Authors note: hehe I added a chapter, why because I got reviews yay!!!!!!!!!! Anyway hopefully there are no spoilers in here for eclipse but I did write it after so you have been warned. I did use it though because some of my "issues" are dealt with in it. This is still set before Jacob brought the bikes back though. So read at your own risk, I have also decided to add at the end of this "20 reasons why we love Edward" and I think if there are any more chapters I'll continue this tradition. Chow

Disclaimer: I own nothing and thank your lucky stars for that hehe


Today was the day to put my plan in action, ok so it wasn't really a plan but just something I felt needed resolving.

My neediness

Something that I hated about myself. I didn't want to be that girl, if I was I might as well have just been the one that gets married straight out of high school and ends up pregnant 3 months later not ever going to happen at least not with Edward but I still shuddered at the first part.

This problem was only highlighted by Edwards dare I say it …proposal. Did he want me to be that girl? Well tuff luck to him I wasn't even going to think about… that question no, no, no.

Ok so the plan was simple and it may give me brownie points with Charlie. I hated fighting with him I really did. And that fact that I only had a limited amount of time with him made me feel worse so he wanted me to be more social AKA away from Edward, I would be.

I pulled out a pen and paper ready to write out my however many step program on how to cure my infliction, that Edward said was either cute or didn't exist I couldn't seem to remember on which stand he finally took after my overly melodramatic rant the night before.

Step 1: start trying to call Jacob and not to stop no matter what happened. He'd been such a good friend more then I ever deserved he was my sunshine when I was in the black hours of a new moon. I would never give up, I would never stop trying.

Step 2: try, try and again try to get back on the good side of jess and my old group. I really didn't count Lauren in that group. I needed some people to make this plan work. I wonder how much grovelling I would need to do to get back in jess good books she was the key to the rest of their forgiveness.

Step 3: put more effort in my friendship with Angela and mike. I loved Angela she was actually someone I would like to call a close friend I was going to miss her, and though mike still had trouble with the "were just friends" thing he was loyal. If I was good friends with Angela her boyfriend Ben would probably follow on with her example, and he was really nice, they were good together.

Step 4: spend time away from Edward doing things that didn't involve thinking of him. I really despised this step, but it was necessary, I needed to be able to do things for my self, and not run to him whenever things didn't go my way. So I didn't really do that exactly but when I was… well I depended on him too much emotionally it was like I couldn't be happy with out a man or someone to love me. I needed to grow a backbone.

Ok so those were the most important things written down anyway, more detail could come later. Now with my grounding which I completely respected and deserved I couldn't really plan to go out with friends with out Edward but I could actually 'god for bid' call someone other then Edward for once and talk to other people at school.

Tomorrow that part would be tested I'm sure Lauren would have a field day convincing people to ignore me and Edwards return would either hinder and help my cause, at least I had Angela and mike. I folded the paper neatly then threw it at my desk smirking at the stupidity of myself and how lame my manifesto was, I wondered what Edward would think and right on cue I heard three taps on the front door down stairs. Was it that time already, I rushed down stairs checking the mess that I was as I passed the mirror. Edward had turned me into a girl.

"Hello my love" his voice just a velvety as I remembered

"Hey I was just thinking about you"

"Something good I hope" a sly croaked smile grew to his ears I would have said it was the smile that I loved my smile but there was to much smugness behind it so I just glared as he took my hand and kissed it lightly.

" I don't know more then anything about how you annoy me

"I could always leave, if that's what you wanted" I knew he was only joking but my heart just didn't want to be rational I took a deep breathe and tired to suck up as much sarcasm as I could sarcasm was a safe tone

"Sure you could, but we both know that you have a problem respecting my wants" there hopefully that hid my distress though I wasn't exactly sure what I had said

"Bella…"he brushed his fingers across my cheek, I let my self have a quick glance in his eyes. Nope he wasn't fooled stupid vampire hearing. His eyes were full of guilt and a gut wrenching sadness. Why couldn't I just get over my issues?

"I love you"

"I love more"

"Whatever I don't really feel like getting into this debate right down, I have some thing I want to discuss"

"And what is that"

"I'm going to avoid you twice a week, school night of course and its going to kill me but my inflict that we… discussed last night needs to be resolved and I think this will do for starters"

"For starters" his eye's looked pained I hope he didn't think I wanted to be away from him was he really that - not stupid - not understanding of my motives

"Oh don't worry I'm not having my cure involve any more time away from you then that its just that this is all I can do while being grounded"

His face was suddenly ruled by an array of emotional expression I thought that now might be the best time to show him my stupid "manifesto" adding all the commentary I had given it in my head hopefully that would help him understand.


Authors note: ok what did we think be cruel I know its bad, but it was hard to right, I could see it so clearly in my head, Bella and Edward are kinda rude when they there yelling words in your head hehe yes I know I'm crazy ok so here's my "20 blar blar blar...

oh any spelling error's or stuff like that let me know and i'll fix them Chow xoxoxoxoxo


20 ReAsOnS wHy We LoVe EdWaRd

1. He's tall 6f? (If you haven't guess I have a thing for height)

2. Since he's from the olden times he's all about the shivery

3. He's a vampire that refuses to drink human blood

4. He's a brooding male (gotta love the self hate till it turns emo yuck)

5. He has impressive self control

6. He tries really hard to get over jealousy

7. He'd never let you fall

8. He'd rather live life in misery then take away belle's chance at happiness (so it don't work out the way he intended it's the thought that counts)

9. He's painstakingly beautiful - hot isn't the right word for his looks

10.Edward is creative and can play the piano (who doesn't want their own song)

11.He's kind

12.He's cocky – ok so some would say that's a bad thing but it works for him

13.His vulnerability - all his walls come down when he's around Bella who doesn't find that so cute sigh

14.He's strong

15.He's a vampire, since the days of buffy and interview with a vampire who hasn't wanted one

16.He loves his family

17.He's a nosy know it all, its just fun when they don't get to know everything his quirks are endearing

18.He's protective and caring, one of those guys that get worked up over a scraped knee

19.Bella's blood is do intoxicating to him its painful and yet he love her to much to ever think about ever wanting to drain her blood

20.He's the prince charming of the story for all us girls to swoon over and go gaga, he also has faults so that we can even better picture our self with. His absolute love for Bella causes goose bumps and gives us hope that some where there's an Edward for us


Authors note: ok sorry i had to put one more in i kinda like authors notes (yes i'm weird i thought we'd already stated that fact) i always read them so any way review please so i have so idea of whats good and whats not oh and i this the last chapter i have recieved like a whole heap of reviews that just say i hate jacob what was the point of that oh well i think i still sent you replys anyway um oh just so your warned if you send me a review as all the people who have have learned i'm very talkative long messages and more then one hehe