Chapter Two: A Nervous Bella and the Boy Who Caused It

Arriving home, I went to my room and came back down for dinner. Adam arrived after that, the beginning of his arrival I was reluctant to even walk to the living room for a French book I had left. After a few moments I had racked up enough courage and I just walked in and didn't even look at Adam, he saw me though.

"Hey Bella," He said casually and I knew my face was turning red because I felt my cheeks burning. I turned toward them anyway; Eli looking at me like I was going to do something stupid again was not helping at all.

"Hey Adam," I replied back and we were both silent for a long time, I eventually picked up my book and went back to my room. "I'm such a failure." I whispered to myself. I didn't know why I was so nervous, Adam was just a guy. A ridiculously cute guy, oh man, I only just met him and I already like him like I've known him forever. I tossed my French book on the bed and sat next to it, I sat thinking for a long time and remembering my French homework. The reason I had to get my French book from the living room, I dug in my backpack and binder for the assignment. The door opened as I sat at my desk, I turned and saw Adam.

"Sorry, Bella thought it was bathroom." He simply said and closed the door. I'm pretty sure he knew very well that this wasn't the bathroom, assuming he's been here before I came. Maybe he asks Eli where my room was; I continue my homework and finished around ten o' clock. Going to the kitchen, I again saw Adam sitting at the island and Eli was nowhere to be seen.

"Hey Adam," I managed to say.

"Hey," He replied. "What happened today at school?" He asked quickly and I turned to face him.

"I was nervous, you know. New school, new people, nerve-racking, and well that's why I acted the way I did." I explained and began to chuckle. "You know, you're laughing at me and it's not helping me be less nervous."

"Sorry, but 'I have ears like a wolf so I can hear across buildings'? It was funny, sorry if I made you nervous."

"Its fine, it's my own fault letting my nerves get the best of me." Eli stepped in and smiled again.

"I see you two are getting along nicely." I felt my cheeks burning again and knew my face was red; I walked out of the kitchen to hide my face.

"Dude," Adam hissed at Eli. "You made her nervous again."

"I know its fun." I pushed Eli by the shoulder and looked at him like he was crazy.

Walking back to my room, I heard someone walking behind me. I turn and saw Eli. "What?" I demanded.

"I'm sorry, it really is fun to make you nervous but come back into the kitchen." I groaned in annoyance but still went back.

For a two good hours the three of us talked about different things that we had in common, Adam was staying over I assumed since it was Friday and almost one in the morning. I went to bed around 1:30 but didn't fall asleep until two, I was writing in my journal and it took a good few minutes to describe certain things.

The morning after, I woke up feeling better from last night. I sighed and climbed out of the bed, I put my hair in a ponytail since it was a mess. I walk to an empty kitchen and got some juice from the fridge and sat at the island, Eli came down a few minutes later in pajamas pants and nothing else. His hair was untidy and his eyes had some life back in them. He took a prescription bottle out of the medicine cabinet and took his pills with juice, we were both silent for a long time.

"So how'd you like last night Bella?" He asked with a lopsided smirk, all I could was smile at the moment.

"It was great." It was all I could say; there was no better way to describe it. Adam came down later in pajamas pants and a baggy shirt; he smiled at me which made my face feel hot again so I turned away. When my face cooled down, I turned back around and saw Adam and Eli had left the kitchen.

I finished my juice and washed the glass, then went back to my room. I dressed for the day and went to the living room to see Adam leaving. He saw me and smiled, I walked toward him. He leaned really close to my face like he was going to kiss but then decided not to and lean back, he just waved goodbye as he walked toward his mother's car. I closed the door and felt elated. The rest of the day passed without a call from Seth, I was beginning to be worried about him. Night soon fell and I was tired for some reason, I went to bed early that night thinking of Adam. I wasn't sure what to do, Eli hadn't said two words to me after Saturday morning and his eyes had gone completely cold again.

I woke up early and put on my uniform for Degrassi, wearing a purple shirt with a big yellow "D" on it, it felt kind of weird wearing a uniform. Everything feels weird; I guess that's just how I am. Walking into Degrassi had me even more nervous than on Friday, I went to the office so they could give me my locker and then proceeded to put my books in it after I got it opened after about five minutes of pounding it with my fist. Sighing quietly, I closed my locker and then remembered my French book. Why is it always French? I began pounding on my locker again when Adam showed up suddenly beside me, I gasped in surprised and he laughed.

"Sorry, Bella. Just couldn't help but hear metal being hit." He said.

"Yeah, of course I get the crappy locker. It happened at my last school too." I replied and my locker finally opened and I got my French book. "It's always my French book; it's like its curse." I said with a laugh, it was silent again for a few moments and Adam broke the silence.

"I had a good time Friday."

"I did too; I find it easier to talk to you now." I smiled widely and the bell rang, I cursed it under my breath and Adam and I parted ways to our classes. English was tiring and French was as boring as usual, Lunch came and went. As I rushing down the hall to class, someone grabbed my arm and pulled me into an empty classroom. I turned to see who it was and it was Adam, he put a finger to his lips motioning to be quiet as the halls empty. "What are you doing?"

"I wanted to talk to you."

"We couldn't just talk in the hall?"

"No, we couldn't." He leaned closed to me again but was very hesitant; he looked me in the eye and backed up. "I'm sorry, Bella." He began to walk to the door but I stopped him.

"Wait, Adam." He turned to me and walked back to me; he leaned close to me again and again was hesitant. I wrapped my arms around his neck; he seemed surprised but a little more confident than before.

He kissed me gently at first and I kissed back, I moved my arms and I rested my hands on his shoulders as Adam wrapped his arm around my waist. It lasted a good few seconds and we both moved our heads back, we were both smiling widely and we kissed again then let go of each other. My face was burning and I could tell Adam was red also; we left the classroom and went to our classes. After classes, I saw Adam again and smiled. He was with Eli, who looked happy again. I decided not to bother them and to just see Eli at home. For my second here, it was the best one. At home, Eli seemed a little upset when we got home. He avoided a lot and around seven, I was starting to get annoyed.

"Did I do something wrong?" I asked him by intersecting him in the hallway. "You've been avoiding me ever since I got home."

"You kissed Adam?"

"Yeah, so what if I did?"

"You do know Adam is actually a girl, right?"

"Huh, what do you mean a girl?"

"He's FTM, Female to Male Transgender."

"Oh, okay."

"You're not wierded out?"

"No, not really, I'm bisexual so it works out." When I said this Eli, looked at me strange and then walked away. I shrugged and went to brush my teeth.

It really didn't surprise me that Adam was an FTM; I noticed he had a slight girliness to his walk and his voice. But I didn't care if he was really a girl, it doesn't bother me. I think he didn't tell me because he thought it would but he'll tell me eventually. The next morning, I saw Adam and told him that I want to talk to him. We went into the same empty classroom as yesterday.

"What is it?"

"Eli told me that you were FTM," Adam looked at me horrified.

"So are you disgusted to see me now."

"Adam, no, I'm not. I'm bisexual so it works out and I like you whatever gender you decide to be." Adam still looked sad but he managed a smile. I kissed him again and he smiled wider.