…then…he's gorgeous.
Her mind wondered to her thoughts, mostly about me, so I came back to reality and dashed back to my Volvo before anyone had a chance to get their car keys out.
I leaned my head against the steering wheel, she really didn't remember me. But she played the lullaby, I argued with myself. I groaned, why did I have to fall in love with a human?
Because she's the best thing that every happened to you my mind reminded me.
I revved the engine and sped off, to Forks, not really knowing why I was going to do there, just knowing I needed to get away from here, away from her.
P.S. Song stolen from A Walk to Remember, sung by Mandy Moore, written by Swtichfoot. Heard this and was like , "If Bella ever sang, she would sing this!" I thought the piano sounded a bit like something Edward would write also. But, if you read the lyrics, it kinda goes with what Bella might sing to Edward if she really did sing. :)
