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Sometimes I have to wonder if my being here is really doing anyone any good. I could easily be replaced with someone more compassionate, someone more "fun." Someone who's a better leader, protector, brother.

After all, there's nothing that I do that's special. Not really. I just give orders - that my brothers don't even follow half the time - and watch their backs. That could be done by anyone. Doesn't have to be done by me.

Anyone can give orders. Anyone can lead the team. Anyone can do katas and handle missions and whatever else I'm here for.

I'm not good at anything else. I can't cook. I'm not smart. I don't have any raw talents. The leadership position is all I have, and if that could be done by someone far more competent than myself, then why am I even here?

Would anyone even miss me if I was gone? All Raph does anymore is fight with me and question my orders. Donnie barely looks at me. Mikey...Mikey follows Raph's lead. Of course he does.

I'm useless.