A love like no other

Chapter 2

Tobias' Choosing ceremony.

Beatrice P.O.V

The moments that lead us to Tobias' choosing day had felt anything other than real to me. As if any minute I will wake up, this will all be a dream. Tobias and I will be younger in age and still being us. But I know such dreams can never come true. We can only move forward and not backwards.

The moment Tobias' blood spilled on the sizzling coals, it felt like a wake up call. It felt more like a slap in my face. I knew Tobias was leaving to Dauntless. We keep no secrets. We planned this, he will leave for Dauntless and prepare for my arrival in two years.

"Just two years of lost, for a life time of happiness." Are the words that I repeated not only to myself but to Tobias as well. It was the right words to say, and to continue to believe. I know there was no other real way. Tobias and I sat down and spoke our options out.


Flash back

It's nearing one o'clock in the morning and although we should be tired, asleep in our beds. We prefer to be selfish. To steal the little time we have to sleep and be together. Every other night we meet at midnight under the big oak tree on the outskirts of Abnegation sector.

We risk the chance at being caught, but agreed that we are worth the risk. Our routines started out as friendship when we were children. All we desired was to talk and enjoy each other's company. But that slowly changed. Secrets were revealed, feelings soon were discovered. Now we meet for the sake of being together. To enjoy each other's company, to touch each other, to love each other.

Tonight Tobias explained the conversation that inspired between him and Marcus. From what I gathered it was a conversation that he was not pleased with.

"Bea, he wants me to be a leader. Take over his place in the government. He wants to choose a wife for me. Once initiation is over with, he wants me married off. He wants to control my life, even once I am of age and out of his house. I'll never be free of him." Tobias tells me.

"I think the best option for us is to leave Abnegation." I tell him. I can't look at him in the eye while speaking these words. The possibility of loosing Tobias pains me. But I know it's better this way. The subject on Tobias' transfer had started to come up more often as time has been approaching his choosing day. Tobias is eighteen and set to choose his faction in six months from now.

"I can't loose you, Bea. I won't leave you." He says. Unlike me, he isn't a coward. He watches my face, waiting for me to look at him. When I don't look at him or speak he lifts my chin with a finger. So I have to look at him.

"Tobias, you can't stay." I say almost a whisper. A tear escapes my right eye, and he catches it with his thumb.

"I know. What if we both leave, right now. Tonight. We can be factionless. I rather be factionless with you, than not be with you." He says desperation in his eyes. I know he truly means that. He would do anything for me. He has proven that so many times.

"Tobias, we can't. You say this now, but what happens down the road. What if we have children? We wont have means to feed them, cloth them. We wont have a home." I point out.

"You are my home, Bea." He vows, leaning in placing a tender kiss on my lips.

"Yes. But being factionless, its a hard life to live. I won't allow that kind of life for you. You deserve better." I say taking a deep breath. "What if we agree to transfer?" I offer.

"What like, you follow me. Would you be willing to do that?" He asks.

"Of course, I would. I love you, Tobias. I want you and only you." I say, this time I'm the one leaning in stealing a kiss.

"Where would we go?" He ask.

"Well let's see... Mmmm Not Erudite." I say.

"No. Not Erudite. Although can you imagine how made Marcus would be." He chuckles and I join in at the thought of that vain popping out of Marcus' head.

"Candor?" I ask. Although not very kin on the idea.

"I don't think that's the best option for us." He spits out.

"Amity?" I ask.

"Are you trying to be funny?" He ask. "You know I'm not kind, wont make it the first week."

"Dauntless?" I ask raising one eye brow. I want nothing more for him to agree to that sector. The Dauntless has always fascinated me. Before I discovered my true feelings for Tobias, I always pictured myself transferring to Dauntless one day.

"Mmm. Isn't that dangerous?" He asked. Ok, he didn't say no.

"Their brave, can fight and defend themselves. They live their lives more freely than most sectors. We can have the life we want. I did hear though their initiation is rough though." I tell him.

"Well, we can always speak with some of the Dauntless kids at school, see what they know about initiation, or even information on their living conditions. Over all its the best option for us." He says taking Dauntless under consideration. "But two years... I won't see you, talk to you, have you next to me. I don't know if I can do it. What if something goes wrong?" He says letting his concerns go.

"Just two years of lost, for a life time of happiness." I tell him. Its the truth, two years of loneliness, of misery will be hard. But than we can have the rest of our lives to make up for the time we loss. It would be worth it. Other wise he would stay here and his father will see that Tobias and I will never be. At least like this, we have a chance.

End of flash back.


Even though this was premeditated. It still hurts. A part of me wishes that he would change his mind and stay at the last minute. But I know this is for the better. We wouldn't have any kind of life in the same faction as Marcus. He will never be free of his father's abuse. He needs to be far away and safe. Just knowing that he is far away from Marcus Eaton, makes this torturous time worth it.

I try to deny my body any movement it wants to make. It screams to have my head turn towards Dauntless and look for Tobias. Knowing any minute the ceremony will be over, and those in black are always the first one to run out the door. Once that happens, the clock will start for two years time until we are together again. On the outside I battle to show no true emotions, other than the small gasp that Abnegation members make when they hear Max announce Tobias choice is Dauntless. I'm not suppose to know, sure that Marcus Eaton's son would be amounts those that stay with in our sector. My eyes quickly glances at Marcus. But its no use all I see is his head, his ears turning red, and his hand that was resting on the arm rest is turning into a fist. Oh how I wish I can see the look on his face. Realizing that he can no longer lay one finger on his son. That his days of torturing another life, his own flesh and blood, is finally over.

On the inside, I'm crying, screaming, and wanting nothing more than to reflect some kind of punishment on Marcus Eaton. He, who because of his anger and selfish ways... Tobias and I both have to suffer the next two years, being apart of the one person I love most in this world.

For almost ten years I have not gone one day without seeing Tobias one way or another. After today we will have to endure two years of silence. Two years with out one word, one glance, or one touch. Yes on the inside, I am dieing. But knowing that, "Just two years of lost, for a life time of happiness."

I see the movement of black from the corner of my eyes, suddenly I know it's time. I allow myself one last glance as I see them shuffling out the door. It's not hard to spot Tobias, for he is the only one wearing gray in the sea of black. The moment our eyes meet I can tell the sadness and pain that he now carried. As he mouths his final words to me "I love you." I nod in response having no other fight in me. I know if I move slightly I will loose all my battle that continues with in me. That would not be wise.

As of now no one suspects us, no one knows. I am simply watching the faction that have always caught my eye. It's than I feel the change of temperature in my hand that sits on my lap. When I look at the cause, I notice it's my mother's hand that covers my own. She is trying to comfort me. She knows.

Abnegation members are left and we waste no time. We stand and start cleaning the room, collecting the trash, wiping the seats, brooming, moping, and cleaning the knives that were used. The battle to stay calm and collect continues with in me. I know I won't be able to let go and break for few more hours from now. Until I am safe behind the closed door of my room.

"Beatrice, are you alright?" Mother asks me. I think she suspects.

"Yes, Mother. Thank you. It has been a long day." I say hoping that she accepts that answer.

"Poor Marcus. First he suffered loosing his wife ten years ago and now this. Having his only child defeat to another faction. This must be so terribly hard for him." Mother says glancing over at Mr. Eaton.

If only Tobias would have allowed me to tell Mother the truth on Mr. Eaton's true behavior. Maybe Mother would have helped. Maybe Tobias wouldn't have had to suffer for so long. But he swore me to secrecy. All I could do to help was to help clean and bandage his wounds. Little does my mother know, that "Poor man," only suffered loosing what Tobias called himself "a punching bag." But for now I will take the pleasure of him unable to continue ruining Tobias' life. For now I will take the pleasure knowing my love is safe in Dauntless.