Love's to Blame

Summary: How much I wished that Jacob Black had been born my brother, my flesh-and -blood brother, so that I would have some legitimate claim on him that still left me free of any blame now.
Bella Swan, New Moon, Chapter 9, p.218

Drabbles in the life of Bella and Jacob if their genders were reversed and if they were siblings.

Warning:If incest bothers you, I'd suggest not reading it. Adult concepts.


Drabble Two: Does my being half-naked bother you?

"And yes, I'll admit, I am jealous. I'm jealous of every minute you spend with him, of every concerned expression you send his way, of every tear shed, of every glance, every touch, and every thought. I want to rip him to pieces and purge him from your mind and from your heart. But I can't."
Colleen Houck


Jacqueline lay in her bed glaring at her wall. She wasn't trying to eavesdrop but the wall between her room and Nick's was thin.

"I love you." Nick said. "Do you love me?"

"I told you, Love. You are my life now," Elizabeth purred and Jacqueline wanted to punch her in her face.

It wasn't fair.

"God, you're beautiful," Nick said and then they got quiet so Jacqueline could only assume they were kissing.

"Wait," Elizabeth suddenly said.

"What?" Nick asked, slightly panting so Jacqueline guess she was right about the kissing.

"I think we should stop. I don't want to hurt you," Elizabeth said, in her fake-I'm-About-to-cry- voice.

She rolled her eyes and flopped onto her back.

"The only thing that could hurt me is not being with you," Nicholas declared.

This was torture.

"Oh, Nick," Elizabeth said, then silence again.

If she wasn't such a masochist she'd leave…or at least cover her ears.

"Don't ever leave me," Nicholas begged.

But…

"I love you so much," he confessed.

If sometimes, if she tried hard enough, she could imagine that Elizabeth wasn't in her Nick's room. She could imagine that he wasn't saying those words of love and devotion to that Stuck-Up-Ice-Queen but instead was whispering those words in her ear.

Cullen didn't know how good she had it. Nicholas was constantly showering her with love and attention, telling her how beautiful and perfect she was, always touching her and kissing her…It wasn't fair.

They'd only been dating for a few weeks. He shouldn't be that attached!

It was unnatural and unhealthy…and she was being a hypocrite.

Jacqueline felt sick to her stomach.

Elizabeth Cullen was a moody, self-centered, bitch! She didn't deserve Nick. She was always pulling him closer only to push him away without any warning. She didn't even eat!

Once, Jacqueline saw her throw a whole tray of food in the trash during lunch. Was she anorexic?

The one time Charlie forced her to eat dinner with them, she only ate a few bites before saying she was full and asking to use the restroom. Jacqueline heard her throwing up.

Was she bulimic?

Jacqueline couldn't understand why Nick would want to be with someone like her. Sure she was pretty…but she was always so solemn and depressed looking.

Nick needed someone who could make him smile. Someone who could make him laugh. Someone who understood him. Someone to hold him if he had a bad day. Someone who laughed with him instead of at him. Someone like…like Jacqueline.

"I Love you, my little Lamb," Elizabeth said quietly, not quietly enough for Jacqueline though.

"I love you more, my beautiful Lion,"

Okay, that was enough.

Jacqueline got out of bed and stomped as loudly as she could around her room, opening drawers, slamming them closed, and then doing the same to her closet.

"Oh my god! I can't believe I lost it!" she cried, making sure to be heard. "How could I be so stupid?"

She paused and heard footsteps. Then Nick poked his head in her room.

"What's up, Jackie? I'm trying to sleep," he said and Jacqueline wanted to call him out on his lie but she wasn't supposed to know about Elizabeth's midnight visits.

"I can't find my blue nightgown," Jacqueline lied.

Nick glared at her.

"Well, wear another one," he stated and Jacqueline gave him a bright smile.

"Wow, that's a good idea. Thanks, Nick," She said, and hugged him.

Nick chuckled, and mumbled something in her hair that she couldn't make out before hugging her back. Then his hand made contact with her bare back and his eyes widened. He pulled away and realized that he was hugging her in just her underwear.

"Damnit, put some clothes on," he demanded, covering his eyes.

Jacqueline smirked and crossed her arms under her breasts.

"Sorry, Nicky. Does my being half-naked bother you?" she asked, in her most innocent voice.

"Yes," Nick said, "So, please out on your gown or your robe or something."

Jacqueline laughed and grabbed her robe.

"There, all covered," she said and Nick sighed in relief.

"Good night, Jackie," he said, and Jacqueline wrapped her arms around him again and kissed him cheek.

"Good night, Nicky," she purred and swore she could feel something hard press against her stomach before Nick shoved her away and almost ran out of the room.

She fell back on the bed and smiled, not caring what was going on in the other room.

Because now she knew one thing for sure.

Nick found her body attractive.

She glanced down at herself, looking at her body. Maybe she'd walk to school tomorrow and start working on her legs.

Then the next time Nick saw her body, he wouldn't be able to leave.

She laughed loudly, ignoring the angry hisses she could hear coming from the room next to hers.


"To burn with desire and keep quiet about it is the greatest punishment we can bring on ourselves."
Federico García Lorca, Blood Wedding and Yerma

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