Unbroken, Unspoken, Unseen
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Last time:
Kagome sighed and sat down, not being able to feel it, but knowing she was doing so. She just couldn't move on…
She sat there for awhile, suddenly hearing footsteps. 'Oh well,' she thought, 'I don't have to leave.' She put her head on her knees and heard the footsteps stop just behind her.
"Kagome?" Someone asked. The voice sounded familiar…
'But wait! No one can see me!' She thought to herself. She turned back, and there stood……
This time:
'Nobody? What the hell?' She thought to herself. She turned around and looked at the rocks that were lining the bottom of the hot spring. It was her imagination again, wasn't it?
She sighed softly, and looked up to the sky. She held her hand in front of her face, and for a second, with the steam and the sunlight reflecting off the water, she saw her hand. She blinked for a moment. "I used to be solid... before I sacrificed myself. Haha... I don't know why I felt the need to do it, but I did." A sob escaped her. "Why can't I keep myself together? I'm not real anymore! No one can feel me, hear me, or see me!" She screamed to the air. She felt... alone.
"Ha..." She sobbed to herself. "It's like I never existed. Kikyo now has a full soul, like she did back then, Inu-yasha is... happier with her then he ever would be with me, and Shippo..." She sobbed again, "It seems like he's finally got a family." She wiped at her face, her hand coming in contact with the wet air. To anyone else, it would look like there was a faint amount of rain there.
"So I'm going crazy as a spirit. Real nice." She mumbled to herself. "And now I'm talking to myself. Haha! I am going crazy... I hear people call my name, I talk to myself, and I feel alone... Hm." She kept speaking to herself. She looked up, looking into silver eyes.
"What? Who are you?" She asked. The thing didn't seem to see her, just walked past her. It was probably sniffing the air.
She sighed, before she walked into the water. The water rippled as she stood on it. For some reason, she felt like, dancing. So she did that, graceful as ever, as she twirled in a circle, like a ballerina, moving her arms into the air as she leaned back, before she moved her hands, keeping her balance perfectly as she did a spin, lasting 32 lengths. She smiled to herself. "Even in death... I have not lost that." She whispered. Her voice carried into the air, and strolled around the wind. Giving people the illusion that someone was with them. Everyone who heard her voice, looked up, wondering who had spoken. Shippo had looked up, his eyebrows furrowing together.
"Mama!" He shouted. Kikyo looked over to him.
"Yes Shippo?" She asked, smiling as kindly as Kagome had, her eyes soft.
"I heard... Kagome..." He whispered. Kikyo looked at Shippo for a moment, smiling as she picked him up.
"You must be hearing things." She stated. "No more sugar until we find Kagome." She mumbled, hugging Shippo to her chest. Shippo didn't like Kikyo a lot, but she now had Kagome's soul. And she was so much like his mama. He sobbed into Kikyo's bosom.
"There, there.." She whispered, singing to Shippo softly, while he started to sleep, the last thing he whispered was, "Mama..."
Kagome sat on top of the water. She started humming before she actually started singing.
"So deep, that it didn't even bleedin' catch me, off guard. Red-handed now, I'm far from lonely. Asleep I still see you lying next to me. So deep, that it didn't even bleedin' catch me, I.. I... I need, something else. Would someone please just give me? Hit me, knock me out and let me go back to sleep. I can laugh all I want, inside I am still empty. So deep, that it didn't even bleedin' catch me, I... I... I'll be just fine... pretending I'm not... I'm far from lonely, and it's all that I've got." In truth, she was lonely. Lonelier then anyone could be. She sighed as she stopped singing for a moment, before she looked up into the sky.
"I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not. I'm far from lonely, and it's all that I've got. I guess, I remember every glance you shot me. Unharmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat." She whispered. She had no body heat, for she simply was spirit. "I used to work so hard, I stopped your heart from beating.. So deep, that I didn't even scream fuck me..." She looked away from the sky before gazing into the woods.
"I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not. I'm far from lonely, and it's all that I've got. I'll be just fine, pretending I'm not... I'm far from lonely, and it's all that I've got." She whispered, choking on the last word.
"Oh Inu-yasha..." She whispered, pulling her knees to her chest. "Why did you have to die? If I wouldn't have sacrificed myself, we could be together. If you wouldn't have tried to protect me, you wouldn't have died, and, and... I would be able to be with you..." She whispered, sobbing quite loudly. She stood and started walking away, skimming the top of the water as she crossed with her fingertips, only for it to pass right through.
"Kagome?" She heard again. She turned, and through the steam she saw a demon with purple stripes across his cheeks, and a moon on his forehead.
"Sesshomaru?" She questioned, furrowing her eyebrows. "You can see me?"
"I think everyone can see you Kagome. You're alive, aren't you?" He asked, his eyes rolling.
"I'm dead, Sesshomaru." She stated. This confused him to no ends.
"You are dead?" He questioned, once more, as he rubbed his hair back.
"I died because in the final battle with Naraku... Inu-yasha got hurt and died. I had to save him.. so.. I made a wish... and now here we are. And here we will stay."
He looked at her, surprised at her speech, yet nothing showed on his face. He watched her, she was like... a soft silver color. No one could see her? She was dead? This just did not make sense. Why would she give her life up for Inu-yasha? It did not make sense.
"Why would you give your life up for him? It just doesn't make sense, Kagome." He stated, eyebrows scrunched together. She looked at him, her spirit seemed to reflect her emotions. First the color was a light silver, then a dark blue, and finally a jaded green.
"I loved him, Sesshomaru. Would you not give your life for the one you love?" She looked at him, from across the water, where she had stood.
"That... is a good question. Though I love no being, I would say, that is, indeed a very good question."
"Why am I asking you these things? We are enemies, are we not? Even in death." She stared at him.
"That is true."
"It doesn't have to be, you know. We could just forget everything. You've only tried to kill me... five times. I do believe." She smiled, and her spirit turned back to the silver color it was.
"That... is true."
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