well heres another chapter. hope you enjoy!


He sat there staring at the door. Wondering if it was the right decision to be here in this moment. Hoping that what he was about to do was the right decision.

FLASHBACK-

When he left Rachel Berry to go on her own journey and follow her dreams. When he left her on that train. A part of him left with her. Although he didn't regret his decision and what he was setting out to do he felt like he had let her down in someway and only imagined that she someday would be better and hopefully wouldn't hate him because of it. He was just looking out for the two of them, he didn't want to stand in the way of her big dreams and he knew he would. No matter how many times they talked about it and no matter how many times she said he could never get in the way he couldn't help but feel like he was and it killed him.

When he finally arrived home after leaving everybody at the train station he didn't talk to his mom or Burt when he got home he just grabbed something to drink and ran up the stairs not making eye contact with anybody. He slammed the door in somewhat of anger but a lot of sadness. She should be here with him watching a movie or cuddling with him oh how he loved Rachel cuddles. He just put on his favorite songs from his ipod put the headphones in his ear, shut off the lights and just layed in his bed crying. Hoping that nobody would see him like this although he didn't care he just lost Rachel the love of his life, the girl who was suppose to be his wife at this time right now.

He fell asleep within 20 minutes of hard falling tears. He woke up to a text message from Rachel his face lighting up seeing her name on his phone but a hint of sadness when he remembered exactly what happened that day.

'Made it to New York, hope your okay and home safe. I love you Finn & don't you ever ever ever forget that. Talk to you soon hopefully. Love always

-Your Big Gold Star"

He just wanted to text her back saying all kinds of things but he needed to give her some type of space. Puck ended up trying to get him to come hangout with everybody but he just didn't feel like doing anything just yet. He was just sad and missed her more than anything even his mom saying that dinner was ready didn't have any effect on him.

Months passed by although he didn't join the army. He didn't really have plans. He just been working all summer at the shop with Burt and hanging out with some of the guys from glee, but other than that he didn't really do much. Everytime Rachel texted him he just wanted to text her back but he really wanted to give her the space she needed and he wasn't sure what he was going to do for himself. He just had no idea. He was stuck and needed help. He needed her. As much as he hates to admit it Rachel always helps him find his way and no matter what she has always been there for him. He couldn't help but think how stupid he was for letting her go that day but he was happy knowing that she was safe and somewhat enjoying her time there.

The first day back to school for everybody came and went. When he saw all of Kurts stuff gone he was extremely curious as to where he was going.

"Hey Kurt where are you headed to?"

" I decided to take the Big Apple by storm and although I don't have a plan im just gunna go with it being stuck here isn't what I want for me and I know it isn't what you want either Finn. You've got to get out of this slump and do what makes you happy Finn you deserve it."

"I will. Just she makes me happy shes all that makes me happy and I just want to be this put together man for her so she can see im here for her in every way. Just promise me when you get there you will look after her and make sure she is alright?"

"Of course Finn. Ill text you when I have landed and when I am in the good gracious of Rachel Berry." He couldn't help but notice the sense of sadness on Finns face he could tell he missed her so much and wasn't happy without her.

"Love you Bro."

And with that Kurt left in need to catch his flight and catch his dreams. Finn wished he knew what his dream was and that he couldn't just find it and move on with his life. A couple weeks passed by and Finn finally realized what it was he wanted to do with his life and he wasn't going to let anything stop him from getting it. He just hoped the thing he was set out to get was there for him oh how he hoped.

-end of flashback-

That's when he found himself standing in front of this black door to this beautiful apartment that held two people he loved dearly in his life. He stood there for about ten minutes before he got up the courage to knock. But his heart just kept racing and his hands and face were sweaty. he was nervous. He hoped they were here and when he kept ringing a couple of times nobody answered. Maybe they were out enjoying this beautiful town maybe she was in the shower with her already new man. He thought of the worst. But instead decided to call Kurt to see where he was at.

after the phone rang a couple of times his brother picked up

"Hey Finn what up?"

"Hey Kurt what are you up too? where are you?"

"Strolling central park with Rachel why what up? He could hear Rachel begging to talk to him but he hung up before Kurt could give her a chance.

And with that He knew what his next step was. He was going to get his Rachel. his dream. his love. his future wife, mother of his kids. The everything he has ever wanted in life. And nothing was going to get in his way.


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