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Dpov

Everything was different, it was like having new eyes, ever since lissa had turned me back I looked at everything in a different way… a new light you could say.

when I opened my eyes for the first time since being brought back from the dark, I saw lissa, this beautiful angel.

Was I in love with her no, I was more in aw of how this angle like person could save a soul like mine, no one seemed it understand the way I was feeling, only her.

I was causing her pain though, I was causing both of them pain, since the day I told rose my love had faded she hasn't spoken to lissa…

I even contemplated talking to rose, trying to fix what ever this is, to try and maintain a guardian relationship with her, But Its not possible, I seen the pain in her eyes when I told her my love had faded and then I watched as she gave up, it was like I had just ripped her very soul from her but most of all I watched her walk away.

I was sitting in one the chairs by the window pretending to be engrossed in a western novel I was currently reading, I couldn't help peeking over the edge of the book and catching a glimpse of lissa, she looked sad but mostly bored.

" lissa, why don't you try and go speak with her?" I just couldn't stand her sitting there looking all gloomy like someone just told her, her pet gold fish died, it was heart breaking.

She let out a sigh " I tried calling her, her phones shut off, it just going to voice mail" she sounded broken.

There wasn't anything I could really do, I couldn't make them talk… it had to be one of them.

I decided to just go back to reading, maybe I could get lost in this book, become part of the book.

A rugged cowboy, a let a smile play on my lips for just a second, remembering how rose use to tease me about the books I choose to read, seemed just like yesterday…

I was brought from my day dream of past days, when there was a knock at the door.

I glanced in the peek hole to see Guardian Hans standing there, I opened the door and ushered him side, I was curious to why he was here.

" what can I do for you sir?"

"evening Belikov, hope I'm not bothering you, but I was asked to give this to you" he handed me a envelope with my name written across it.

" whose is this from sir" I didn't recognize the hand writing

I watched as he nervously Switch from one foot to the other, clearly not wanting to be put in this situation, he didn't want to answer the question so he improvised.

" I was just asked to give it to you, but I'm sure it explains everything inside, you should read it" and he walked away.

I closed the door, wondering who sent this to me, who ever it was by the way Hans acted it wasn't good..

" who was at the door" lissa asked form the living room

" it was the head guardian Hans, he said someone asked him to give this to me" I held up the letter for her to see."

" oh, whose it from"

" I have no clue he didn't want to be the one to tell me, he just said it would explain everything on the inside, that he was just asked to deliver it to me."

She curiously say up on the couch and I sat down beside her and tore open the letter and begun to read it aloud…

Dimitri

I don't really know why I'm writing this, I don't owe you a explanation, there is no easy way to start this, I have no clue what really to say, so I guess I'll start at the beginning. This place is never what I wanted, I always wanted you and to be her guardian, it seems fate has other intentions, you told me once, not to long ago to never hesitate, so that's what this is, this is me not hesitating, I did everything I tried to understand you pushing me away, I tried to make excuses for lissa pushing me away, but I cant, the truth is you have each other now, I refuse to sit here and go on with my life being miserable, I'm tired of always being second best to you and specially to her, I wont pretend I don't love you, or that my love has faded as you so kindly put it, cause the truth is.. I do love you, I have always loved you, this letter isn't to make either of you feel bad, its simple to let you know that by the time you have read this, I'll be gone. You see, I wasn't the only one being pushed away, I was just the only one who had something to stay for, I was lissa's guardian, and like I said fate has other intentions, I have been made Christian's primary guardian, the queen reassigned me this morning…

I wont be telling you where we are going just that were getting our lives back.. You may think I don't know you anymore, but I do, and your thinking I'm acting out for attention or this is some plan to win your heart back….. But its none of those reasons.. Truth is I'm doing this to get away from you, away from lissa. This is nobody's fault but my own. I was a fool to think true love could survive all that we have been through, and I was a fool to think I could have ever saved you.

Sincerely, rose.

As I finished the last line of the letter I could see why Hans didn't want to tell me, I could form words to speak and didn't really know how to feel.

I just stared at the letter grasping the issue at hand… rose was gone.

" this, this cant be true, it's a joke, as sick joke, the queen would never reassign rose, specially to Christian" lissa thank god was the first one to break the silence.

She was silent for awhile, turning thoughts around in her brain, processing everything.

" I bet they took off, I think we should have a word with the queen" and I knew this was going to be a long day, but lissa had a point the queen wouldn't just do that, no this was rose being typical rose…after all this time, she still has no control.

Lpov

There were no words to describe what I felt like the moment rose's words sunk in , or that Christian a man I cared for and that I once loved, that I still love had left as well.

It was a quiet walk to the queens quarters, wasn't really anything to say… both of us where in different places when it came to this issue at hand, for me I lost a friend and ex lover and for reasons I'm still not sure of, but for Dimitri, well it was a whole another story, he lost rose, the only person who at one time new him better then he did I know he loved rose and maybe deep down he still does, but things change and right now things were definitely changing…..

I still couldn't figure out how Christian got brought into this, what was rose trying to accomplish their? Maybe Christian was just watching out for rose, maybe he did it to piss me off…. I didn't want to get my hopes up on the thought of him doing it to win me back…. Not even win, but to take me back after the horrible thing I did to him….

Soon I found myself face to face with the queens door, I looked at Dimitri and he nodded, the knock was light for some reason , I don't know maybe it was a feeling, but I knew I was not going to like what I was about to hear.

Ambrose greeted is with warming smiles and ushered us in.

" the queen will be out in just a few moments, could I get you guys anything" he offered.

" no Ambrose, were both fine, thank you anyways though"

he closed the door behind him as he exited the queens office, she didn't keep us waiting long, she came floating out in a long almost burgundy gown with her crown prompt in its place on top of her head, we both raised and bowed to show our respect.

We greeted her with " your Majesty" and she nodded for is to rise.

" Lissa, what a lovely surprise, so nice of you to drop in, oh and you brought a friend with you" she nodded at Dimitri to let him know she was aware of him, him and I both heard the double meaning in her words, neither of us really cared, we were here for more important matters.

" your Majesty, it seems that rose and Christian have taken off leaving us with a letter saying something we don't really understand, I know there is no way it could be true, we thought maybe you could help?"

"oh?" was the queens only response, but she nodded for me to continue.

I choose my words carefully, I didn't want to offend her let alone accuse her of anything, this was just a big misunderstanding, no need to piss off the queen, not with Dimitri here, we had to prove he was safe, getting everyone in a heated argument was no way to do that.

" you see in this letter they left it said that you had reassigned rose to act as Christians primary guardian, and I know that couldn't be true when you assigned rose as my primary guardian"

I couldn't read the look on her face, it was unreadable, as the guardians say "she has her guardian mask on". but her response was even more shocking, and I definitely wasn't ready for that.

" my dear lissa, I did reassign miss. Hathaway to Lord Ozera as his primary guardian"

my mouth fell open, she had to be kidding me, I couldn't even process it all, rose was my guardian, I was fiddling in my seat, I was trying to find the words or rather questions to ask, my mind was all over the place…. This cant be happening.

"how.. how is that possibly your Majesty, she was already assigned to me, what would make you get the idea to reassign her to someone else?" my words weren't harsh, they weren't even mean, they were desperate…. Desperate for answers..

The expression on the queens face was…well, it was scary, there was humor in her eyes, like she was about to deliver the best news someone has ever heard, but I knew different.

" my dear girl, this was not my idea" She stood and walk towards her office bay window and was gazing out into the royal grounds.

" then whose was it, your Majesty" Dimitri's tone was stern, we weren't here to play guessing games, we just wanted answers, concern was written all over his face, for fear rose had done something, was being punished, we were both worried.

When the queen turned around and looked at us from the window, with no expression and with out any emotion or care to our feelings she gave us our answer

" it was lord Ozera's of course" the smile that played on the queens face told me this was no sick joke.

I couldn't speak, I didn't understand… none of this made sense.

"what…what do you mean your Majesty?" my words came out in a stutter, my hands were shaking…

" last night lord Ozera met with guardian Hans and asked, well more like demanded Miss Hathaway be assigned to him."

"yes, but why would you reassign her when she wanted to be my guardian".

" it was not I who made the decision, I met with both miss Hathaway and lord Ozera, I made sure miss Hathaway understood the lord Ozera had requested her as a guardian, and she was well aware of that, you see Lissa, I left the choice to rose, she made the decision to be reassigned."

I looked at Dimitri I knew what he was feeling, I could see it in his eyes, betrayal, hurt, anger and before he slap his guardian mask in place I saw regret..

I felt all the same, the man I loved had stolen my best friend….my anger boiled, I could feel spirit rearing its ugly head and through greeted teeth I asked one simple question

" your majesty, could you tell us where they moved to?" I knew he would help me search for them now, he wanted answers, what the answers are, I don't know, but I could tell he was boiling with questions and fury,

" I'm sorry princess, I cant not do that"

I wasn't to keen on this chapter, some parts I thought were great and others not so much, I like to take my time and make sure I give you my best, and this time I failed L…. but next time will be better! As always reviews are welcomed J oh and I would like to thank the fans that added me to the favorite story and author, you guys are amazing!