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Note: The chapters will progressively get longer as the story goes on.


Chapter 1: Misery
Recommend Song: Hearing Damage by Thom Yorke


It was dark and rain poured from the sky when Sakura's plane had finally touched down in Sea-Tac Airport. The pink haired teen calmly slung her bag over her shoulder and she cautiously made her way through the crowded airport. Her hair was covered by the hood of her large navy blue sweatshirt so she didn't draw any unnecessary attention to herself.

Sakura stepped out into the rain, her sweatshirt instantly becoming drenched but she didn't seem to mind. Her overly bright green eyes scanned the busy Seattle streets and she trudged down the sidewalk with the intent of finding a suitable hotel or at least a pay phone to call a taxi.

'Should have brought a cell phone,' Inner Sakura's voice commented and Sakura mentally shook her head in disagreement. Car horns blared loudly and several civilians rushed across the street in hopes of escaping the storm.

'Cell phones can be traced,' Sakura reminded her Inner but her train of thought faded when the wind suddenly went still around her. Sakura stood completely still in the middle of the sidewalk as fear became to creep up inside of her.

Danger. The wind was quick to warn Sakura and the pinkette didn't waste any time as she broke into a sprint. The wind whipped around her and she breathed deeply before she allowed her natural influence over the element to overtake her.

Sakura's speed increased exponentially as the wind came to her aid, oxygen circulated faster throughout her body and her heartbeat sped up to match that of a hummingbird's. The wind whipped at her feet lifting her off the ground slightly and giving the teenager a weightless feeling as she continued her mad dash down the sidewalk.

'Run faster,' Inner Sakura's voice coaxed as a flash of red was seen out of the corner of the pinkette's eye. Sakura's fear turned into full blown panic and she screamed when she felt a hand grab her shoulder, before roughly slinging her into the wall of a building.

'Get up!' Sakura groaned as she reluctantly complied with her Inner's command and slowly rose to her feet. The wind had cushioned most of her impact with the wall, so the only thing that Sakura would have to worry about was a bruise or two.

Danger! Sakura's breathing came out in ragged gasps as she tried to calm herself, which was proving to be a hard feat to accomplish. Her eyes looked around frantically in hopes of finding her attacker but that too was proving to be unsuccessful.

DANGER! The wind howled viciously in Sakura's ears and the pinkette's world seemed to slow down as her attacker appeared in front of her once again. A woman who was too beautiful to be real with locks of long, curly, brilliant orange hair that mimicked fire and ruby red eyes that practically glowed with bloodlust smiled at Sakura and tears filled the teen's eyes at an alarming rate.

"NO!" she screamed and the wind roared in her ears as it violently shoved the woman away and swirled around the pinkette ominously. The woman landed in a crouch with feline grace as her expression twisted into a snarl. The woman hissed at Sakura once before she disappeared into the night as if she had never been there.

'Calm down, Sakura. The crazy redhead is gone, no one is going to hurt you,' Inner Sakura aimed to console her other half with comforting words and Sakura released a shaky breath before she slowly leaned her back against the wall of the building and slowly slid down to the wet concrete. Her hood had slid from the top of her head when she had been thrown against the building and her pink hair now stuck to her face in neck, but she didn't care.

Safe. Strong. Protect. The wind also sought to comfort the distressed teen and Sakura's body shook with a mixture of cold and emotional turmoil. Tears continued to stream down the girl's cheeks and she drew her legs up to her chest, before she rested her forehead on her knees.

"I can't do this…!" Sakura's words came out in a choked sob as her body continued to shake and tremble. She lifted her head from her knees and frantically rubbed her eyes to stop her tears, but her effort was in vain.

"I don't…..I don't want to live this way….!" The rain continued to pour down on Sakura's body and the teen looked up at the cloudy, starless sky allowing the rain to mix with her tears. The rain could wash away her tears, but it would never be able to wash away her pain and for that reason, Sakura would always have tears for the rain to wash away.


Bella has developed a strange habit of pretending. She would pretend that there wasn't a deranged vampire out there trying to kill her. She would pretend that Edward wasn't pressuring her into marrying him. She would pretend that her relationship with Jacob wasn't complicated and filled with so many draining emotions. She would pretend that her life was simple.

"Bella, are you okay?" the sound of Edward's musical voice brought Bella out of her reverie and she turned her attention to the Adonis-like vampire. She found herself drowning in his intense gaze, before she quickly turned away.

"I want to see Jacob," she spoke simply and Edward closed his eyes as he sighed in a mixture of weariness and exasperation. They had discussed, leaning more towards argued over, this particular topic many times and Edward wasn't looking forward to having it again.

"No. It's dangerous," Edward's voice was firm and Bella resisted the urge to roll her eyes at his comment. Dangerous? Hadn't he been the one to call her a 'danger-magnet' in the first place?

"Edward, I used to spend all day down at La Push. It's not dangerous at all," Bella intentionally decided to leave out the park where Paul had been ready to tear her to shreds at one point, but then again she had justifiably provoked him.

"Werewolves are unstable creatures, Bella. Sometimes, the people near them get hurt. Sometimes they get killed," Edward replied back in a smooth tone and Bella frowned before she grew quiet, an image of Emily's scarred face flashed in her mind.

Bella pretended that Edward's comment wasn't hypocritical. She pretended that Edward and Jacob didn't want to tear each other limb from limb. She pretended that she didn't feel the need to constantly pretend.

"Bella," Edward's soft voice called out to her and she felt his icy fingers underneath her chin, guiding her to look at him. She pretended that she didn't compare his icy caress to Jacob's burning touch.

"Jacob won't hurt me," Bella altered her original comment and Edward's eyes darkened slightly, before he released another agonized sigh. Bella pretended that Edward didn't always try to control her decisions.

"You don't know that Bella," he argued back and Bella pulled herself free from his grasp, before rose from the spot where she had been sitting on her bed. She pretended that Edward's words didn't offend her.

"I know him better than you do Edward. I know Jacob would never hurt me," she replied back as she stared down at his perfect form on her bed and she absent-mindedly noted that his pristine clothes clashed terribly with her purple comforter. Bella pretended that she hadn't just lied through her teeth.

Bella and Jacob had a vicious cycle going on at the moment. She was hurting him by choosing Edward over him and he in return was unintentionally hurting her by avoiding her. Their once strong friendship seemed to be handing by a very thin thread. Edward stared up at Bella and with a fluid grace that only vampires could possess he stood up and pulled her into his arms.

"Bella, you have to understand that your safety is of the upmost importance to me. I will never forgive myself for leaving you, if I had never left….you wouldn't feel the need to risk your life to comfort a dog," Edward whispered in her ear and Bella visibly flinched at the derogatory term that Edward had used to describe Jacob, it sounded crueler coming from Edward's velvet tone.

"It's no your decision to make, Edward. I'm going to see Jacob," Bella replied in a firm tone and Edward pulled back to stare at her with a serious expression on his face. Bella pretended that wasn't arguing over her legal rights as a person.

"I'm not letting you go," Edward replied without missing a beat and a frown marred Bella's face, before she ran her hand through her brunette hair in her ever growing aggravation.

"I don't want to talk about this anymore, I'm really tired. We'll just have to agree to disagree," Bella voice came out in a sigh as she returned to lie back down on her bed. She didn't say anything when Edward moved to lie down beside her or when he wrapped his arms around her and pulled her back against his chest. Bella merely closed her eyes and pretended that she didn't have to pretend.


It took a lot to make a vampire panic, especially one that was gifted such as Alice. Seeing into the future, no matter how limited, always managed to assure the pixie-like vampire that things would work out. However, the future is always changing. Alice stared into empty space in the middle of the forest, her onyx colored eyes glittering underneath the moonlit sky.

It was a mere second that felt like hours, before Alice returned to herself and a great pain struck her undead heart. She covered her mouth in her silent horror as she took in unnecessary breaths, trying to find some way to release the tears that she could no longer cry. Jasper appeared beside his wife instantly having felt her horror and distress, and he began to send out soothing waves of calm.

"N-no, don't Jas. Please don't," Alice's voice was quiet but she spoke at a speed that normal humans wouldn't have been able to understand. Jasper pulled her into his arms and murmured soft reassurances, but Alice merely shook her head.

"Jas, I had a vision. Oh god, it was about Bella," Alice's voice was choked with emotion and her body stood too still in her lover's arms. The scenes of the vision replayed in her mind like a silent film.

"I saw Edward killing Bella, Jas! It wasn't an act of mercy or a slip up. Jasper, he was enjoying it," Alice's voice trailed off as Jasper tightened his hold on her and Alice began to chatter senselessly.

"Maybe, it was a mistake. I mean, Edward loves Bella and he would never purposely hurt her. I mean, it could be that something is altering the vision," Alice began to rant off excuses and Jasper merely listened.

"Besides, even if the vision were true, which I pretty sure it isn't. Edward probably had a reason for his actions," Alice defended her brother and Jasper raised one of his eyebrows in response. Justifiable murder? That's ridiculous, murder is murder. At least, that was how Jasper viewed it.

"Oh, but I have to find some way to distract Edward and keep him from seeing this vision. It will devastate him," Alice continued to speak, so wrapped up in her own thoughts that she didn't realize that Jasper had released his hold on her.

Edward had a nasty habit of invading peoples' minds, therefore their privacy, just because he had the ability too. Jasper hated it and so every time the mind reading vampire tried to invade his mind, he would think of nothing but the countless battles that he had participated in which was enough to repel the mind reader.

"It's settled, I'll just keep my mind so occupied that Edward won't be able to see the vision. See, problem solved," Alice seemed to cheer up at her quick termination to the solemn vision. Sometimes, Alice was too simple in Jasper's opinion.

The problem was nowhere near solved, if anything Alice had just avoided it entirely. She had put Edward up on a pedestal where he could virtually do no harm in her eyes; it annoyed Jasper to no end. Not because he was jealous of the other vampire, because he surely wasn't, but because Edward was a spoiled brat that believed he could have everything he wanted.

"Come on, Jas. Let's finish our hunt and head back," Alice grabbed a hold of the empathic vampire's hand and lead him deeper into the forest. Jasper allowed the pixie-like vampire to lead him along as he thought over what she had just said.

For a vampire, there was only black and white. Food or not food. Kill or be killed. Live or die. There were no shades of grey and the false humanity that the Cullens insisted on portraying to the humans for appearances was starting to grate on Jasper's nerves. Being a vampire was tough, that much was true but being a vampire that pranced around disguised as a human was madness.

Alice abandoned Jasper's hand when she caught scent of a deer a few yards away, but Jasper didn't seem to notice. It didn't make a difference if she held his hand, if she kissed him, if she told him that she loved him. Jasper felt that Alice did hold some degree of love towards him, but it was nowhere near as potent as he had felt from other mated couples.

They hunted together and once they had their fill of the precious blood that sustained them, the two vampires began their journey back to the Cullen's house. Alice chattered on endlessly about one thing or another, Jasper only half listened as he focused on the facts of his life. Alice loved him, but not as much as she loved being able to play human.

"Jas when we get back to the house, let's go shopping. It'll be so much fun! I should invite Bella, she loves shopping and lets me help pick out her clothes," Alice excelled in the ability of having one sided conversations with herself. Bella hated shopping, Jasper knew that and Alice was too oblivious or rather simple minded to notice. For instance, she never noticed that Jasper hadn't spoken up verbally the entire trip.