Hi guys! I really hope you're enjoying my story! This next chapter is about Lissa's reaction towards Christian's disappearance, will she do something rash? Read and find out! Pleeeease R&R!
Disclaimer: I don't own Vampire Academy, unfortunately
I quickly redressed and sprinted out of my dorm and across the quad. I barely noticed the melting ice seeping between my toes as I ran up the stairs to Lissa's dorm.
"Miss Hathaway what on earth are you doing here this late?" I glanced at Alberta and had to resist a snarky comment and an eye roll.
"Lissa, she's… she's upset" I couldn't bring myself to clarify that she was upset over her boyfriend's untimely death.
Alberta gave me a knowing look, "Rose, there's nothing you can do. I know you blame yourself but you shouldn't. Christian knew what he was getting himself into when he went on the rescue mission. You were preoccupied with saving other people."
"But-"
"You can't save everyone Rose, the sooner you accept it the better." I nodded at that last comment, attempting take make her believe that I actually listened to that bullshit. Can't save everyone, my ass.
"Is there a possibility that Christian might still be alive?" I already knew the answer before she even got the chance to speak. Her face took on the same grave look she had possessed earlier this evening when talking about going back to collect bodies. "I don't believe Christian could survive a Strigoi attack on his own, but there might be a possibility." She said those last words without really believing them.
"Thanks", I nervously looked at the ground not knowing how to ask my next question. "Can I go check on Lissa? I know I'm still on probation but she needs me, like really needs me right now." Alberta gave me a small smile, "I think you would find a way to get to her whether I gave you permission or not." I smiled in relief, I was already half way down Lissa's hall before I could finish saying thanks.
"I tri-"
"I don't care what you did Rose! He's gone and you were the one who convinced him he could battle Strigoi. Why would you let him go after creatures you knew he couldn't destroy?! You let him die! You took him away from me!" Each time she had referenced me in her tyrant had been with venom I didn't know she possessed. I had been trying to defend myself with words that I didn't want to accept either for over an hour now. I did blame myself for Christian being gone, but Lissa wasn't allowing me to talk, at all.
"Liss-"
"Shutup"
"Listen to me!" I shrieked. "There's a possibility that Christian's not dead! If you would just be quite for one second and let me speak, I could explain some things to you before you just go assuming that I served your boyfriend up on a hot platter to the Strigoi!" I was breathing heavily at the end of my much-needed speech and Lissa just stared at me unable to speak. Finally.
"Some of the other Guardians are heading back to the caves tomorrow to see if there are any survivors." I didn't think adding "collecting bodies" would help my case. The only answer I got from Lissa was a snuffle.
She had red splotches all over her usually porcelain skin and her eyes were filled with pools of tears that ran down her face and long neck. My anger vanished within seconds.
"Oh Liss," I sat down next to her and put my arm around her shoulders and stroked her hair.
"I'm never going to talk to him again or kiss him or hear his", gasp, "laugh"
"Yes you will", I told her fiercely. I felt doubt prickle through her.
"You're lying to me Rose, I'm not stupid." I couldn't piece together my next set of half lying but comforting words before she spoke again.
"I can hear it in your voice. You know he's dead." She was accusing me again. Not good.
"Liss-"
"No! I don't want to hear you lie to me anymore," she launched herself off the bed and swung her arms around violently in an attempt at removing my arm from her shoulder. It worked.
"Lissa, I'm not lying. We can get him back. We will get him back, I promise." I was just making her angrier with every word .
"Get out," she growled.
"Lissa, please!"
"I said get out!" I wasn't backing down easily, and she knew that. So, she spat out what she knew would hit home and probably not only make me leave, but storm out in a raged infused fury.
"I hate you, Rose" I just looked at her, slack jawed. I was in so much shock because I could feel everything she was feeling and she really meant it, at this moment she…she hated me.
"O-okay, I'll leave." I said in a meek, not very Rose Hathaway sort of way.
When I closed the door behind me, I could feel an inkle of regret trickle through her, but not enough to stop me.
My feet were numb. Fuck, why didn't I take two extra seconds to throw on some slippers before going over to Lissa's?
It was snowing and white flakes were collecting on my dark hair. It was two pm so the sun was out, unlike everyone else. Seeing the sun out just reminded me of our mantra, they come first.
Lissa hadn't even asked me if I was okay from the battle. I didn't even cross her mind. I mean, yeah, I'm a complete badass, but still. I could have been hurt. She didn't ask me if my mother, Dimitri or even if Alberta had made it back okay. For all she knew Dimitri could have been turned Strigoi and she didn't take the time to ask or even care.
I didn't have time to complete my thoughts because I was interrupted by a deep, Russian accent. Dimitri.
"Rose, why are you out? It's almost three; you still have a curfew you know." I could tell by his tone of voice that he was smiling.
"Why, Guardian Belikov, I was just taking a midnight stroll." I turned around to face him and took a step forward to find myself stepping into a slush of snow, and, embarrassingly slipping.
I was preparing myself for an ass covered in ice, but before I could slam into the sidewalk, Dimitri caught me. I looked up at him, getting a weird sense of déjà vu from our first encounter together last fall.
I studied him, he was thinking the same thing. "You're so beautiful Roza."
I just stared back at him in response. Suddenly remembering our time spent together in the cabin together only yesterday, I felt heat course through me. I wanted him again. And I knew he wanted me too.
He helped me to my feet while still keeping me in his arms.
"I thought we were going to lay off each other until I graduated," I said breathlessly. "We can't be having se-ex every day at the academy," I cursed myself for stumbling over the word sex. What was I? Twelve? No, but I was a seventeen year old girl who had just lost her virginity to her twenty four year old mentor. Shit.
Dimitri was still staring at me, unaware of my inner dialogue.
"Of course we can," he gave me a seductive grin, trailed his hand down my back to the bottom of my ass, and outlined the curve of it lightly with his finger.
We were making eye contact and it became too much for me. I felt like I was going to explode! I moved away from him, still breathing heavily.
"Someone could see," I told him regretfully. He just looked at me with lust in his eyes.
Dimitri walked towards me, not stopping until the tips of his shoes lined up with my frozen toes.
He leaned down so that his lips were practically attached to my ear and whispered, "Tonight I'll dream about you. I'll dream about the way you smell and how your dark hair feels like silk between my fingers. I'll dream about the smoothness of your skin and the fierceness of your lips when we kiss."
The only thing I could come up with to say, while those heated words were still swirling around in my ear was, "You better, comrade."
Pleeease R&R! Tell me if you like it so far or if you have any suggestions to add to the plot. In the next chapter, Rose and some other guardians will head back up to the caves to recover some bodies. Will they find Christian?
