I try my best to push every thought away from my mind as I drive home. Stupid, Louis. You ruined everything. You ruined me. You ruined my future. I gave up everything for you. Now I'm stuck at home with my stupid parents while you're out living your stupid dream. I shake my head from the thoughts, trying to concentrate on the road. Suddenly, I hear my cell phone buzz. The traffic light I'm approaching turns red and I glance down at my phone.
Liam: Hey love, how are u? Hope everything is well. We miss u. xx
Liam, Liam, Liam. The sweetest boy I've ever met. Even after Louis dumped me, he stayed in contact with me. He wasn't the type of person to ditch someone at their lowest. He was like a brother to me, a protective one. I know for a fact that if I had been dating any guy who wasn't part of their band, he would have beat the shit out of them for hurting me the way Louis did. But considering the situation, there wasn't much Liam could do. If he turned against Louis, the whole band would be at stake. So this is where we are now. He secretly sends me text messages, and acts as if I believe anyone but him misses me.
Me: I'm good, great even. I miss you as well.
Most of me felt sorry for lying to Liam. He really did want me to be happy, and letting him know otherwise would hurt him. If I ever hurt that boy I would hate myself even more than I do right now. The obnoxious beeping coming from surrounding cars reminds me where I am. I focus my eyes back to the road, but I'm still overwhelmed with thoughts. Every time I think of Liam, or Louis, or any of the boys, my heart breaks all over again. The awkward hug at my door, the airport. I just want to go back in time and beg Louis to stay with me. What did I do wrong? Could I have prevented him from falling out of love with me? Or were my friends right? Maybe Louis is just an ass. Maybe I never noticed before because I was too infatuated by him. Or maybe there's something wrong with me. That's probably it. My phone buzzed once again, which I found odd considering the fact that Liam was way too busy to ever text back so quickly.
Liam: Lou talks about u still. I shouldn't be telling but I miss u together. Pls visit soon. U know u can whenever u find time.
My eyes shifted back to the road as the thoughts began. You would think after constant excuses Liam would give up on ever seeing me again. But I know he never will. He's never going to give up on me. Thinking about him is the only thing that's stopped me from ending my life completely. I'm scared of what it would do to that boy. There's nothing romantic between me and Liam, never was. We just understood each other, I suppose. I think God messed up when he didn't make us siblings because everyone thought we were.
I pulled into my driveway and stared at the message, unsure of what to reply with this time. Too busy with school? Yeah for now, but finals were this week. Maybe I could use the finals excuse for now, and then tell him I'm too ill. Guilt entered my entire body, and my heart literally ached. I can't keep doing this to Liam, it's not fair. Lying to him isn't right and I know it. I miss him. I miss Louis. I miss Harry, Niall, and Zayn. I miss my boys. But Louis' face will break me. That'll be it. I'll have to drive myself off a cliff or something because the pain will be unbearable. The tears filled my eyes and my lack of sleep caused them to sting. My head fell to the steering wheel. Breathe, Elizabeth. Just breathe. Maybe seeing Liam will cheer me up. Maybe he's what I need right now. I bit on my lower lip and stared down at my phone. My fingers shook as I typed.
Me: Finals are this week, can I come after? Last day is Thurs.
I watched the tiny circle in the corner of my phone spin as the message sent. No going back now. There's no way to back out of this without losing Liam for good. That would be my breaking point. I raised my head and opened the car door. A week from now I'll be in the presence of Louis. Maybe he'll be a coward and avoid me. Maybe go on dates with some random girl or something. That's the type of guy he was now. The all too familiar buzz made another appearance as I exited my car.
Liam: U mean it? I'll get everything set up, so excited! Busy now, call u tn. Xx
I smiled to myself, knowing that I just made Liam the happiest boy alive. At least I'm good for one thing.
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