Chapter 2 - Should I give up?

Matt didn't want to go out tonight. He wanted to spend his night alone, thinking about those amazing few seconds he had spent holding Alex Kingston in his arms. He wanted to cherish that moment forever and never let it go because he knew it would never happen again.

But everyone wanted to go out for a drink for Alex's arrival back to London and he couldn't really pass up an opportunity to spend time with her. She was perfect in every single way. Her body was a perfect size; he just wanted to drape his arms around her luscious curves. Her stunning face, every feature was positioned just perfectly. Her hair, it was the most eye catching thing he had ever seen, the curls fell around her face, oozing with elegance.

"Matt! Matt, honey! Where are you?" His thoughts were interrupted by the unexpected shout.

It was Daisy Lowe, Matt's girlfriend, Matt's model girlfriend. She was beautiful and that's why she was a model, he always thought. But no matter how beautiful she was, Alex would always beat her. For example, Daisy's long black hair could never even be a contender with Alex's flawless curls.

"Yeah, sweetheart. I'm in here!" Matt called back from the spare room where he was lying stretched out across the tiny red sofa. As Daisy walked into the room, she was all dressed up in a sophisticated blue dress with her bright blue high heels on. She looked nice. Nice. He can't believe he just thought that. He thought his model girlfriend Daisy Lowe looked nice for a night out. Most men would love to be in his position but he didn't. He only wanted to fill one position - the man worthy of Alex Kingston.

"I'm going out tonight, Matt, with some of the girls from today's shoot. We won't be out too long and I'll be back around midnight." Daisy said while walking towards him and giving him a quick peck on the cheek.

"I'm going out tonight as well darling. You know Alex is back from America and we're all going out to celebrate her return to the big smoke!"

"Alex Kingston?"

"Yep, I'll be back before you. We're only going for a couple with Karen and Arthur." Even as Matt said this, he wished that Karen and Arthur wouldn't be able to make it and it would just be him and her.

"Okay babe. See you later!" Daisy walked out of the room and Matt heard her heels clomp along the wood-floored hallway and then the front door slam as she left. He took in a deep breath as he thought about such a horrible person he was. Him, Matt Smith is leading Daisy Lowe on. Just because he wasn't in love with her anymore doesn't mean she doesn't deserve someone who will treat her right.

As Matt walked to his bedroom he shared with Daisy, he realised he didn't love her. He didn't love Daisy Lowe anymore and he didn't think he could feel any worse. It still hurt. It hurt because he didn't love Daisy, he loved Alex. He loved Alex Kingston. He pulled off his t-shirt and replaced it with a nicer one, he knew Alex liked this one because she complimented it once when he wore it on the set a few months back - that's the only reason he hadn't trashed it when Daisy asked.

Matt turned the key in the door to get out and his eyes were drawn to a photo of him and Daisy in the park last summer. He got a pain in the pit of his stomach. After Matt took the key out of the door, he walked over to the fireplace where the photo was standing and silently turned it over, face down, before leaving the house for the bar.

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Alex never even wanted to go out for a 'welcome home drink' with Karen and Arthur. Matt, well he was a different matter. Of course she would love to see his tall, dark and slim body as she walked into the bar but she knew Matt, she knew he wouldn't want to go out for a drink. Even more so if she was going to be there.

Still she decided to try and put on a brave face - mainly for Salome. She loved her daughter more than anyone in the world, but Matt had to be second. Muffins. The only thing Alex could make that was edible. Salome loved Alex's muffins, the ones that she makes herself. So that's what she decided to do. As she sang and danced hurriedly around the kitchen trying to get these muffins in the oven before Salome got home from school, she remembered what thought had went through her head just a few minutes before. That she loves Matt. She loves Matt Smith.

She stopped dancing for a second and fell backwards, resting on the kitchen workbench. Her breathing was heavy and she finally realised that she is in love with him. She started to laugh and sort of giggle as she declared to herself "I love Matt Smith!".

Alex took the muffins out of the oven just as Salome walked through the door and said "Mum, I'm home!" while running into the kitchen to give Alex a huge hug. They had a conversation like they do nearly every night after school about Salome's day and what she'd been up to. The pair of them sat in their sitting room with a freshly baked muffin, Alex with a cup of tea and Salome with a glass of orange juice.

"Sweet heart, I'm going out tonight with Karen, Arthur and Matt. Is that alright? I'll get Julie to come over and sit with you for a while." Alex held Salome's hand.

"Okay Mum, I was wondering why you made muffins for me!" Alex threw her head back and laughed out loud and Salome joined her with her cute, childish giggle and they laughed till they were red in the face.

Alex climbed the stairs of her new London home and when in her bedroom, she lay down on her bed, she shared it with no-one although sometimes wished she didn't. She smiled thinking of what would happen that night with her, Karen, Arthur and Matt.

"Matt." she whispered his name and grinned from ear to ear.

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Matt gave Arthur a lift to the pub and, as they walked in and looked around, they realised they were there first. They went over to a corner in the far side of the room and Arthur sat across from Matt. The first thought that began racing through his mind was that when the girls came there would be a chance that Alex would be sitting next to him. This was good.

This was more than good, it was amazing.

He kept up casual chat with Arthur for around 10 minutes until the girls arrived and boy did they arrive. Karen shimmied in wearing a pair of black shorts and a cute white top with a pair of what she makes her call 'pumps' (although he never understood that term!). She looked lovely and actually beautiful but then again, she always did.

Behind her was Alex. She looked completely stunning in a red, smooth slinky dress. It was quite low cut too. The dress stopped just above the knee and as she was walking towards him it kept floating up with the breeze and revealing just that bit of leg, leaving Matt wanting a hell of a lot more. The shoes she was wearing were a pair of killer heels with a red sole and a shiny black colour which kept hitting the light.

As they walked over Matt began to again wonder which seat Alex would take and, as if Karen had knew what he wanted, she sat down next to Arthur. She tilted her head to the side and giving him a sly wink. Matt couldn't help but giggle then realised that Alex was sliding in next to him. He silently wished she was sliding in next to him somewhere else. As she slid across the wooden seat, she crashed into his side and the pair of them burst into laughter. That second they touched was just amazing and he never thought a woman would make him feel so amazing like she does.

"Alright boys?" Alex said while hitting Matt's arm and making completely forget what he was thinking about her.

"They are now that us girlies are here!" Karen joined in with the joke.

"We couldn't have waited another second without you two, could we Matt?" Arthur nudged his leg under the table trying his best not to laugh.

"Of course not! How are we supposed to live without you beautiful women!" As Matt said this so sarcastically he thought about how true it was. Well, at least for the woman sitting next to him that second.

As the night continued, Alex kept touching his arm, innocently of course although he wanted so much more than a touch on his arm. God, he wanted so much more than a touch on his arm. He wanted a touch everywhere on this body - every inch. They'd had an arm wrestle which was really just an excuse for him to hold her soft and gentle hand in his. All four of them had had drinking competitions to see who could down shots fastest and of course he had won - with Alex at a close second.

At one point Matt was taking another sneaky look at Alex when she turned her head and their eyes met for a few seconds. It felt like much longer than a few seconds. It was like an eternity, one that he would happily spend with her. All he could think of at that moment was her, he forgot Daisy, Karen and Arthur and that he was in a public place and he moved his hand over towards hers but realised at the last second after she turned her head away and just managed to stop himself. Just a moment more and he would have gave himself away, the fact he loved Alex Kingston.

The night was beginning to come to an end because it was around 11pm and he remembered Daisy said she would be home around 12am and he said he would be home before her. Arthur and Karen decided to carpool home together leaving just him and Alex to finish their drinks together which unfortunately wasn't much.

"How you getting home then Kingston?" The second Matt asked that question he wished hadn't. It made him sound like he was dying to get out of there and leave her when he didn't, he wanted nothing less.

"Well I was going to get a lift off you but neither of us are up for driving now are we!" She giggled before continuing "So I suppose we'll have to share a cab then Smithy. Lucky you!" As she said the last two words she winked at Matt before bursting into a fit of laughter along with him.

After he had composed himself from her seductive wink, he replied "You're the lucky girl Kingston. Sharing a cab with the one and only Matt Smith, or the Doctor as I prefer to be called." Then it was Matt's turn to wink at her.

Still smiling she said she was going to the toilet and asked for him to phone for a cab. As she walked away her dress floated up, again revealing that little bit of leg, sending shivers down his spine. He pulled his phone out of his pocket to phone for a cab and saw that he had a text from Daisy "B home l8tr thn planned dont wait up xxx". As Matt sighed he thought about how much he hated her texting like that (why can't the woman just speak real English!) and dialled the cab company.

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Karen was giving her a lift down to the pub. She always says that she has to drive practically past her house to get there when she doesn't. If driving practically by her house is almost 15 minutes from the road then fine, she wouldn't argue. In the car they both joked about how they like to turn up 'fashionably late' for any night out with Arthur and Matt.

When they arrived at the pub Matt immediately stood out in the far corner of the room. He was sitting across from Arthur and she thought of how, depending on where Karen sat, she might get the chance to sit next to Matt for a whole night. She started to walk towards the boys table with Karen leading the way, wondering why she let Karen go first, now she has first pick of the seats.

It's fine though as Karen sat next to Arthur - across from where she will be sitting. Oh god, she's sitting next to Matt. That is both so beautiful and scary at the same time. Matt and Karen laugh at each other as she slides across the wooden seat and purposely bumps into Matt, just to feel his body on hers, even for just a second. Her heart feels as though it flutters for just a second as her bare arm brushes against his.

Karen cracks a joke about the boys needing the pair of them and she laughs. Alex has always thought that Karen's laugh is one of the best things in the word - apart from Matt. They joke about the boys needing them and she wishes Matt needed her. It sounds funny but that all she's ever wanted, someone to need her. But, if she's going to be truthful she doesn't need someone she needs him, Matt Smith.

When Matt asked her for an arm wrestle later on in the night she couldn't say no. Really, which girl would turn down an excuse to touch Matt Smith. She knew Daisy Lowe got to touch him all the time.

No, she had to get that out of her mind. Every single time she thought of Daisy Lowe, Matt's girlfriend, she felt so guilty for loving him. The only thing that made her feel better after that was that Daisy wasn't a very nice woman, yes she was beautiful but not very polite and such.

Alex was flirting with Matt, or as some people might call it, 'touching his arm' throughout the night. It was the only way she could manage to stop herself from just touching him in places that should not be touched in public. Just thinking of that made her a little flushed and panicking a little she looked around to see if Karen or the boys had noticed. In that moment Matt looked up and his eyes looked straight into hers and she became even more flushed than before although couldn't seem to take her eyes away from his. For that moment she didn't even breathe she just stared straight into his eyes and knew he was the only man on the Earth for her.

He thought she hadn't noticed his hand move towards hers resting on the wooden bench between them but she had. It was only innocent of course and that was one of the things that killed her that they were so close and yet she was unable to just tell him everything.

At about 11pm Karen and Arthur said they were going to share a cab because of their houses being at the same side of London so they left together when their cab came, giving them all a kiss as they left. She and Matt were left on their own in the dark corner of the bustling bar to finish their drinks although she didn't have much left which meant not much of a conversation alone with him which suddenly put a downer on her mood.

They just had a casual chat about filming in the next couple of weeks and about general things but to her it was so much more than a chat, it was time alone with him. He asked how she was getting home and she replied jokingly saying she was going to blag one from him before coming to the conclusion they would share a cab.

After making a joke about how lucky he was to be sharing a cab with her she gave him a sly wink. To her it was not a friendly one it was a way that she could pretend he was hers without him or anyone else knowing. Then, much to her disappointment her bladder had filled it's self which meant precious time away from Matt which she could never afford to waste. As she announced that she was going to the toilet Matt said he would call a cab for the pair of them to go to her house first and he'd get out last. Matt added a cheeky wink directed at her as she turned around to go to the toilets at the other side of the bar, giggling as she went. As she walked away she couldn't help but wish the cab was only going to one address.


Well hello there, here is the long awaited chapter 2, 'Should I give up?'. This chapter is a lot longer than the first one which will hopefully satisfy your needs before the next chapter which will be up in the next week. Thank you for all the positive reviews which I love reading! Also Catherine beta'd this chapter again so a round of apluase for her too! *claps*. Thank you :-)