Warnings:This story contains rape and other mature themes, such as language and possible homosexual relations. You have been warned.

Disclaimer:I don't own Death Note or any of its respective characters. This is written purely for the enjoyment and consumption of other DN fans. Enjoy!

Edited: 6/19/2012

Oh dear! Two revisions done in two hours! What a day! :)

Androphobia

Chapter 2

"Light-kun, what happened?" Light cringed immediately, but said nothing. Ever persistent, Ryuuzaki would not let him get off that easily. Though it was 90% chance that Light had been raped, he hoped he was wrong. Not only was it painful, he had to live with it the rest of his life. He had to live with the constant shame, his hurt pride. Ryuuzaki wanted nothing more to go back in time and say no to Light, even if it hurt his feelings. He wanted nothing more for this to have never happened.

Ryuuzaki looked down as he felt water on his shirt. But it wasn't water; it was tears that leaked out of Light's eyes. He had started quietly, but soon his whole body racketed with sobs.

"Light, you do realize if you don't tell me anything you could be accused of Kira once again. Your percentages are rising at this very moment," He made a mental note that Light's percent was around 45% at the moment. He mentally flinched at his own tone of voice. He sounded void of emotion, even though the boy was crying his heart out.

"I'm not…. Kira," He choked out, taking time between words to cry again. Ryuuzaki looked on as he continued t cry, confused. He wasn't sure what to do with the crying boy. Remembering the cut on his back that had been left forgotten, L pulled his shirt off. Using it as a towel, he applied pressure to the boys back. He didn't want him bleeding out more then he already was.

"Aiber, step on it. Take us to the closest hospital," He said, glancing at Light. He had become very stiff in his arms after he said so. Was he worried they would find something? Sighing in relief, he felt the blood pumping out of Light's body come to a halt.

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Light groaned, and opened his eyes. It was very bright… had he died? He shook the thought away as he heard the voices around him.

"He's waking up, get a doctor!" a nurse yelled, standing over him. He looked around the room, and saw his father sitting there with his mother and sister. Ryuuzaki was on the other side of the room, looking at him intently. He looked up, and saw a male doctor walk in. He immediately tried to move, he didn't want this man near him. As the man got closer, Ryuuzaki began to notice the fear in Light's eyes. He swiftly stood and walked over to the other doctor.

"Do you have any female doctors on hand?" He asked in a whisper.

"Yes, why?" The doctor asked.

"I believe Light has Androphobia. He was raped, correct?"

"Unfortunately we don't get results on rape back immediately, but we have found… "The man paused to look at Light, "Maybe we should continue this outside? I'll send in another doctor." Ryuuzaki nodded his thanks, and looked back over at Light. His demeanor had changed, he seemed more relaxed, as relaxed as he possibly could get. You could see the anxiety in his eyes, the remembrance of what happened.

"Yes, I think that would be best," He nodded, following the doctor out of the room.

"What were you saying?"

"We swabbed him to get any samples of DNA we could. We figured that if he was raped it would help catch the man that had done it. There were traces of semen in and around his anal region. He… the cuts were preformed with what we believe, due to the size of the cuts, was caused by an ordinary switchblade. We can only assume his assailant was alone until we have time to question him about it. The cut on his back will scar, there is really nothing we can do with that as of now. It wasn't too deep, but it was good you stopped the bleeding. Clogging the blood was the best and only thing you could have done to help him. You may have even saved his life by doing so."

"Thank you, doctor. I'll relay some of the information to the family," The doctor nodded and took his leave, telling one of the nurses to get a female doctor assigned to the room. L stepped back into the room in time to see Light fully awake talking to his father.

"What's wrong with me?" It was his father that answered him.

"You have a concussion, and they say you were possibly raped. Tell me that's not true!" His father sounded almost pleading, but not for the reason you would think. If the police found out, everyone would know he had a weak son. One that couldn't defend himself.

"… It is," He choked out, expecting sympathy and anger. What he didn't expect was anger pointed at him. He wished even more now that he had kept his mouth shut about it.

"How could you let it happen, how could you?" His father roared at him. He squirmed back, he didn't want his father near him. Ryuuzaki immediately stepped forward.

"Your son was raped, and that is all you have to say to him? How he could let it happen? That is the most ridiculous thing I have ever heard. Rape victims don't want it to happen. That's why they're called victims. Now either be a real father or leave," L said angrily, actually he was pissed. The fact that he would say such things to his emotionally unstable son… was disturbing. Either way, if he found he did one thing to make Light hurt, Soichiro would have hell to pay.

Light watched in pain as his father left him. In his most vulnerable moment the man he had looked up to for years left him because he was raped. The tears once again began to fall, and he felt shame. If his father couldn't accept him, would Ryuuzaki? Of course, unless he really thought he was Kira. Was he? No, definitely not. If he was Kira he would have killed the man that raped him in an instant.

"Oh Light, I'm so sorry," His mother came up and gave him a squeeze. He gasped, and she immediately let him go. "Oh dear, I forgot about… that," She broke off, tears beginning to leak from her eyes.

"No matter what dad said, we'll always be here for you," Sayu said, giving her brother a reassuring look. He gave her a pained smile, he really appreciated it. At least some of his family still loved him.

"Ryuuzaki, when can I leave?" Light said, looking down. He didn't want to see his friends face.

"The new doctor will be here in a little, I can ask her when you are stable enough to leave," Light nodded his head, before lying back down in his bed. His eyes, unseeing stared up to the ceiling.

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"Light-kun, wake up," Light jerked awake as he heard the familiar voice of L. "We have permission to leave now," Light thanked the women that was standing by, watching the scene before her. She nodded her head, giving him a smile before holding open the door for him. He limped out of the room, satisfied with himself that he was able to make it the whole way without help.

Light sat in the backseat of the car, glancing out the window. Every time he saw a man, he would look away and glance at L. L would act like he didn't notice, but Light knew otherwise. He was sitting in his usual position, meaning his deductive and observation skills skyrocketed. Light sighed, and glanced at his hands. He couldn't bear to look into L's eyes. He was expecting to see disappointment and hate, just like his father. But what he didn't know was that L was disappointed; in himself. L blamed the whole thing on himself, if only he went along. He could have stopped this from happening. If only he…

Light realized when he looked at Ryuuzaki he could see the guilt in his eyes… so he thought this was his own fault!

"Stop it, Ryuuzaki!" Light croaked out, his throat still hurt from crying and yelling so much.

"What's wrong, Light?" L asked gently, showing emotions he normally hid behind a mask.

"You think it's your fault! Why? It was… it was…" Light sobbed, he couldn't finish his sentence. Partly because he didn't want to relieve it, and because he didn't know who did it. Ryuuzaki immediately understood, and placed a comforting hand on Light's shoulder. Instead of pulling away like Ryuuzaki thought he would, he leaned in closer. Right now he wanted comfort, something no one else offered. They were afraid that they'd scare him away. Though he wouldn't admit it, he liked being this close to Ryuuzaki.

"Will you be ok, Light?" Ryuuzaki hadn't meant to say it, but it just slipped out of his mouth.

"I don't know, Ryuuzaki," Light answered, glancing away.

"I assume you heard of your… phobia," L stated, looking at Light. He had to tread carefully with this, Light might be in denial. An emotionally disturbed boy in denial was not good, Ryuuzaki knew this well.

"Yeah, I heard you tell the doctor," He said, embarrassed.

"Having a phobia is nothing to embarrassed about, you know," Ryuuzaki muttered, grabbing a piece of candy from his pocket.

"I know," He whispered. He then remembered something.

"What about Kira?"

"What about him, Light?"

"Are we still working on the case?"

"I suppose, if you wanted to continue,"

"Yes, it would give me something to do!" He said, with what little excitement he could.

"You would have to work with the task force, you know," Light blanched, he had to work with… men? He shivered, but realized he knew those men. That didn't stop him from getting nervous, though. As they got out of the car, they entered H.Q. L lead him to their room, where he instantly collapsed.

L watched Light in silence, wondering what was to come tomorrow. Unconsciously the boy scooted closer to the detective as he sat on the bed. L, without even thinking about it, rubbed the boy's head. Feeling the silky hair beneath his fingers, he hesitantly pulled away. Stunned by his own actions, he jumped up and stared into the mirror. What was Light doing to him? Reaching almost hesitantly, he touched his face, the face that usually held no emotions. And yet he noticed something, he looked different. He didn't want to admit it, but he felt different as well.

Finding his actions almost immature he slowly approached the bed once again. Despite what had happened, dare he say that Light seemed to retain some sort of peace in his sleep. Lowering himself on the bed, he felt the boy snuggle up to him completely. He was feeling hot, but he allowed the boy to do as he pleased. Besides, he figured after what had happened today he deserved whatever comfort he desired.


AN: I hope you enjoyed that little revised chapter there. If any of you are The Informant readers, I expect to have that updated by next week sometime! If any of the chapter makes you confused, please feel free to pm me or review to ask questions.

Thanks for reading,

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