TOM POV
Half ten in the morning and me and Dougie are sitting on the sofa,I pull him onto my lap and gently kiss him on the lips ,I smile at him as I briefly stop the kiss"How did I get so lucky?"I ask
"When you fell for the perfect guy",he said as he sticks his tongue out at me
"Is that so?"I smirk
"Shut up and kiss me"
I lick across Dougie's bottom lip causing him to moan and my hands find their way underneath his t shirt ,that comes off,it takes literally one minute for us both to be completely naked,I inset a finger inside of Dougie ,he shudders at my touch so another will do the trick.I kiss him gently on the ear and start to suck and bite his neck ,each moan escaping from his lips gets a little louder ,attaching my lips to lips ,our tongues dance together and the kiss deepens"Inside me now Fletcher"
"Eagar are we"I growl
"Fuck you"
"More like the other way round"
I penetrate him and start to slowly thrust but he tugs at my hair to let me know he wants me to speed up so I do a little,I get faster with each thrust,our hips clash hard "Oh god Tom" and he puts his hand round his length matching the speed I am going,we each pant and moan quite loudly ."I never knew you were this feisty"Dougie tells me ,at that my lips crash down on his hard making him scream out my name and then sadly it was over,reluctantly I slowly pull out of him,we kiss passionately and I rest my head on his chest ,pulling the blanket from the back to cover up ourselves,Dougie kisses the top of my head and begins to stroke my hair,its really relaxing.
"I love you so much Tom Fletcher"
"I love you too Dougie Poynter"
Dougie grabs the remote,to turn television on and starts to flick through the channels,until eventually we find a film to watch and lucky for us its ghost busters.A few minutes later some loud footsteps can be heard ,looking up I see that its Harry who sits on the chair and glares at us "CAN'T YOU KEEP THE KISSING AND THE SEX UNDER CONTROL,YOU FUCKING WOKE ME UP YOU BASTARDS,YOUR RELATIONSHIP IS WRONG FOR FUCK YOU DO IS HAVE SEX AND ITS BEEN A DAY",I just stared at Harry,Dougie quickly got ready and ran upstairs to his room in tears and I heard the door slamming"What the fuck is wrong with you?Yesterday you were happy for us ,sorry to burst your bubble but me and Dougie are a couple now and we're not going to stop kissing or any of the other things just because you appear to have had some kind of personality transport,your supposed to be our friend"
"I have only ever been Dougie's friend not yours"
"Clearly your not anymore,keep away from us"
Unbelievable what is his problem we weren't that loud ,I think me and Dougie need a place of our own but its too soon in the relationship.
"Tom I"Harry started and tried to give me a hug but I got dressed myself and went upstairs to comfort my boyfriend,I knock on his door "Go away"he mumbles
"Its Tom"
"I'm not feeling well so I'd like some rest please"
I chose to ignore that comment and walked in anyway,shutting the door ,Dougie is curled up in a ball crying ,"Oh sweetheart don't cry"I say as I sit next to him rubbing his back and after a little struggle he is now crying into my chest"I hate him ,he is supposed to be our friend and he was so rude ,I don't understand why he has suddenly turned against our relationship"
"Does it matter what other people think about us,me and you we're for keeps right ,we can get through anything and he can't stop us being together"
"I know but it would have been great to have his support,he clearly doesn't value our friendship anymore,I want him away from me"
"That's fine"
"Your all I need,your my whole world"
I smile and gently kiss Dougie's tears away ,I grab hold of his hand and kiss it "I'll be right back"I tell him
"Why where are you"
"Its a surprise"I say as I put my hand on the door handle ,I go downstairs and take my laptop from underneath the sofa and switch it on.I do what I need and then go to my room,grab a suitcase ,throw some clothes in,back to Dougie and I find his suitcase "tom what are you doing with my suitcase?"
"Can't tell you",he raised his eyebrow at me especially when he saw what was going in it"Oh ok ,if you didn't want me to twig that either we're moving or a holiday then why did you come into my room and start the packing instantly,you could have asked me to go out or something "
"Ah yes didn't think of that"
"Your silly"
"No I'm not"I pout and he starts laughing at me
"Aw sexy don't be mad at me"he says as he sticks his tongue at me,and then moves in front of me and kisses me making me beam "I just wanted a kiss"I told him making him raise his eyebrows at me
"So love where you taking me you might as well tell me now"
"Paris"
Dougie starts to attack me with kisses all over not that I'm complaining ,it soon turns passionate but when he starts to heat it up I slap his hand away,he tries again "No"I snap,I really want to but there isn't time,he looks really upset and just walks away from me,i try to reach out to him but I just feel thin air and he is gone so I quickly pack his case shut it,grab the passports .I already have the print off off everything else.I ring for a taxi ,its due to arrive in half a hour,flight is at six .I close Dougie's door behind me and I jump two stairs at a time as I am eager to fix the row with Dougie but when I reach the bottom of the stairs Harry is there with his arms crossed "Can you move please I need to talk with my boyfriend?"I ask politely
"I don't think so" and he throws the suitcases and the hand luggage outside
"Our taxi is here in half a hour and I need to"
Harry grabs hold of my throat and pins me up against the wall "You don't deserve to be with Dougie,its been a day and you've upset him,he won't talk to me you have turned him against me for eight weeks I have comforted Dougie over and over ,because of YOU,do you have any idea how annoying it is DO YOU ,and now your together .I don't trust you he should be with me and I will do everything I can to talk him round"
"OI JUDD LET GO OF MY BOYFRIEND"came the voice of Dougie,harry did so and stormed off towards the kitchen and dougie came running towards me ,he puts his arms around my neck
"Are you okay sweetheart?"
"Just"I gasp
"I'm sorry I tried to pressure you I just got giddy and wanted to thank you,I should have realized there wasn't time"
"Oh babe that's really sweet and I shouldn't have snapped at you,that was very wrong of me."
"I love you"
"I love you too" and we sat down on the steps and start to passionately kiss "tut tut"came a voice which we chose to ignore ,we just carried on and I waved the person along but Harry wasn't having any of that and pulled me off him"I want to speak with Dougie"he demanded
"Fuck off Harry"dougie calmly told him
"If you don't I will delay your flight"
"Don't you threaten him"I stood up and tried to open the front door but he punched me in the face and grabbed hold of Dougie and threw him on the floor
"Listen poynter or i will do a lot worse"Harry growled
"I hate you"
"No you don't"
"Get off me please"
Harry punched him,I tried to drag him off but he turned and started to attack me and well I was fighting back "Stop it right now can't you see how its affecting dougie"came the voice of Danny,wasn't even aware he was in,the fighting stopped. Dougie was sat on the floor staring into space I rub his arm ,but he flinches "Dougs please"
He says nothing ,he just gets up and goes outside,I want to leave but Danny stops me "Dan my taxi is gonna be here in ten"
"That's fine ,that's enough for you and harry to tell me what the hell is going on?"
"He started it"I begun which made harry snort
"If you weren't with Dougie I wouldn't need to protect him"he argued back
"Wait a minute you were fine with them being together yesterday"Danny told him
"For weeks tom has been such a ass to all of them,dougie came to me in tears at least three times a day worried about tom,worried about their friendship and how badly he had fallen in love with him,knowing I also had feelings but I thought well its better to be friends than nothing at twenty minutes ago Dougie came downstairs upset about something and considering he was originally in his room upset with me for no reason"
"You came downstairs and yelled at the both of us for being together,he is confused because one minute you are being supporting us,now your against us,me and dougie are happy together,we are going to Paris for two weeks and when we get back there might be a chance of me and MY boyfriend getting a place of our own so that we can actually be alone and not get disturbed,you will not talk to us or sit next to any one of us in ,we will be civil on tours and other things,we are not friends now if you don't mind Judd I am going outside to wait for the taxi to arrive",Harry didn't say anything else to me ,probably because he knew I was right,I walked to dougie and put my arms around him but he pushed me off me "Get away from me"he snarled
"I don't understand"
"Tom I want us to be together but you really scared me ,you didn't need to fight back,i know he has upset you and I'm upset too,violence never solves anything,I never knew you could be like that"
I'm really sorry about the fight I swear to you it won't happen again,please don't leave me I love you so so so much,I can't breathe without you,I wanna kiss and hold you all of the time,i want to take you to Paris,and I want to take you out on dates and do dirty things to you",Dougie melts at my words,and puts his arms around my waist and tilts my head up "I'm head over heels in love with you,I see why you over reacted but there has to be a better way of dealing with him when he gets nasty"
"I want to ask you something,I hope it doesn't freak you out as some may argue that its too soon for us"
"What is it?"
"I have been in love with you since McFly started and I wanna spend every second with you,being with you makes me so happy,we are perfect and this is going to sound crazy"
Dougie rolled his eyes "Spit it out fletcher"
I laugh nervously ,I take hold of Dougie's hand "I think we should live together,just me and you"
"What?"
"Oh god I scared you I'm sorry forget I suggested it and besides taxi has just arrived",in silence Dougie helps me to put the suitcases and hand luggage in the back ,it takes twenty minutes to get to the airport,we walk in,I speak to the woman at the desk and we go through the usual things ,getting luggage checked,seeing the security .The flight leaves in a hour so we go into the starbucks that is near by "Two hot chocolates and a piece of chocolate cake please"I kindly ask
"Would you like cream?"Steve asks
"Yes please"
"Size"
"Large" so then we have a bit more time,something feels off ,i know I've upset Dougie again ,he hasn't said a single word to me since we got in a cab ,hasn't looked at me or kissed me,smart move Fletcher.
"Will bring it over to you?"
"Okay thank you",I grab hold of Dougie and find a table which is far enough for us to talk in peace ,dont want people overhearing
"Doug why won't you talk to me?"I say with a sad look
"I've been thinking about what you said and I'd love for us to get our place,sounds fun,sounds sexy and perfect.I admit I was a little surprised at first but I would get you all to myself but I don't want a lot of people knowing where we are,I'm scared that Harry will show up and ruin things,I hate him so much I just wanna forget he exists",I pull Dougie to me and he sits on my lap,kissing commences but I then felt a sharp tap on my shoulder"Your order is here ,and kissing is prohibited"Steve said
"I doubt that it is prohibited"I told him,he just glared at me and skulked off
"How rude"Dougie said
"Probably not getting any" causing us both to giggle ,I start to feed Dougie some of the cake and kissing him after each bite ,people were throwing things at us but we didn't a announcement came through the speakers informing us that the flight had been delayed by a hour,it was now my turn to be fed ,this is fun.
"What are we gonna do for a hour?"I ask
Dougie whispers something naughty in my ear "Okay" I say smiling and we leave the cafe to go and have some fun :P.
Just handed over the boarding passes and walking hand in hand to the plane ,I put the hand luggage in the compartment above us ,other people start to get on ,so Dougie is currently sat on my lap and we are gonna make out until he has to move to his seat,cos everyone has to be seated and belted up.
DANNY POV
Harry comes towards me with his arms open expecting me to sympathize with him,there is no chance of that ,what he has done is awful and I don't condone it,its just wrong ,he hurt my best friends ,he doesn't even care "Dan please"I shot him a dirty look and wander into the kitchen to grab a drink,I finish it and when I turn round he is right in front of me "Just give me some space please"I kindly tell him
"Just let me explain"
"You had a go at tom and dougie ,upsetting your best friend,tried to stop them getting to paris,attacked them both because you suddenly decided that you had feelings for dougie,he will never love you .You have been ignoring me for weeks ever since we slept together,I told you I loved you and since then you have been different.I hate it,I'm done with you harry,I need to go out,sorry isn't good enough" and I was soon at the For a year I realized that I was in love with the bloody drummer ,and a few weeks ago we had a lot to drink ,we ended up having sex on the table,I didn't regret,the next day I confessed and he laughed ,I don't think Harry is right for McFly anymore but I know that he doesn't want to quit but I am going to move out,I'll move in with a mate until I find somewhere,just cos i have to work with harry it does not mean i still have to live with anymore fuck that.I wouldn't be surprised if tom starts to look for a house when he gets back to london and dougie will be there all the time,it wouldn't even surprise if they moved in together fairly I think it would be a little soon but they have been pining for each other since the early and now that they are a couple I don't blame them for being in their love bubble,they are so perfect together I really wish I could find that,and if they want things to be quick that's their choice and I would need to respect that,unlike some I want to support my friends.I finish my drink and get the bus into the city centre ,I sing but I bump into someone "Oh sorry didn't see you there"I said
"Oh that's okay,are you Danny Jones from McFly?",the young woman asked,she's blonde,blue eyes and cute,I'm bi not gay :)
"Yes I am,what's your name?"
"Hannah"
"Let me buy you a coffee to say sorry"
"Are you sure I know you didn't mean to?"
"I am,there's costa coffee around the corner"
"Sounds great"
"So what do you do?"
"I'm currently studying photography at college and I write songs"
"That's awesome,are you enjoying that?"
"Its my passion its quite amazing but there are some who think its a bad idea"
"Like who?sorry if i am being nosy"
"Its fine ,my boyfriend is a bit jealous because a lot of my time is filled up and thinks i should only be passionate about him and one other career goal,singing is just a hobby but photography is what I really want to achieve",she has a boyfriend damn it!
"Oh ,I'm sorry to hear that" ,just arrived at Starbucks,am holding the door open for her
"Thank you Danny" she smiled
"What you having?"I ask when we reach the counter
"Just a hot chocolate please"
"Okay so two hot chocolates"I told Steve who was working
"Cream"
"Yes please"
"It will be waiting for you at the end and that's £6.95 please"and I kindly pay steve seems like a good person,then again you never know how deceiving some people can be
Half A Hour Later
"Well Dan I have to get going now,its been a blast getting to know,here's my number" and she gives me a kiss on the cheek,I look very forward to meeting her again.
HARRY POV
Great just fucking great I have no one to turn to ,I've had my mum on the phone to me having a go at me,someone must have told her about the fight ,I don't understand I was not the only one in the wrong.I didn't mean for any of it for happen but no one is in a mood to forgive me,can't say that I don't blame hates me cos he was caught in the middle and has always been close to dougie and tom that and I rejected him cos I love Dougie,dougie hates me cos i pushed things too far,first i make a pass at him,he told me that he had fallen for Tom and I ended up being his shoulder to cry on as tom was being a dick towards him ,ever since they got together I started to feel as though I was being pushed aside I was his best friend but clearly tom means so much more to him ,and when I heard them having sex on the sofa it really irritated me because one I was asleep,two they're not quiet,they have no regard for anyone else,just each other and three I don't have anyone ,but I could have handled it better ,shouting at dougie and tom was mistake number one and violence was the other.I could see the fear in Dougie's eyes,its broke my heart ,i just wanted to talk to him but Tom wouldn't let him,is it just me or it just a means of control,surely control is not a good sign .Thing Dougie is too in love with him to see although maybe its just jealously,maybe dougie can make his own choice ,I just feel that just because he is tom's boyfriend that he should also make time for everyone else.I hate myself for what I have done and I know there isn't a way to put things right because no one will talk to actually to be honest there are somethings that I can do ,its not something I want to do but I fear that I won't be able to stick to the promises and it means I have to leave Mcfly,not sure I can do,that as its everything to me,we will only be working with each other,not living together and I will really miss has now got back from town
"Hey"he mumbles
"I've made a decision"
"What's that?",personally I don't think he cares but I do need to tell him
"I'm quitting McFly,you can find a new drummer I will be moving as soon as I find somewhere to go
"Okay" and with that he went upstairs to his room and I saw him take his phone out,he's ringing Fletch,he can't be ringing tom can used to be friends and now because of one stupid mistake I have lost three best friends and my dream career fucking fantastic and the fans are going to hate me ,I am pretty certain that someone will let slip the reasons behind my choice.I sigh as I go to the kitchen cupboard to grab a beer which I finish in five .I ho to my room and grab my laptop and now I am on the sofa looking for the perfect place.
2 HOURS LATER
Danny comes bouncing into the lounge "Hey harry guess what?"he smiles
"What?"
"I have a date with a beautiful woman"
"That's wonderful"i frown
"Her name is Hannah,she's a student and her boyfriend just broke up with her"
"So,your her rebound?"
"No actually she was going to leave him anyway"
"Isn't a bit too soon though?"
"It's not your business"
"I'm just looking out for you,as your friend"
"We're not friends anymore"
"Dan"
"I'm sorry harry but you pushed things too far,leaving the band and leaving our life's isn't enough"
"I'm not leaving because I want to ,I'm leaving because just what is the point in me trying to put things right if your just going to throw it back in my face anyway. I've lost my best friends all because of one stupid mistake,none of you believe in giving me second chances clearly but I bet if tom made a mistake it would be okay just because Dougie is addicted to him,ever since they got together I became second wheel,I let it get to me and I flipped but the thing is that I am sorry but hey ,whatever,maybe it would be better if I was dead"
"Harry I"
"No forget it ,I'm off to see a home"
And I just grabbed my wallet and my car keys and was about to leave the house when Danny grabbed hold of my arm"Look Harry we can be friends again and I think the four of us need to discuss things first,there has to be a way to fix things if you just explain and say sorry it might be enough ,I don't want you to leave but you need to find a better way to control your anger and support your best friends relationship.I understand that you want your own time with him but he now knows about your true intentions ,might make things a bit awkward"
"Yeah I know"
"Tomorrow night me and you are having a night out,you need to let off some steam and cancel that appointment ,no rash decisions need to be made,do you think you can wait for a couple of weeks"
"Yeah I can,so how did you meet Hannah?"
"I bumped into her as I was heading off into town,so i offered to buy her coffee,we talked,exchanged numbers, and I rung her to see how she was and she asked me out,and I said yes"
"So how do you know she broke up with her boyfriend?"
"I just guessed"
"Right"
"She isn't the kind of person that would cheat"
"Dude you've only just met her"
"She's so lovely and sexy though"
"So you think its good that she could possibly be cheating on her boyfriend with you,if he finds out he'll kill surely you must understand that"
"It will be worth it relax"
"But"
"I'll talk to you later okay"
"Okay"
I think its great that me and Danny are on speaking terms again and that there will be a band meeting I just hope it works out ,but I'm really worried that getting involved with Hannah is a huge mistake and I'm not sure what to do ,I guess I can't really do a great deal.
DOUGIE POV
So we are in our apartment complex in paris its a beautiful room but something feels wrong,ever since we landed in Paris tom hasn't said a word to me ,he hasn't touched me,I have tried asking him what the problem is and he has now shut himself in the bathroom,I don't understand what is happening what have I done to upset him,on the way we were happy,we were affectionate ,at first I thought he was just tired but he isn't sleeping and he can't be sick because he hasn't been throwing up and doesn't look pale or anything .I sigh as I write a note to tom saying that I am off out for a walk as its quite clear that he doesn't want me near him,its supposed to a romantic holiday and right now I have a feeling that the next two weeks are going to be hell which is a shame because I was really excited about coming and its not like any of us can go back home ,this holiday has been paid for.I am just coming up to the supermarket that's on the site so i might as well go in ,but then I feel a hand on my shoulder,I turn around thinking that its my boyfriend but no "Hello ,you dougie from mcfly"the young girl asks me,so I smile and say "Yes"
"On holiday or working"
"Holiday"
"Having nice time so far"
"Yeah"I lie
"May I have a photo with you please?",she's such a sweet girl so really no harm
"Of course you can"
She grins and her mum takes the photo and they're soon on their way,I look around some more and grab a bottle of pop as I could do with a drink ,I pay for it and I keep walking until I see the gorgeous lake and I sit down on one of the benches and the tears just start ,I can't believe that my relationship is already starting to fall apart and I don't know why,whatever Tom tells me if anything I will find really hard to believe because if says he's tired or sick I'll know that it won't be he's having second thoughts about us getting a place of our own but it was his idea and he looked really happy and I was feeling quite ready and excited,I am just so confused.
2 hours later
I slowly walk in through the door and switch the television and flick through the channels until I find one that's english,there is one .I wrap my arms across my waist and just stare blankly at the screen,I won't go into the bedroom I don't feel like seeing tom ,I know I can't avoid him but for tonight I am not sleeping in that bed not with someone who at this moment hates me and refuses to tell me why,is it me or is that selfish how am I supposed to say sorry.
"Dougs" came a small voice behind me,I say nothing ,"May I sit next to you please?" Tom asks me
"Do what you want"I snap
"What's wrong?"he asks
"You've been off with me ever since we landed,how do you think that feels?"
"Oh"
"That all you have to say,well thanks so much for explaining yourself,makes me feel really special"
"I've been sick",I raise my eyebrows at that
"Don't lie to me ,you don't look pale and you haven't been sick,you've spent three hours glaring at me,flinching whenever I have tried to show any affection towards you so what the hell is going on?If your having doubts about us I have the right to know"
"I don't want to talk about it right now" he has got to be joking
"Goodnight tom,you can sleep on the sofa thank you so much for ruining what could have been the perfect evening"
"I love you",yeah like that will make things better,he can't say he loves me to justify our fight
"Whatever"
"Don't be like that"
"I'LL BE HOW I WANT TO BE,YOU CAN'T JUST TELL ME YOU LOVE ME AND THINK EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY ,TO JUSTIFY OUR ARGUMENT OR TO AVOID IT ALTOGETHER ,YOUR MAKING ME FEEL SICK",and with that I stripped off and went into the bedroom ,locking the door behind me and climbing into bed,alone ,I didn't want it to be like this,its so unfair.
"Please let me in I'm ready to talk,I don't want us to go to sleep in a bad mood please I'm sorry",so I unlocked the door.
"So talk"I ask gently
"I think I might have depression and I'm finding it a bit overwhelming"
"So instead of telling me this ,and letting me support you chose to push me aside,babes we're in a relationship and part of that is to be honest with one another,I know you don't like confrontation but I want to make things better for you ,why didn't you tell me I thought you were having second thoughts about us"
"I was trying to figure out how to tell you,your everything I'm not.I'm sorry I pushed you away,that was a mistake I promise I won't keep anything from you again"
"What do you mean by I'm everything your not?"
"Being with you makes me so happy,I'm so in love with you and I see my future with you,your sexy,your funny,your talented,your everything and I can't see what is so wonderful about me,I'm hideous,talent less,I'm unbearable to be around",it hurts to know that my boyfriend is unhappy with himself ,he's perfect to me but maybe that isn't always enough,I pull Tom closer to me and wrap my arms around him as he cries into my chest."Tom sweetheart ,I know you don't value yourself right now and it may be quite some time before you do but I want you to know that to me you are perfect,your everything to me I am in love with you,that is never going to change,one day we're going to get married ,and its going to last for a lifetime,maybe we'll adopt if that's what you want,if not its okay .You are lovable just because you have bad day doesn't change that it just means your going through a rough patch that's all but know that I am always here for you no matter what"
"You really mean that?"
"Of course I do",I kiss the top of tom's head "Lets go to sleep"I suggest
"Okay"
So I strip down to my boxers but tom won't take off his t shirt "Tom why won't you take off your top"I ask once we get under the covers
"I'm cold",something doesn't seem right
"Okay well turn round so I can cuddle you"
"No I want to cuddle you"
"You need them more than I do"
"Fine" ,but I could hear him mumbling to himself
"Tom don't be like this"
"Like what"
"Shutting me out,your hiding something else aren't you?",at that he got out of bed and went into the lounge leaving a confused and upset me.
