It was all the dare… That one dare made me kiss my butler. The feelings I've felt was something I never imagined that be for him. I never felt that way towards Elizabeth either… How shocking it was to kiss my butler and…enjoy it. Those days were when I realized how I truly felt about him. But…why…?
Ciel decided not to go to his study anymore. There was no place to hide from the embarrassment. Surely the butler would think of him as fool. Even if Ciel told him the reason why he did it, Sebastian would be smarter and ask him why Ciel kissed him for so long. And then Ciel would have nothing to say. That's the question that bugged him. Why? Why did he kiss his butler like that for so long? His feet thudded on the floor as he raced to his room. After running down the long hallway, he finally reached his bedroom and swung the door open and shutting it. He jumped onto his bed and hid his face in the pillow. He gripped the pillow tightly and waited for Sebastian to come into his room, knowing he was about to ask a lot of questions. Finally he heard heavy footsteps outside his room and his grip on the pillow tightened. Someone knocked on the door twice.
"My Lord?"
Ciel froze at the butler's voice. "C-come in…"
The door opened and in came his butler. Sebastian looked over at Ciel and his crimson eyes stared at Ciel who still hid his face in the pillow. He began to feel himself tremble in embarrassment. Why did he feel like this? Why did he feel strange with Sebastian in the same room?
"…Bocchan? What's the matter?"
"Go ahead and ask me!" shouted Ciel as he threw the pillow aside and stared into the butler's blood red eyes. "Ask me why I did it! I don't care anymore."
Sebastian chuckled and smirked. "Is that why you're trembling in fear? You think that this has ruined my impression of you."
"Shut up!"
"If you wish me to ask, then I shall ask you," said Sebastian as he leaned down towards Ciel; his red eyes menacing. "Why did you kiss me for so long?"
D-damn! I should have known he would have asked that rather than why I kissed him. Now I can't say it was the dare…
"W-why do you care?" muttered Ciel as he crossed his arms.
"Because it seems what you did bothered you greatly. If it was a simple game, why did you kiss me for so long? Why didn't you just tell me it was because of a game instead of hiding from me?" Sebastian challenged as he stood up straight. "Perhaps it's because you feel something towards me?"
"I-I…" Ciel lowered his head; hair hiding his eyes. What was he supposed to say? He had nothing at all to defend himself. But his heart began to beat fast as he remembered kissing the butler. He looked up and grabbed his butler by the tie again and pulled him down towards him; kissing him again. "…I do…"
The butler widened his eyes, but his gaze softened slightly as he kissed Ciel back. After countless seconds of kissing, Ciel pulled away and wiped his mouth. Did I just kiss my butler? Did I really kiss him because I wanted to? W-what's the matter with me?
"…I-I want a parfait!" snapped Ciel as he pushed the butler back. "Go prepare one!"
Sebastian stared at his Master for a moment before bowing. "Very good, my Lord."
He left the room immediately and Ciel felt his heart beat slowly. Why did he kiss his butler? It was as if his mind took over rather than him own self and that's how it happened. Ciel laid on his bed and gazed at the ceiling; his hand against his chest where he felt his heartbeat. I do not love him… I do not like him… I hate him… I hate him… I have no feelings for that Demon whatsoever…
Sebastian had given Ciel his parfait but did so without saying a word. None of them said anything to each other for the rest of the night. Ciel was now in his study; looking over the paperwork he had yet to finish. But all he thought about was Sebastian. Doing so, he began to doodle on his work. And he widened his eyes as he realized what he was doodling. It was hearts. Filled with anger and frustration, Ciel shoved the papers off his desk. Why was he frustrated about this? Ciel scowled as he stared at the door in front of him. He heard Pluto howling in a distance of the Phantomhive manor and knew it was time for him to sleep. It was ten 'o' clock probably. And yet he didn't finish his paperwork. The stupid reaper distracted him. And now he kissed his butler. What for? There was a knock at his door and Ciel looked up.
"Come in."
Sebastian opened the door and walked in the room with the candle light. It had been dark in his room and the only thing that lit up the room slightly was the shining stars outside. He stood in front of Ciel's desk and bowed.
"It is time to put you to bed, my Lord."
"I know it is…" mumbled Ciel as he looked up at the butler.
"Is something that matter?" he asked.
"Aren't you bothered about earlier?" asked Ciel, nervously. "How can you ignore what happened?"
"Why would I be?" he asked as he pulled back Ciel's chair to allow him to stand up. "What you did was a mistake. You didn't mean anything. I know my Lord well enough to understand that."
A relieved sigh escaped Ciel's mouth. "Good. I didn't want you taking it the wrong way."
Ciel walked out of the room and behind him was Sebastian. They walked to his bedroom in silence. Even though Sebastian came to realize it was a mistake it was still awkward between them. Finally after walking down the long hallway, they reached Ciel's bedroom. Sebastian opened the door for him and allowed his Master to go first. Ciel obliged and walked into his room; sitting down on the bed. Then—as usual—Sebastian undressed Ciel and replaced it with his night shirt; lastly buttoning it up. He did it at the same pace. Ciel looked down at him and watched his butler with his blue eyes.
"Ever since we made the contract, it's been your duty to even button up my shirts…" mumbled Ciel as Sebastian finished and stood up. His butler took the candlelight off the small table next to Ciel's bed and walked to the door; his back towards Ciel. He opened the door and turned back to Ciel before leaving. Before he left, he bowed.
"Have pleasant dreams, my Lord. Tomorrow we'll be on a fresh new start," mumbled the butler as his red eyes stared into Ciel's. Something caught Ciel's eye as he stared into Sebastian's. What was that glint in his eyes? It looked like he had some sort of emotion. As if…he was saddened by something. It was hard to look away from the Demon's eyes. But Sebastian was the first to look away. He did so by turning away and walking out of the room with the candlelight in his hands and closing the door shut behind. A bit stunned, Ciel sat in his bed staring at the door. Why was his butler like this?
