Chapter One: holy shit I've been shot!
The first thing I noticed when I woke up was that I felt heavy, heaver then normal that's when I heard it, a little giggle and I realised why I was so heavy my darling little sister nadine had decide it was time to wake up "Nunni what have I said bout laying on me" I couldn't help the irritation that leaked in my voice don't get me wrong I love my little sister but she could be a bit hyperactive "you said you take me to my friends house today please lucja pretty please" she just had to give me the god damned puppy eyes for fuck sake she was fourteen that shit shouldn't work any more but sadly it did, I couldn't help but wonder how I got myself into this it started the day I turned sixteen and got my license and bam! I'm suddenly ever one Shaffer.
This girl would be the end of me, I let out a soft sigh "alright then let me get dressed then, go on shoo!" I said pushing my self in to a sitting position and waving her away gently with my hands "alright just don't take to long I want to get there early to surprise my friends" my little sister said with a cute little huff and jumped off me and promptly ran out of the room to do who knows what and while she ran I couldn't help but admire her she was everything I wanted to be but never got the chance I was already to tainted while she was painfully innocent that's the way she would stay if I have a say about anything. Things happen that we have no say in but those experiences make us who we are and I wouldn't want be any one else because the way I am now I can protect my precious people before I was how I am now I was weak timid. I cared about what other people thought but now I could give five fucks what they thought, Snapping my self out of my train of thought I move to get ready to take my little sister to her friends house.
I had gotten dressed in some black shorts, a pair of black boots, a blue dress shirt and last but not least my leather jacket. Now all I had to do was find Nunni. I got up from sitting on the bed and walked towards my door and just as I grabbed the door handle a shiver went down my spine and suddenly I knew some thing bad was going to happen. Every instinct in my body told my to tell nadine that she couldn't go to her friends today and just keep her close to me were I could protect her everything in me screaming danger danger don't go. Now, I had always trusted my instincts they had never let me wrong and I was a possessive person by nature once I claimed you as one of my own I would die for you it was just who I was so no one would be suspicious if I suddenly said I wanted nadine to stay home with me. They know what I'm like, but then the thought of Nadine sad teary eyed face made me cringe, you see we move a lot and now was no different we were moving soon and nadine might not see or hear from her friends for a while I mean one night couldn't hurt right? if only I had known what I know now I would never have left my home that day.
After having breakfast I grabbed my keys and called out to nadine "Nunni hurry up were going now" I heard something fall then crash into the ground "wait don't leave without me "nadine shouted panic practically dripping from her voice as she practically dashed around the corner "come on then get a move on" and as we open the front door we hear our mother yell out "lucja could you pick up some milk while your out" god I swear that woman could wake the dead "yeah mum" I said waking out the door towards my car "two litres!" she shouts. I sigh. I'll say it again woman "yeah mum I got it" "good girl" I could help muttering under my breath as I slid in the driver seat "I'll show you a good girl" now don't get me wrong I love my mum always will she was just very demanding and she had no idea what a personal bubble was, either that or she just didn't care, I sigh starting the car and pulling out of the drive way to start the drive to Nadine's friend's house "ready to go sweetie" I said trying not to listen to the little voice in the back of my head telling me this was a bad idea and to turn around and go home "yep Emily and every one gonna be there!" god damn the bitch was trying to send me deaf she was so loud I put a smile on my face and said "that's great sweetie I hope you have fun and remember if you need me just call me ok?" I said seriously so she knew I wasn't joking "ok I understand lucja I call you if I need anything" I let pride wash over me. I had taught her well "good girl" you could practically hear the pride in my voice.
As we pull into Nadine's friends I couldn't help but give her hand a squeezes "now be good I'll pick you up tomorrow ok?" I ask wishing she'd tell me to take her home "ok bye love you" she shouted running out of the car I let out a sigh "kids what can you do" I said to myself pulling out of the drive way. If only I had known that I would never see her again.
As I parked my car in the empty parking lout, I stop the engine and had made sure I had everything, I got out of my car I turned to lock it when I heard it "give me your bag!" turns out the empty parking lout wasn't so empty after all, well shit I'm fucked. I crouch down and slowly look over to were I heard the yell and I see a boy about thirteen fourteen couldn't be sure really he was pointing a, oh holy shit he was pointing a fucking gun at this old lady this shit only happen in movie, god dam all. Now one side of me was telling me to get back in the car and get the fuck out of there then there was the other side of me demanding me help that old lady "fuck fuck fuck dam it all to hell" and like the good Samaritan I am I went with helping the old lady out "why, why fucking me god why do I have to be a good person" I slowly start to make my way over to them and I notice the kid holding the gun was shaking and I realised the poor kid was terrified, right then a there I made a dissension "hey, hey kid put the gun down you don't want to do this" he turns to me lightning fast pointing the gun at me now ah for fuck sake "don't move! who are you what do you want!" as he was speaking to me I look into his eye I know he didn't want do this "I want you to put the gun down sweet heart you don't want to do this I know you don't" I spoke to him calmly while I keep my hand were he could see them so he doesn't get jumpy "you don't know anything about me so stay out of this!" the poor kid was almost in tears "sweet heart I can see you don't want to do this you have your hole life ahead of you think of the people that love you what this would do to them you don't want to do this kid just give me the gun and we can walk away from here and forget this happened ok kid" I said tiring to calm him down" they made me do it they said that if I want to be one of them I had to get the lady's bag" "but you don't want to do this do you?" "I want to go home" great the kid was crying now fuck my life "ok kid give me the gun and I'll take you home ok sweet heart" god damn it I was in momma bear mode. The kid nodded and slowly start to walk towards me, but then the god dam old lady decides she has to be a hero and tries to garb him "no don't Bang!" the poor kid in all the confused had pulled the tiger and both of them had stop and look at me both they're faces they were looking at me with horror striken face, and then I feel a searing pain in my chest I look down to see my blue shirt a dark pulper and then I know I had been shoot great just what I fucking need, then the old lady started to scream "help somebody help! please help" I don't know how but I ended up on my back just look up at the kid who had russet to my side "I'm so sorry so so sorry don't die please don't die" the kid was practically sobbing on me and me being the kind of person I was I couldn't help but comfort him "I'm gonna be fine it's ok shh it's ok" god to think I was gonna die over such a trivial thing god damn it all.
To try to distract the kid I ask him his name "hey kid what's you name" "Daniel but my friends call me Danny" I couldn't help but wander what a nice kid like him was doing here but then again with the presser there is on kids now day to fit in I'm not surprised in the lest "hey Danny could you tell my family I love them please" Daniel seem to come to the same conclusion that I wasn't gonna make it we both knew I was gonna die. He nodded his head "I promise" I let out a sigh now that was taken care of, now there some thing you should know accepting death and knowing you were gonna die are two different things. I was scared, scared of dying alone and never seeing my family again and god dam it I fucking hurt all over and slowly but surely I fond myself going to sleep the faces of my family the last thing I see and all I could think was I should have fucking stay in bed today.
I felt tiered so fucking tiered, god everything hurt I let out a grown today just wasn't my day and as I thought about the pain I started to think what the fuck I'm died I can't feel pain and with that thought I bolted up from my laying position and look around well fuck me everything was god dam white and when I say everything I mean everything "tow tow I don't think we're in Kansas any
more" well no shit I thorough to myself. So ether I have been sent to hell or I'm in a coma just great just fucking great now what do I do awe man I knew I should have stay in bed I mean this sort of shit could only happen to me "your not in hell little one" said the man who had just magically appeared out of fucking nowhere I swear I die all over again "god damn it man are you trying to kill me for fuck sake I've died once today and I am not doing that shit again it was not fun" oh shit I think I just bad mouthed god oh fuck me, me and my big mouth "do not worry child it is a natural reaction and no I am not god" he said with an overly amuse smile on his face that gave me the impression that he was enjoying this just a little to much asshole "am I in hell or what because I am confused what's going on and why are you here" "I am here to give you a second chance" I couldn't help but grown he was one of them was he damn it all "ok so what your gonna put me back in my body and tell me I have to do better in life or what" "no little one you no longer exist there, no you shall be going some where else and what you do there is up to you little one" I felt like I'd been kicked in the gut had he just told me that he and whoever else had made it so I had never been born what about my family were they ok happy safe I felt like I couldn't breath "do not worry child they are happy and safe now I believe it is time for you to go" and with that I let the darkness take me again.
