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John's P.O.V
I had a daughter, with Kelly. I couldn't believe it.
When my lawyer had told me that he heard that Kelly was pregnant when she left town. I thought he was kidding about it. I never imagined that Kelly would keep my own dauhgter from me. I know that I hurt her pretty bad.
When I walked out of Randy and Sam's house to see Kelly for the first time in four years, and seen my daughter for the first time, my heart stopped. She looked exactly me, but according to Sam, she had Kelly's personality. But I wondered how much of Kelly's personality had changed over those four long years.
I watched as Randy held my daughter in his arms and walked away. I never thought about having kids, but I always said that I do by any chance, I wanted to have a little girl. I don't know why though, Maybe it was because growing up with four other brothers. At least I got something right.
I waited until Isabell was in the house with Randy before I turned around to look at Kelly. The mother of my child. She was in the front of her car sitting on the hood. As I walked closer to her, I seen that she must have a hoodie or something on the hood so her pants don't get dirty. So I just sat in front of her on the bench and watched her a minute. She looked hurt. I don't blame her. She probably counted on never seeing me again.
I was so ad
How could she keep my own daughter form me.
I can't really blame her though. Things between us ended pretty bad. My mind went back to that day four years ago.
The day my life changed.
The day that I ruined the best thing that had ever happened to me.
*~Flashback~*
The walk from my car in the garage to Kelly's condo seemed to take forever this time. Normally it would only take a minute or two. But not today. I knew that this would be the last time, so I took my time. I wanted remember all the times me and her had. Kelly and I have been secretly seeing each other for the past few months, but we have been friends for way longer than that. She was Randy's little sister.
I didn't start seeing Kelly on more of relationship basis until I found my ex-fiance Liz cheating on me, and thats how I got with Kelly. She had stayed with me that night when I called her. She was there for me when no one else was.
But after tonight I knew that I would lose her, and just my relationship with her. But I would lose her as a friend. I used the key that she gave me a month ago to get into her apartment. I had already taken it off my key ring. When I walked in I sat it on the table by the light switch. I looked her front door, like she always asks to.
"Kelllz babe. Where are you?" I asked softly into her apartment.
"Im in the restroom. I'll be out in a minute." she yelled.
"No, it's okay. Im in no hurry. Take your time." I yelled back.
I walked around her apartment for the last time. Her tv was off like its usual. She hardly watched tv. She was more of a music person. The radio in her room was playin softly. Or maybe it was a cd. I wasn't sure. I knew it that was a woman singing. It sounded like either Rihanna or Mariah Carey. I looked at all the framed photos that were in the front room. Most of them were of her and Randy and Nate. Some had her parents in them. Some of where her and her friends. There was just one of me and her. It was taken two years ago. I had needed a date to this ball thing that Vince was holding anf I had asked Kelly to come. She had wore a beautiful red silk dress that was full length. She looked real good in it. I remember that all the guys kept looking at her and wishing that they were me.
"Hey babe, what's up?" she asked pulling me back into realty.
I turned to where I heard her voice and I felt all the air in my lungs rush out. Kelly was the type girl that would look great in everything she wore. No matter what.
Today she was wearing a pair of white shorts that went to her mid-thigh, showing off her amazing legs. She had her favorite soft pink tank top on. Her long blande wavy hair, which was normally wore down, was pulled back into a messy ponytail.
"Kelly we need to talk." I said before she could say anything.
I didn't want her getting the wrong idea as to why I was here.
"About what?" she walking over to me She went to give me a hug and I took a step back. "John what's wrong?" she asked me with a scared look on her face.
"I can't be with you anymore." I told her. I couldn't even look her in the eyes.
"What do you mean you can't be with me anymore? Did I do something wrong?" she asked looking up at me. I could tell by the tome on her voice that she about to cry.
"Me and Liz are getting abck together. The wedding is still on." I told her.
"What?" she practicually yelled at me.
"You heard me Kellz." I said to her.
I didn't want to do this to hear but I had no choice. I needed to do this for her sake.
"How could you do that?" she said to me. "She cheated on you John. Do you not remember that. You caught her." she said to me. I knew she was getting mad by the tone in her voice.
Gone were the tears. Replaced by anger.
"I know she cheated Kellz, but that was in the past. We talked and she apologized." I told her.
"Oh she's sorry. I bet that slut is." she shot back at me. Which shocked me. I never heard Kelly talk like that. This was a side to her that I had never seen before.
"Don't call her that Kelly." I said defending Liz. I knew that Kelly never liked Liz and vice versa, but that doesn't give Kelly the right to talk about Liz like that.
"I can call that slut whatever the hell I please. This is my place, and if I feel like calling her that then I can. And she IS a slut John. She cheated on you, and you caughter her. Then you forgive her just because she said that she was sorry. Please John why don't you grow up. The only that ungrateful tramp is sorry about is getting caught." she yelled at me.
Man was this side to her hot. To bad I have to end things with her.
"If anyone's the slut Kelly, it's you." I shot back at her.
I felt like I was dying inside. I didn't want to say these things, but I had no choice, I needed her to hate me so bad that she would town. I didn't want her to leave town, but I needed her to. So she would stay safe.
"How am I slut John?" she yelled back. "What did I ever do to you to make me deserve this?" she asked.
"Who are you trying to kidd Kellz. We all know that you are. You couldn't wait for Liz to be out the picture before you started seducing me, could you." I shot at her. "Admit it Kelly, you have been jealous of mine and Liz's relationship." I said to her.
I must have blinked or looked somewhere else because I didn't see what was coming next. She punched me really hard in the eye. I knew that I would probably have a black eye come mourning time.
"Why are you doing this to me John? I thougth that you loved me." she said to me.
"Are you kidding me Kelly? Did you honestly think I would fall in love with you. Come on Kellz, he honest with yourself. You aren't my type of woman. I only got with you to make Liz jealous and to make her feel what I felt when I caught her cheating on me. And well as you can now tell, it worked." I said with a smirk on my face. I had to look like I was being hoenst or Kelly woulnd't think it was real. She may be a blonde bu she was var from being stupid.
I coult tell by the look on her face that she believed me. Part of me was glad anout it, but the other half wans't so glad. But it had to be done. This was the only way I could get to hate me so bad that she would leave town. I couldn't stand to see her get hurt psyically. I hated seeing her like this. I knew that what I was doing was tearing her up inside. I knew that she loved me and to be honest I loved her to. I loved her so much that I was willing to let go out of my life hating me than to see Phil and his meet come near her.
I knew what they were capable of. That's why I made this choice. I knew he had a thing for Kelly and when he found out that me and her were seeing each other he blew up. He told me that if I didn't end things with her, I would regret it. I knew what he meant.
"John, why are you doing this me?" she said to me. She was crying so hard that I could barely understand what she was saying.
"I don't you love Kelly. I used you." I shot at her. I walked up to her beautiful face and saw the hurt in her eyes. "I want you gone. I want you out of my life forever. I want you gone fom this town. I never want to see you again. I yelled at her.
I didn't wait for a response or anything. I just left. I got to my car and drove back home.
Through out the enitre ride home, I kept looking at my cell phone. Hoping that she would call or text me or something. I went through my contacts and stopped at her number. I kept wanting to call her and tell her the truth. I wanted to tell her that I didn't mean any of it, but I couldn't. I had to protect her from them. And this was the only way I knew how.
*~Flashback~*
I looked back at Kelly and knew she was thinking about the same thing. I knew that I had hurt real bad. I wouldn't blame her if she never forgave me. I know that Randy never let me forget. I remember the day when Kelly had called Sam and told her that she was moving out but not just of the city but of the state. Randy had been so mad. He beat the shit out of me. I was in the hospital for a week and a half. I didn't blame Randy though. He apologized afterwards, but I told him not worry about it. It was all part of the plan.
I had gotten updates about her for the first few months after she left, but I was never told that she was pregnant with my child. Hearing that made me feel a tad but better for doing what I did. If Phil had gotten to Kelly like he said he would and had hurt her or the baby, I would have never forgiven myself.
I couldn't help but wonder what my life would have been like had I choosen Kelly of Liz. I would have known my daughter better.
Man I really did screw this up. And I didn't have any one to blame but myself.
