Hey, this one is written by Alirosala. I hope you enjoy it. Please make sure you read the whole chapter because Bella is not like that for very long (you'll know what I mean when you read it!)! Please review because I'm not sure if this story I going to work.

A deep, booming chime echoed through the square. It throbbed in the stones under my feet. Children cried, covering their ears. And I started screaming as I ran.

"Edward!" I screamed, knowing it was useless. The crowd was too loud, and my voice was breathless with exertion. But I couldn't stop screaming.

The clock tolled again. I swerved and sprinted for the gloomy breach in front of me as the clock tolled over my head.

"Edward, no!" I screamed, but my voice was lost I the roar of the chime.

I could see him now. And I knew that he could not see me.

It was really him, no hallucination this time. And I realized my delusions were more flawed than I'd realised: they'd never done him justice.

Edward stood, motionless as a statue, just a few feet from the mouth of the alley. His eyes were closed, the rings underneath them deep purple, his arms relaxed at his sides, his palms turned forward. His expression was very peaceful, like he was dreaming pleasant things. The marble skin of his chest was bare-there was a small pile of white fabric at his feet. The light reflecting from the pavement of the square gleamed dimly from his skin.

I'd never seen anything more beautiful-even as I ran gasping and screaming, I could appreciate that. And the last seven months meant nothing. And his words in the forest meant nothing. And it did not matter if he did not want me. I would never want anything but him, no matter how long I lived.

The clock tolled, and he took a large stride toward the light.

"No!" I screamed. "Edward, look at me!"

He slowly took another step forward, closer to the light.

"Edward!" I screamed again. He opened his eyes as I ran franticly towards him. I was so close. He looked at me and I knew he loved me. The expression on his face was of pure love and I know mine was the same. I anticipated his arms around me. I could already feel his kiss, his cold marble skin. But life is never so perfect. Life is harsh, and if you even dare to hope it just hurts you more. One minute he was in front of me, a perfect vision of beauty, my love for all eternity. The next he was gone. I began screaming. I couldn't loose him again. I Could already feel the hole growing larger. What happened? Where was he? I fell to the ground and looked around me searching for him. It couldn't have been an illusion. It was too perfect. His eyes…he loved me and I lost him again. I pulled myself up and pushed my burning muscles harder. I could feel the tears streaming down my face but I didn't have time to wipe them away, I needed to find my love. I pushed myself into the dark alley where his shirt was still on the floor. The was a loud metallic screech and I looked up. On the roof stood a tall dark figure. He looked down at me and I could see an evil smirk on his face. In his hands he held a large round object. All my strength left me and my knees would no longer hold me. I had never felt so cold in my life, even when I was drowning it was never this cold. The bright sun did nothing to warm me or light the darkness that was overpowering my mind. In his hand he held a head. The head of my one love, my reason for life, my reason for being born. Now it was all over, how could I exist in this world if Edward was not in it too. The hole in my chest had never been bigger. I couldn't move, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't think. The same words were circling my head, Edward is dead, they burnt the last of Bella Swan, just as he burned now. Bella died with Edward. I was no longer that girl. I was something new. Something much more cold-blooded. I wanted revenge. I would have my revenge, no matter how long it took the Volturi would pay. This new found thirst for blood pulled me up higher into the dark. The dark I would never come to leave. I dark I would hide in forever more. I pulled myself up. I needed more strength than this weak human body. I needed to be a vampire. Where was Alice? She promised and she would turn me into a vampire and now was the time. I needed this. It was my new purpose.

Alice was not far. I found her in a dark corner crying her tearless sobs. I should have run up to her and cried with her. We should have shared the pain and helped each other. But that was the old Bella. I felt no emotion but bitterness and my savage need for vengeance.

"Alice?" I was surprised by how strong my voice felt after…. No. I would not think about it. It was a weakness and I couldn't afford weakness anymore. Alice looked up at me and the pain in her eyes nearly broke my heart. My dark heart. Or maybe not. I think it was gone. Her face gave an odd thrill and me. I fantasised the looks of the victims I would take as I tore them apart piece by piece. I heard their screams inside my head as they burned. They would all die in my arms as I whispered the last words they would ever hear, the name of my beloved that I would keep forever in my black heart. "Alice, you have to change me."

"Bella…I cant," she sobbed.

"Yes you can Alice. Stand up." I knew my voice sounded powerful and echoed across the walls making my demand frightening. Alice stayed on the floor so I pulled her up. She began to sob on my shoulder and I pulled her back to arms length.

"Bite me Alice."

"Bella…please…I cant."

"Just do it!" I screamed. She shrank back. She didn't deserve to be a vampire, I thought. I needed to be a vampire. I had a purpose. People so weak inside did not deserve to be so powerful outside.

"Alice!" I screamed. She shot forward and bit my neck hard. I was not prepared for the burning that began to spread throughout my body, but I did not cry out. I had felt far worse pain.

For three days I burned. Three days wasted when I could be hunting. When the pain stopped and I opened my eyes I was still in the dark alley. Alice had left. I was alone. Perfect. I sniffed the air and experimented with my new sharper senses. I could see a sheep on a hill far off in the distance, I could hear every foot fall in a mile away. I could smell every human walking through the dark alleys, hear their hearts, smell the blood. I saw an image of myself covered in blood. It was a tempting picture. I wanted blood. I needed blood. Human blood. Now.

I walked through the allies anticipating my first meal. I found a man with his back to the wall. He smiled as I approached and I smiled sweetly back at him. I stopped as I came to him. My mouth watered as I took in his scent. I continued to smile sweetly but I could feel an evil expression creeping onto my face. His smile faltered and I laughed. I could smell his fear. I wanted to taste it. He couldn't even scream. The blood flowed down my throat and it was the most delicious thing I had ever tasted. Nothing could compare. The young man took his last breath. And I lay him on the floor. He was very handsome but I had no interest in his body anymore. This attack would attract the Volturi's attention, I'm sure. I would be ready. I vowed to myself never to rest until every last member was burning in hell. That is how they would die and remain for all eternity.

"Miss Swan." An evil voice spoke my name and I cringed before I turned to look at the revolting creature.

"Hello. Who are you then?" I feel so powerful at the moment. My revenge is only just beginning.

"I am Santiago." He gave me a small smirk. "I'm a member of the Volturi guard as your probably know."

"Of course." I reply. He will be easy to defeat. This should take seconds with my vampire power. This is who I was born to be. This is who I will die as, if anybody could defeat me that is.

"You are very foolish and very young." I let a low growl. He wouldn't last long at all. I had to make my move quick. I lunge straight at his throat but I was caught in mid-air. How did he move so fast? He cut off my breath and stared deep into my eyes. I didn't need to breathe of course but it wasn't very comfortable. "You need to learn to behave and respect your elders," he spat. He threw me to the floor and it cracked slightly with the impact. I stood quick and backed against the wall. "Make sure this doesn't happen again," he gestured to the man whose blood I had drank. "Or the Volturi may not be so merciful. You will get your second chance to live." With that he picked up the dead mans body and jumped up high onto the roofs out of sight. Second chance? What was that supposed to mean?

For the first time I really thought about the fact I was a vampire. I had accepted it so easily, so dominated by my need for revenge. This wasn't me. I'm not supposed to be cruel. I'm supposed to be the clumsy, quiet Bella who Edward Cullen fell in love with. What has happened to me? I sank to the ground as the memory of Edward swept over me. He was really gone. Forever. There was no second chance this time. I was too late. I chest shook with sobs and no tears came. I was a vampire and I had to live with the memory of Edwards's death forever more. It was my entire fault. I walked aimlessly through the dark alleys. What was I ever thinking? Me, try to defeat the Volturi, I must have been kidding myself. It wasn't their fault anyway. It was mine. I was the one who dived off the stupid cliff. It was me who drove Edward here to where he asked for his own death. I came to the alley where all of this started. His shirt was gone, of course. Life goes on for everybody else. I wish I had picked up the shirt when I had the chance. I was too obsessed with silly revenge to think. I hated myself more than anything in that moment.

I don't know how much time had passed but now it was very dark. I could see fine. Another vampire thing. I was all alone with this now. Nobody to guide me as the others had been. The Cullens. Where was Alice? Did she just leave me? I suppose I had frightened her. She was so upset and I had gone crazy on her. I had to go back to Forks. I had to see the Cullens. Maybe they could help me. Or maybe they would turn me away. Maybe they would correctly blame me, call me a monster and turn me away. I was destined to be alone and I knew it. I had to try anyway.

Please review! I love Edward really! It made me cry to kill him and I want him back too! Should he come back? Please review and tell me your answer!

Alirosala