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Now, lets carry on, shall we? This chappie is all Draco's mind running wild, after the awfulness of what he's done really hits him. Enjoy?


Chapter 1: The Aftermath-Draco's Side

Draco hopped to his feet, away from the crying girl before him, as though he'd been burned. He pulled on his Hogwarts uniform, using graceless, harried movements.

What the fuck had he just done?

"Granger I…I'm so s-sorry," he whispered in a pained voice. He didn't know if she'd heard him or not. She wouldn't acknowledge his presence, she just lay on the floor of their common room, undressed and sobbing. He backed away from her, slowly. His head was spinning and his heart was beating so painfully quickly that he thought it would pop out of his chest. He couldn't be there. He had to...he had to, "I-I have to go." He ran.

He bolted out the portrait whole and down the corridors, ignoring the weird looks he was receiving and knocking over a few first year Hufflepuffs in his haste.

He kept running, disregarding the stitch in his side and the way that every breath he took seemed to burn. He ran until he was gasping for air, until his legs cramped up and gave out from over-exertion.

He landed on his hands and knees near the Black Lake, gasping for breath, his heart furiously pounding away in his chest.

It wasn't supposed to happen that way. He hadn't meant to hurt her. He had wanted her for so long, it hurt and now he didn't know what to do. How had he let his anger control him that way? How could he have done such a horrible thing to such a wonderful person? He'd damaged her permanently in a span of no more than 30 minutes and now? Now she'd have to live with the fact that he'd taken advantage of her. Raped her at her most vulnerable.

They'd both have to live with it.

He didn't know what had gotten into him. What he had been thinking. He had just gotten so upset. So angry and there she was...so, so Granger. So annoyingly smart, so good, so Gryffindor. Always fighting for the light and forsaking the wrong. And Draco, himself, was the wrong. Which meant that she forsook him, which meant that no matter how hard he tried, he'd never have a chance with her.

Hermione Granger would never see him as anything other than the son of a Death Eater. A Death Eater himself, if she'd managed to catch a glimpse of the hideous mark on is left forearm, that is. A Muggle-hater, nonetheless...someone she was not supposed to associate herself with.

That thought alone had nearly driven him over the edge in the past...the fact that he'd probably never be with the only girl he'd ever truly wanted. Of course now he'd completely shattered his chances. As much as she had disliked him before, he was sure that she loathed him after what he'd done. She'd probably never want to see him again, and who could blame her? She was probably up at the headmaster's office at that very moment, recounting the entire sordid tale.

There would be aurors coming to find him in no time, only too pleased to drag him off to Azkaban and what could he do, but stick around and wait for them to come and take him away? He knew he'd done wrong. He knew he deserved to be put away for a long time.

Merlin, he was so scared. What would happen to him? What would his parents say? Well, he knew what his father would say. Something along the lines of, "Well done, son. That filthy mudblood got exactly what she deserved. She needed to be put in her place." The thought made him sick.

But, his mother...Draco knew she would be disappointed in him. Narcissa Malfoy had been the only person opposed to Draco taking the dark mark over the summer. She had said that the Dark Lord's threats against herself and her husband did not matter, so long as her only son could be saved from the life his father had chosen.

His mother was more accepting of muggles and muggle-borns. She'd tell him that no girl, muggle-born or otherwise, deserved to be taken by force. She would tell him that what he had done was inexcusable and she would never be able to look at him in the same way again...just like she could barely stand to look at his father after everything he'd put his family through. Sure she loved them both very much, but Lucius had done some terrible things and now Draco seemed to be following in his foot steps.

No, he thought. He definitely was not now, nor would he ever be following in his father's footsteps. Lucius was a monster and Draco...he'd just made a mistake. A one-time lapse in judgment. That didn't mean he was a monster as well, did it? DID IT?

The thing is that it wasn't just a mistake. He'd raped a girl, and not just any girl at that. He'd raped Hermione Granger, Harry Potter's best mate.

As he finished that final thought, Draco glanced over his shoulder and about the grounds. Aurors were now the least of his worries...the Boy Who Lived himself would surely be hunting him down soon enough, ready to Avada Draco's sorry arse for what he'd done to Hermione. Well...he'd probably fit in a few Cruciatus curses and a dozen or so other torturous spells that would have Draco begging for mercy in no time.

And surely, he'd let Potter finish him off...he wouldn't fight back. After all, he deserved everything he got from then on. And if death was what he received for robbing Hermione Granger of her innocence, then he'd willingly take it.

Anything to rid him of his horrible sin and the overwhelming guilt that came with it.


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Next Chapter: Hermione...Dum dum dum! What will she think? What will she do? Will she tell? Je ne sais pas, mes amis...I guess you'll just have to stay tuned in order to find out :)