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After our respective practices, Karma met me at my car. She was texting and giggling at her phone when I walked up, she didn't even notice me until I unlocked the doors. She must've been texting Liam because she was making the "Liam Booker" face. Her eyes were big, she smiling awkwardly, and blushing. It was so annoying. I wish I had someone to make that face at and I wish that someone was Karma. Tamsin and I had hooked up once and we were just friends but Karma kept bugging me about it, so I told her we were dating. The whole cheating thing wasn't my style plus it wouldn't matter because I was Karma's but Karma had Liam and she wanted me to have someone too. It made it okay to Karma if we were both hurting someone else.
Once Karma and I hopped in the car, she put her phone down and spoke, " Are you coming in or going home?" I was fully annoyed with Karma after seeing her texting him. Why did it matter what I did? She has a date with her boyfriend.
"What do you want me to do Karma? I have an hour and a half before I need to be back in my uniform."
"I'd like it if you came in but if you wanna go home go. You seem upset. It must be the game, stressing you out. You are still coming over afterward, right? Please say yes!" Of course I was going to say yes but I didn't miss the fact that she not only caught my attitude but that she just excused it. God forbid it be Karma's fault.
"I'm going to go home then and sure, I'll come over after your date. Just call me." I spit out the word date
"Perfect!" And with that she hopped out, ignoring my tone. Karma is just so selfish sometimes. Once I got home, took a shower, and changed. I decided that I was not going to have sex with Karma or even fool around with her again. Well at least without a conversation first.
Once the game was over, the team wanted to go out for pizza and drinks. Karma could wait. I went out with my teammates and friends. I left after an hour and a half and headed towards Karma's house. She had been texting me from the moment my friends and I left the school, I guess she'd heard that we won and figured I'd be on my way but I didn't reply. I'd see Karma when I saw her.
When I got to Karma's house, I called first as not to wake anyone up. It was 12:30. As I walked into her house, Karma dragged me by my hand. Once I got to her room, she must've sensed my mood when I didn't jump her bones because she said, "I never even asked you if you wanted to have sex. I just assumed because I wanted to that you would to." It wasn't just the sex. It was everything about our relationship.
"Yea sure Karma. I want to. I'd just prefer that it mean something to you rather than the meaningless blowjobs you give every other day." I was tipsy and upset. Word vomit just kept spilling out of my mouth.
"Amy you really think they are meaningless? You make it seem like I'm fooling around with everybody. It's only you. You know that I care about you."
"Karma, why aren't we dating? Why are you dating Liam Booker? Better yet, why are you hooking up with me and going on dates with him?"
"Amy, don't put this all on me. You have somebody too, Taylor." Even in an argument, she continued to fuck up Tamsin's name. She was acting like a jealous ex. It was comments like this that really fueled the "Why won't you date me?"questions. Karma did everything that a girlfriend would but actually be my girlfriend.
I needed to tell her the truth, so she could stop making excuses. "Tamsin and I are just friends. You just kept pressuring me to get somebody so that you wouldn't feel bad about having Liam. I don't want anyone else I want you and you must want him. Then be with him and only him. Give me time to move on and be free. I am not having sex with you if you are not mine." I turned around to leave because I knew she was never going to answer why she wouldn't be mine. We know almost everything about each other, we were together almost 24/7 and half of the time that we are together we are hooking up. There is no answer other than the fact that I was a girl and even that wasn't a good reason. Karma called after me but didn't chase me.
I left and started to drive home before I decided that maybe I should give Tamsin a shot. I just didn't want to be alone. Tamsin is a smoking hot blonde, with brown eyes. We are about the same height, I'm a bit taller, so I'd say she was 5'7. She has a sexy edgy vibe, drives a motorcycle and she is on the football team. She is pansexual, which is perfect for me and she works out religiously. She is an amazing in all ways. We met in the library, she was reading for fun. Did I mention that we watch most of the same television shows and we like the same artists and authors? I hadn't even given Tamsin a chance because of Karma.
I called her and she answered.
"Hey cutie." "Hey want to hang out?" " Yea my place or yours?" " Mine. Bring clothes to spend the night." She giggled and said okay. I headed home and parked. I straightened up my room and grabbed some snacks just in case she wanted some. I was setting the popcorn down on my nightstand when my phone buzzed. She was here.
When I checked my messages, I saw that Karma was blowing up my phone. I'd put her on do not disrupt as soon as I backed out of her driveway.
I went to get Tamsin and quietly snuck her to my room. Once in my room, she sat down on my bed. "Hey cutie", she said once relaxing on my bed.
"Hey Tamsin. You are in charge of the remote. Choose whatever you would like." What I liked about Tamsin was that awkwardness never seemed to faze her. She didn't even seem worried. Last time she came over after one of my calls, I all but attacked her. While she didn't seem to mind at the time, I still felt bad how I treated her. Karma had asked me to help her pick out lingerie for her date with Liam. It was torture. If she was going to be having sex, then I would be too. That was bad logic at the time and Tamsin was too nice of a girl for me to have done that. I apologized to her later, of course not disclosing the full truth. I told her that I was still hung up on an ex but that I still wanted to be her friend. She seemed okay with that which I liked. She was chill just like me.
Tamsin turned on South of Nowhere and we watched it for the rest of the night. My arm was wrapped around her and her head was resting on my chest.
She just wanted to watch television, talk, and cuddle. The more I talked to her the more I wanted to know about her. I was glad she didn't want more tonight, I wasn't in any state to hook up. I did lean in and kiss her at about 4 am. We were making out when my phone almost buzzed off of my nightstand. I caught and checked it. 27 texts, 5 calls and 3 voicemails, all from Karma. I'd just missed another call. I didn't even bother to read the texts. I just went back to kissing Tamsin. I turned my phone off and placed it in my drawer. Today was the last straw for Karma and me. I'd been her puppet for too long. I had options just like her. I'd been letting her run my life since we'd met. It'd been so easy follow her around like a lost puppy, maybe it was time for me to start making decisions for Amy.
A/N: Sorry the chapter was so short. The next one will be longer.
