Ice Inside Your Soul

By: BellaAlice4E!

Disclaimer: I DO NOT own Twilight or any of its characters. Those belong to Stephenie Meyer. I only use them to entertain myself and those who read my fanfic.

Chapter 2: Moving On

Four months later…

Four months and many nightmares later I am at least somewhat whole. They've been gone for four months. Jacob and I have been getting along and hanging out again. I missed him. Charlie doesn't have to run to my room anymore over those fits of crying I was having. I am surviving.

I have a date tonight. First in four months. My father is happy. My friends at school are happy. I am actually happy. I have a blind date. I am not sure who it is though. Angela is setting me up. It's a double date with her and Eric. Dinner and a movie. Normal. I need normal.

"So Bella, are you ready for tonight?" Angela asked me as we sat at our table at lunch.

"Yeah. You didn't tell me his name though. Am I meeting you somewhere or are you picking me up and then we're meeting him somewhere?" I asked.

"I am picking you up and Eric is picking up your date. We are meeting them at that little Italian place in Port Angeles. Dress casual but no jeans and t-shirts Bella. Okay." She said smiling.

"Okay. But I am NOT wearing a dress." I said smiling.

Eric joined us then along with Mike and Jessica. Lately they've been around each other a lot. Good to see Mike ogling over someone else. He was SO not my type. Whatever that was. We ate and joked around. When the bell rung, the rest of the day crawled by. After the final bell I walked out to my truck and went home. I walked into my room and sat down on my bed. What was I going to wear?

I went through my closet and found a nice pair of slacks and a nice top. I told Angela no dress and I meant it. I placed my clothes on my bed and went into the bathroom and showered. I pulled my bathrobe on and went back to my room. I dressed quietly and brushed my hair. I pulled it off my shoulders and placed my mother's necklace on. By the time I was done Angela sent me a text letting me know she was on her way. I got a nervous feeling in my stomach but I knew I'd be ok.

I walked back downstairs and waited in the living room for her to pull up. As I was waiting my father walked in the door.

"Wow, Bella. You look nice. Special occasion?" he asked.

"Angela and Eric set me up on a blind date and she's on her way here to pick me up. Wish me luck?" I said as I heard her car pull up in the driveway.

"There she is, I have to go. I'll be home late but not too late." I said as I grabbed my jacket and hurried out the door. He waved and closed the door behind me.

"Wow, Bella. You clean up real nice." Angela said as I climbed into her car.

"Thanks. Now are you going to tell me who it is you guys set me up with?" I asked impatiently.

"Nope." She smirked as she drove off.

I decided to make the most of it and try to enjoy myself.

We pulled up to the little Italian place and she had to practically drag me out of the car. I really didn't want to do this. We walked into the restaurant and found Eric and his guest sitting in the back corner. My date's back was to me. All I could make out was that he had dark hair. I got nervous.

Angela looked at me and gently pulled on my wrist.

"Bella, it's just a date. You don't have to get married. Enjoy yourself. And the best part is you don't have to pay." She winked at me.

I took a deep breath and held my head up and walked over to the table. As we reach the table, Eric and my date stand up. My date turns around and to my surprise it's the new student Kaleb. He looks up at me and smiles. I look to Angela and smile. He's in my Biology class and is my partner since Edward left. We talk a lot so this wasn't all that uncomfortable.

"Ah, so my blind date is none other than Bella Swan. This is going to be an interesting night." He said nicely.

"Kaleb, you know when you told me you had plans for tonight I didn't know they included me." I said jokingly.

Angela and Eric just looked at each other lost in our joke.

"Angela, Kaleb and I are lab partners in Biology and we have a project due in a week and I asked if he had plans for tonight and unfortunately at the time he said he did. A date. Had I known it was me I would have dressed a little nicer."

"No, I like what you're wearing Bella. Anything else and it wouldn't be you." Kaleb said.

I know I blushed then. I waited for the waiter to order my food and then looked at Angela and excused myself to the ladies room. She nodded.

On my way back to the ladies room I swore I saw him. Edward. Why would he be here. They don't eat. Then it hit me. This was the restaurant that he and I ate at after he saved my life. How could I have forgotten something that important? I scanned the restaurant again and when I didn't see him I continued into the ladies room.

I looked in the mirror and made sure I looked ok. I decided I couldn't do this after all. I walked back out to the table and tapped Angela on the shoulder. She looked up at me and knew right away something was wrong.

"What is it Bella?" she asked.

"I am sorry Kaleb, but I can't do this. Not here, not tonight. Angela, can I borrow your car. Eric can you stop by my house after your movie so she can pick it up. I am so sorry guys but I can't do this." I said quickly.

"Sure Bella. Hold on, I'll walk you out." Angela said.

"Hey Bella, don't worry about it. I'll see you in class Monday ok." Kaleb said sweetly.

Eric just looked at Angela and then he nodded.

Angela walked with me to her car. She handed me the keys and held my hand for a moment longer.

"Bella, what's wrong? Do you want me to come back to your house with you?" she asked genuinely concerned.

"No. Go out with Eric. I'll be ok. I just wasn't as ready for this as I thought I was. Please, go have fun. Tell Kaleb I'm really sorry." I said as I climbed into her car.

"Okay. I'll text you when the movie gets out so you know we'll be heading around so I can get my car. I'm sorry Bella. Call me if you need anything ok?"

I nodded and she walked back into the restaurant. I pulled out and headed home. It took me about an hour to get there and all I did the whole time was think about the fact that I saw Edward. Did I really see him or was it wishful thinking? If he were here so were the rest. So was Alice. I needed Alice. I missed Alice.

When I got home, Charlie was still at work so I went ahead and went upstairs to my bedroom. I lay on my bed thinking. A couple hours later I got a text from Angela saying they were on their way over for her car. I figured I had an hour. I went downstairs and turned on the TV.

After Angela picked up her car I decided it was late enough so I was going to bed. I climbed up the stairs again and this time when I got in my room I shut the door and sat on my bed. Why would I see Edward now after so long? I changed into my sweats and a t-shirt and climbed into bed. I lay there for a few minutes before sleep took me.

"Bella. You're not going to like this. I promise that this will be the last time you'll see us. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again." He started. I just looked at him. What was he talking about? Put me through what again? Last time I'll see him?

"Edward, what are you talking about?" Was all I got out before it hit me. "Wait, I'm ok Edward. You don't have to do this."

"I do Bella. If I don't, who knows what will happen to you. I couldn't live with myself if I caused harm to you in anyway."

"No." I said softly.

"It will be as if I never existed. We are leaving today. You won't see or hear from me or my family anymore. You need to live and we're not letting you." Was all he said as he turned and walked away.

I stood there in shock. He said 'we'. They were all leaving? Even Alice? I started to cry and dropped to the forest floor. It was starting to rain and all I could do was curl up in a ball.

I cried.

I felt a hand touch my shoulder. It was cold and small. I opened my eyes to see Alice.

"Why did you leave? Why would you leave me Alice? I need you. I've always needed you. How could you not know? I still need you Alice. Please don't go…" and she was gone. No goodbyes. Nothing.

I sat up in my bed. The hand felt so real. I still had a chill from it. That didn't happen though. She never came. She never said goodbye.