-Megumi POV-
I sat at the piano chair, staring at the piano in front of me. It was totally the wrong choice to have come. I couldn't even bring myself in into the room to see if Yahiro was there. I felt such like an idiot. I should leave this place before Yahiro appears.
I felt a finger lift the hair covering my right ear tucking it behind my ear. The scent of lavender washed over me. "Megumi" I heard Yahiro whispered softly into my ear, and I involuntarily let out a gasp of both shock and delight. I could feel his breathe tickling my neck and the fact that he was so near me sent my heart racing. I shivered involuntarily at the closeness of him. I turned my head slightly to see that he was sitting beside me on the piano chair facing the other direction of the direction I was sitting.
He was wearing a white collared shirt that was slightly buttoned down showing a little of his well defined chest. His lavender hair was slightly messy, falling over his eyes, covering his soft brown eyes. The tight fitting jeans he was wearing emphasized his slim muscular legs. I felt my heartbeat quicken at the sight of him. How can a single guy be so handsome. It is so unfair. And he was actually wearing the lavender coloured earrings that I gave him for his birthday. The sight of it caused hope to blossom within my heart. I remembered clearly that when I gave it to him, he had said no one would ever wear that out. But the fact that he was wearing it means that he must have treasured what I gave him right? Or I might be reading too much into it. I sighed inwardly as I felt my hope went somewhat crashing down.
"why did you not go into the room?" he said softly, looking at me intensely. I looked at him. He was frowning slightly, causing his eyebrows to knit together. I turned away from his gaze.How am I even suppose to answer that question? I didn't want to see you? I thought you didn't want to see me anymore? You are an idiot but I love you? I don't even know what I want anymore…
Suddenly, I felt his slim long fingers wrap around my wrist. Which caused a jolt to sear through my arm. My heart started beating at extremely fast pace. As he then gently pulled me in the direction of the room. "Come on Megumi, I want to hear you sing". When I didn't move from my seat. He let out a sigh before turning around to face me, without letting go of my wrist. He then stepped closer to me and bent down to bring his face closer to my ear, the tip of his nose brushing against my ear, causing shiver of delight down my spine. My heart started beating faster at the close proximity he was at.
"Megumi, if you don't move I will really carry you into the room in my arms. Or is that what you want?" Yahiro said softly into my ear. I could feel his breath caressing my skin. I felt goose bumps rise slightly as I imagined what it would feel like to have him do that, causing me to blush. I then reluctantly decided to follow him. Can't have him carrying me here. It would be so embarrassing. He did not let go of my wrist as he gently lead me to the room. His fingers felt so smooth and I had to fight down the urge to caress his arm with my fingers.
We reached the door of the room that we were supposed to enter. He turned the knob and then I felt his fingers letting my wrist go causing my arm to drop back, lightly hitting my thigh. I felt a wave of disappointment crashing down on me. Don't let go… but I knew he didn't want Akira mostly or anyone else he knows to see him grasping onto my wrist. Akira mostly because he obviously still likes Akira, being his first love that never did reciprocated his feelings, something that I would be eternally grateful towards Akira. The others because he obviously doesn't like me thus would not want his other friends forming such a misconception on our relationship status.
"Megumi. Stop standing there and come in" Yahiro said lightly, cutting off my thoughts. That was when I realised that I had not moved ever since he let go of my wrist. I blinked to clear away the tears that were threatening to fall, and then walked through the door that Yahiro was holding open for me. He can be such a gentlemen sometimes, opening doors, being polite, being kind… but will never be yours, my more rational mind quietly reminded myself
"Megumiiii! How…is your relationship with Yahiroo? Sang Hikari, in a slurring manner, who was currently standing in front of me, and was obviously very drunk. I blinked at her and turned to look at Yahiro, who upon noticing my gaze turned his head and walked to sit himself on the sofa. "Hikari, you are drunk. So I win. Too bad eternal second place" said Kei from behind Hikari. "I am notta drunk at all~~" her words slurring. As she spun around staggering slightly before falling into Kei's arms. "Yes you are. Now I will bring you back home." Kei said sternly to her. He then picked Hikari up in his arms before announcing that he and Hikari would be taking their leave for the night.
I looked over at the stage. There was Ryuu and Finn singing into the mike enthusiastically although terribly off tune. They were now re-enacting the love scenes in which the song was played during that particular scene.
Akira and Tadashi was not where to be seen, they probably left or didn't come at all. Jun and Sakura are most probably having a romantic date together already, which leaves me with Yahiro. But when I looked over at the sofa he was seating at, I saw Sakura sitting beside him, really close to him, and Jun seated on the table in front of Yahiro. They seemed to be having an animated conversation. Sakura said something and Yahiro laughed, in which Jun then interjected to say something. I felt very slightly irritated at how Sakura was so easily able to get Yahiro to laugh and smile. If I didn't know that she loved Jun, I would have sworn that she was in love with Yahiro and was flirting with him. I close my eyes and tried to smother the sense of irritation I was feeling, but it was as if it felt my resistance and the anger I felt suddenly doubled in amount. I turned away from the sight and sat down at the table in which Kei and Hikari had their drinking contest. I stared at the unopened bottles dully. I wonder how it tastes like… I uncapped the bottle and brought it to my lips and took a sip.
It tasted bitter, just like how I was feeling inside. I tilted the bottle and drank slightly more of it this time. I felt the pain in my heart faded away slightly. I looked at the bottle quizzically. So if I drink more, I could possible drown off this constant stab of pain I feel every time I think of Yahiro. I felt tears starting to trickle down my cheeks. Why is it that everyone else has it so easy with their relationships. Hikari and Kei are practically inseparable. Always having fun competing with each other almost like a cute couple. Tadashi and Akira are very obviously in love with each other. Having their couple fights daily. Ryuu and Finn go out almost 3 times every week, laughing at each other jokes. Sakura and Jun were practically love birds. All they ever talk about when they are with me is Sakura this or Jun that. Why is it that only my relationship with Yahiro isn't working out? What did I do wrong? I took another mouthful of the drink feeling the bitterness wash down my throat. Then another one and another one. Before I knew it I had already finished one bottle. I reached out and opened another one, before quickly downing the contents. I want to forget. Forget the pain I feel. I felt my tears stop and then my head felt lighter. Almost as if I was happy. Then I realised that is because the constant stabs of pain in my heart had stopped. It was such a wonderful feeling. To be freed from all those dark and bitter thoughts. The constant stabs of emotional pain that felt worse than any physical pain I have felt before seemed to have disappeared. Drinking this is wonderful I thought giddily. Maybe I should tell Sakura and Jun that I'm no longer sad. So they would stop worrying. I drank another mouthful. Maybe I should tell Yahiro I like him a lot. Maybe I should just do what Sakura had suggested? The thought did not fill me with the fear I usually feel at the thought of another rejection. Yes I should try what Sakura suggested. I stood up. And noticed the floor was spinning under me. I tried to walk towards where Sakura and Jun were sitting but they were suddenly so far away. I stumbled and tripped, landing on my butt with a thump. Somehow the pain I felt seemed so distant. It was as if I couldn't feel anything anymore. All the pain I felt just became a numb feeling. I saw Sakura, Jun and Yahiro simultaneously turned their head towards me. Yahiro suddenly looked so much more handsome then he did before. Especially with that cute concern face he was making, as he stood up quickly and turned to walk towards me.
