A.N/ I know I know I majorly suck. I know I've said this before but I swear to God this time, I'm never ever ever going to keep you guys waiting more than 2 weeks ever again and that's the absolute max I promise and if I don't you have permission to yell at me via computer I'm sooooo sorry! If anyone reads this I thank you in advanced for sticking with me. So I do have a reason for not updating but I won't bore you with it. Read and enjoy.
Edward and I were on our way to the police station when I realized that I had no right to go in there. I had no idea who to talk to. I had no right to even be there. What was I doing? "Edward, we need to turn around," I said quietly.
"Why?" he asked looking over at me from the corner of his eye.
"They are already well informed of the situation."
"But they aren't doing anything about it. What's gotten into you Bella? Five minutes ago you were all over this idea," Edward seemed genuinely confused.
"It's just; we don't know who to talk to. My father doesn't work there anymore and I haven't been there since his death, and we don't even know who to talk to about this," I tried to convince him and I succeeded.
"Alright love, if you don't want to go we won't. Rose is a big girl and can stick up for herself," Edward said slightly dishearten.
"I can't believe she is having a baby, she's only eight-teen," I said looking out the window.
"Bella did you ever... I mean before we left we... um never mind," Edward stuttered.
"What Edward? I know you are not just going to forget about it so just spit it out," I rolled my eyes. Edward was always worried about what he said to me, he thought I would get mad at him for speaking his mind and I didn't understand why.
He took a deep breath, "Before we left for the internship we... well you know, but you never told me. Did you get your period?" he said that last word as though it was some type of disease.
"Shit!" my eyes got wide. How had I forgotten that? "Pull over at a connivance store," I instructed.
"I'll take that as a no," he said.
"No shit Sherlock."
The rest of the car ride was spent in silence. When we got home I took the bag we had gotten from the store into the house and went straight to the bathroom. Edward was hot on my heel. After I had taken the tests, yes we bought more than one so we would be sure, I walked into our room to find Edward sitting on the bed.
"Bella, please don't be mad at me. I love you so much, you know that. I'll do anything you want, just don't hate me for ruining your life and getting you pregnant, I should have just kept my freaking dick in my pants I'm soo sorry," he pleaded.
I burst out laughing, "First of all, I'm not mad at you, I'm pretty sure we were both part of the process. Second, I'm not even sure I'm pregnant. And lastly, never EVER say that you should keep your dick in your pants because that's just not fair to your girlfriend."
"I love you," he said dumbly.
"I love you too." I then heard the timer I had set in the bathroom go off.
"Moment of truth," Edward mumbled. I grabbed his hand and walked into the bath room.
I picked up the test and there written clear as day were two pink lines. Pregnant.
"I guess we didn't get as lucky the second time bio buddy," I said trying to lighten the mood by using his old high school nick name.
"Guess not." He looked down, then I saw a smile slowly creep to his face, "Bella, we are going to have a baby."
That's when it dawned on me."Oh, my God. Me, I'm pregnant, holy shit. We are having a baby," I was smiling now too. A part of Edward and a part of me joined together and became life, and now it was living and growing inside of me. I know, it should be a bad thing when you are eight-teen to be having a baby, I had just pitied Rose for that very thing, but when it's with someone you love how can you not be happy? I felt tears of happiness threatening to spill over.
"I thought I heard someone in here," Esme said from the door way. "I didn't know you guys where coming back so soon. I'll take it you heard about Rose." I nodded my head, not sure if I could say anything. "Bella, what's with the smile?" she asked, rather confused.
"I'm pregnant," I said just loud enough for her to hear.
She looked shocked, and then looked at Edward, then at me, then she screamed at the top of her lungs, "CARLISLE GET YOUR ASS UP HERE!"
"That doesn't sound good," I said to Edward.
"I must agree with you there love."
"What? What's wrong?" Carlisle asked coming into the room.
"They are having a baby!" Esme screamed. At this point I couldn't tell if she was mad or excited but I really hoped she was excited.
"You sure as hell better be kidding me," Carlisle said.
"No," I said quietly.
"How the hell do you plan on doing this? How the fuck do you plan on raising a child while you are in college? Damn it! Do the two of you ever think? You can't continue to live your lives as if you have no consequences! Everything you fucking do has a consequence and some time soon you are going to have to learn that!" Carlisle screamed. He had never been quite so cruel to us before and it hurt now more than ever to know we didn't have his support.
Esme saw the hurt look on my face and slapped Carlisle's arms lightly. "Do you not know that you have consequences too? You are supposed to be their role model, their father. Not some jack ass who judges them."
"Mom, dad, stop it!" Edward screamed. I had hardly noticed that he was still in the room. "It was not our intention to have a baby but we will deal, we have figured everything else out in our lives, this is just another bad obstacle to over come. It's not helping having the two of you fight, I'm sorry that for the way I am speaking to you but could you please just leave me and Bella alone to talk?"
"I'm sorry Edward," Esme said looking ashamed.
"We will leave you two alone, it's not really like you can make the situation any worse," Carlisle said with a laugh. Clearly he was feeling more like himself. I would have to remember to ask him about the mood swings later.
Edward laughed too, but I could tell it wasn't a real laugh. The door closed behind Esme and Carlisle and we were left alone. Edward flopped down on the bed and pulled at his hair. He let out a loud sigh then patted the bed next to him, showing that he wanted me to lay with him. I sat next to him and he pulled me down so that I was wrapped in his arms.
"I'm so sorry," he said.
"Not this again," I sighed.
"Really I should have been smart enough to use a condom," he sighed again.
"Would you chill your pants? It's not that bad," I tried calming him.
"Not that bad? How can you fucking say that it's not that bad? Of course it is! We are having a baby Bella and we are eight-teen yes that is bad!" he explained.
"No it's not. We are having a baby Edward! Part of you and part of me is making a new life form. Why can't you be happy too?" I asked honestly curious.
"I am. It's just… We could have had better timing you know?"
"Yeah, I know. But the thing is, we didn't and we can't change that now."
"I love you," he said and kissed my forehead.
"I love you too. Now out of curiosity how many more times are we going to have to have this conversation before you stop worrying about it?"
"A few, but then we will switch roles and you'll be the one complaining," he laughed.
"Uhhh," I groaned, "I will be complaining when I'm huge and need help to get out of bed each morning, you're right."
"But you will never be fat," he contradicted.
"Um, I'm pregnant, I don't know how much you know about it, but that means I'm going to get fat."
"No, you will be pregnant not fat. Plus other things get bigger too," he winked.
"You are such a perv Edward Mason!" I yelled.
"How is that pervish? It is a fact," he said matter of factly.
"Yes, but you just are happy because my boobs are going to get bigger. That makes you a pervert!" I yelled jokingly.
"Yeah, yeah, yeah just because I'm a guy and I like boobs I'm a perv news flash that makes the rest of the male race perverts too!" he joked.
"Why do you like boobs so much anyways? I mean they really aren't that great."
"Duh, Bella they are boobs that's why."
"You are such a five year old," I laughed.
"And you have conversations that have no meaning behind them, much like this one."
"I like my none important conversations! Don't dis them!"
"Yes, your majesty, yeesh if you are like this now I can't imagine how bad it will be in 4 months," he laughed.
"Pisht, what ever. We should probably go down stairs and face the music. Carlisle seemed pissed when he left. Probable because someone yelled at him."
"I had to, I needed to talk to you."
"Don't you always?"
"Come on," he said then he stood, pulling me up with him, and we left the room.
Down stairs we found Esme in the kitchen making sandwiches. "I thought you guys might be hungry," she said quietly. It was easy to see she was worried.
I asked Edward if he could leave us alone to talk. He pecked my lips then left without a word. "Esme," I said shyly.
"Yes dear?" she asked timidly.
"I'm sorry. I know I disappointed you. We really really didn't mean to. It all happened so fast. We were just so happy we were back together and then… I don't know. I'm sorry."
"Darling there are a lot of things to be sorry for, that is not one of them. You see, Carlisle and I got married because we were having a baby. It died before it was born though. We stayed together because we love each other. When I look at you and Edward I feel that same love. I understand what you are going through."
"Then, why do you seem so upset?"
"You see. Carlisle and I couldn't have kids after that and I don't want the same thing to happen to you. I know that the chances are very small that it would, but it just scares me to think of it because you would be such great parents and have such beautiful kids. I love you both, but I don't want the fact that you are so young to hurt your chances of having kids later."
"Esme I don't see the relationship to age and having kids later in life?"
"See, I was your age when I was pregnant but my uterus wasn't strong enough to hold the growing baby so I have a miscarriage and it damaged my uterus so badly that I would never be able to have children."
"Esme," I said sadly then went over to her and gave her a hug. "I had no idea that had happened to you. I'm so sorry."
"It's alright; when Edward's parents died we got him. Though the circumstances could have been better we still got a son."
"He thinks of you as his mom you know. Even though most of the time he doesn't show it."
"I know Bella, I know. He was hurt when his parents died, we can't blame him for that. I know that in his heart he loves us, that's all that truly matters to me.
"It's all that needs to matter," I heard Edward's velvet voice from the door way. "I do love you Esme. Probably more than I loved my own mother, it's just hard for me to say it. I really do think of you as my mother, I hope you know that.
The rest of the day was spent as a family, strange as we are, we are a family. Now Edward and I would being forced to start our own family. I was scared but with Carlisle, Esme, Rose, Emmet, Alice, Jasper, and Edward by my side, I knew I would make it through.
A.N/ Okay so if you want to know what took me soo long to update let me know and I will tell you but it is far to complicated to go into in an A.N I'm soooooooo sorry thanks to all of you that stuck with me even though I suck major monkey balls. Luv you all!
