2. Figuring Things Out
They had moved me to my room once I had given them my answer. But that was after I changed the testing room into the dull gray and white pillow filled room. They had told me that I was not in an asylum and that it was really a building built far from anything I would know. They called it a "safe haven from the world," I had wondered what that meant. Then I realized it, I was going to be stuck here for forever. I still didn't know why it had hurt when I had been brought here, out of all the books I've read I have never read one about this place. Maybe I was looking too far into it . . . my friends have told me time and time again that I over think things too much. Could I be over thinking this situation? I hoped I wasn't, but there was no way to be sure. I would just have to figure it out. I decided I needed to listen to some music so I turned my computer on, the internet didn't work here but that was ok I didn't need it. My music is stored in windows media player. I went into my favorite bands album and clicked on figure it out, the song was from The Plain White T's and so the lyrics were like this as I thought about figuring things out.
". . . I could just move if I like what I have,
And love what I lose soon as I figure it out
Figure it out
Figure it out"
The song ended and I was done with my computer for today. Soon, I was hungry again. I may eat like an animal but I didn't enjoy being locked up like an animal also. I was thinking about this when I realized my door was open . . . hmm . . . maybe – no that's not possible I thought to myself, but if the door is open then what do I do? My life had definitely changed! I can think about things and they will just pop out of nowhere and then I can think about something I don't like and I won't be in that situation any more. This is really weird! What was going on? I had no clue . . . but I was going to find out!
