High Pitched pants filled the room as Shockwave rammed into his overly stimulated partner. Blurr was almost completely incoherent, but as he reached an overload his partner suddenly stopped.
"What are you doing?" Blurr sighed, impatient when so close to release.
"We have a visitor." Whispered the larger, pulling out and retracting his spike. Blurr, realizing what his partner meant, let out a small gasp and looked to the door where a little head peeked in "Lightwave," he breathed, climbing out from under his large mate and rushing to the little girl in the doorway. He eased her back into the hall, closing the door behind them. Blurr kneeled before the sparkling "What are you doing up so late?" he asked, keeping his hands clamped lightly on her arms in concern.
"I had a bad dream," answered the child in a small voice. Before Blurr could say anything she spoke again "Why was Sire on top of you?"
Blurr assumed a question like that was coming. He desperately searched for a good answer "Uh…No reason." He stood up and walked Lightwave back to her room "Why don't you tell me about that bad dream?" he proposed. Lightwave held fast to her Carrier's hand until she was lifted back into her berth.
"So," started Blurr "What happened in this bad dream of yours?"
"I dreamed that Sire went away forever!" she cried "That I was all alone. Neither you were there, no one was there." She said in a more somber tone. Blurr didn't know how to react to that "Well," he started calmly "Your Sire and I are here now, you have nothing to worry about." He assured, tucking her in "We're not going anywhere." He gave her a kiss on the head "I promise. Now get back to recharge, you've got school tomorrow." With that he stood and left the room, quietly closing the door behind him.
"Is she alright?" inquired Shockwave, who had been waiting in the hall.
"Just a bad dream," Blurr stated, clearly displeased by something. Shockwave followed his foul tempered mate into the living room. Blurr stopped in the middle and scrunched up a little bit "I Knew I should have never let you see her!" he raged, turning and pointing an accusing finger at the larger mech "I knew something like this would happen! But do you ever listen to me? No!"
"Blurr, what are you talking about?" asked Shockwave taking a step closer.
"She is so afraid of losing you Shockwave!" Yelled the Carrier in an almost desperate tone "And someday she will lose you, Shockwave, I know she will."
"There is no guarantee of that."
"Yes, there is. You could die, or get captured, or the war will start again like it always does. What will she think when her beloved Sire is on the opposite side? She loves you so much Shockwave, but this was never supposed to happen. She was never supposed to get attached."
"Well there's nothing we can do about that now, is there?"
Blurr scowled "Someday you're going to leave." He said "I hope she's not old enough to remember when you do."
"Then I suppose you hope it's soon."
"Sooner would be better than later."
Shockwave wrapped his arms around the tense bot who refused to face him again "Come now," cooed the larger "Is that really what you want to think about now? I will be gone soon enough. I will leave as soon as the sparkling is born, which should be in less than two days by my calculations."
Blurr frowned "It doesn't feel like two days." He grumbled, crossing his arms and refusing to acknowledge the larger mech further. Shockwave continued to push "I trust my judgment better. Why don't we get back to what we were doing before we were interrupted?" He proposed, leaning down and nuzzling the stiff cables of his partner's neck. Blurr stifled a moan, trying to stay serious, but falling for his partner's smooth tone and large servos caressing his body. Claws slipped between his legs, rubbing the closed valve and coercing it to open. Blurr let out a shaky moan, falling back into his partner's arms and allowing himself to be taken.
Shockwave carried his mate to the berth and continued what they'd been doing earlier. He took very little time preparing the valve and inserting a spike.
The interface was tired and blissful, Blurr barely made a sound above a loud gasp while Shockwave stayed almost completely silent the entire time. Blurr was a limp mess, lost in his own pleasure and forgetting what he was doing and who he was doing it with. All he paid attention to was how good it felt doing it.
At the end of the session Shockwave rolled over and laid beside his partner. The berth was not large enough for him but Shockwave didn't mind letting on leg sit on the floor while his head rested against the wall. Sometimes Blurr slept on top of him, a more comfortable position for the larger mech.
"Shockwave," said Blurr quietly, optics still offline as he lay limp on his stomach, halfway under the banket. Shockwave looked but said nothing, waiting for Blurr to continue. The blue racer sat up slightly, opening tired optics that could barely comprehend anything in the dark "Do you want me to sleep on top tonight?" he asked, knowing the position was actually more comfortable for the both of them. Without a word both began to shift position. Blurr climbed atop his mate as Shockwave slid into the middle of the berth. Blurr's head rested on the large mech's chest, the blue racer's arms pinned between his chest plate and Shockwave's.
After a little while, when Blurr was just beginning to slip into recharge, Shockwave lifted his head "Love?" he said, referring to Blurr. Blurr gave a hum in reply, giving very little attention to the bot but recognizing his pet name.
"What have you decided about the sparkling?" asked the Decepticon, keeping his voice quiet.
"I'm going to have it, and I'm going to keep it." Answered Blurr.
"I am glad you've made the decision."
"It's too late for me to get it removed anyways, wanting this has nothing to do with it."
"There are many ways in which you could have gotten in removed, and I know you are aware of that. You chose not to."
Blurr scoffed, repositioning himself a bit "You believe what you want."
"How are you going to explain this one?"
"I already have."
"Oh?"
Blurr sat up a bit, propping himself up on his elbows "I told them you forced me, and that you've been forcing me, to interface with you, and you just happened to get me sparked."
"Interesting set of lies you've weaved here."
Blurr laid back down with a stiff 'hm' a smile sneaking onto his lips for some reason. Shockwave placed a hand on his back "My offer still stands." He started "I know you cannot afford to take care of both."
"I will make due." Blurr stated stiffly, knowing what Shockwave said was true but refusing to admit it. The hand on his back became heavy "You are lying." Shockwave rumble "You are well aware of your ability to take care of two, and it is minimal. Let me take one it would be better for all of you."
Blurr scowled, sitting up again "Listen Shockwave," he spat "You're not getting my sparkling under any circumstances, so stop asking, I am too tired and sore to deal with you right now, now good night." Blurr threw his head back down and forced his optics offline, hoping to Primus that Shockwave would just leave him alone.
The larger mech made no effort to continue the conversation. He fell back into recharge as well and left his mate alone for the night.
In the morning Blurr woke up alone. He looked around, hoping Shockwave had not broken his promise to Lightwave and left. The former racer crawled from the berth and made his way into the living room. He found Lightwave and Shockwave sitting in the kitchen, sipping on energon. Lightwave brightened as her Carrier entered "Good morning," she greeted happily, swinging her feet with calm delight.
Blurr sat at the table with them, not questioning it. He took the cup of energon sitting there and drank it up as though his life depended on it. When he was finished he lowered the cup and looked out at his little "family"
"It's a bit early don't you think?" he asked.
Lightwave answered before Shockwave could get in a word "It has to be, I have school today."
"That's right," Blurr drawled, as if coming to that realization "You do…so what are you and Sire planning to do before you go to school?" Blurr suddenly felt a contraction in his chest. He stiffened but ignored it.
Lightwave looked to her Sire, unable to answer that question on her own. She'd never really spent more than an hour with her Sire, there were so many possibilities. "I don't know," started Shockwave, seeing that the responsibility of answering that question fell to him "I suppose we will see."
Before Blurr could reply the phone range. He rushed to answer it but barely got to say hello before Cliffjumper's voice came through the speaker, telling Blurr not to come into work that day. Blurr didn't argue, he could use a day off.
When he returned to the table Shockwave inquired who'd called. Blurr answered with "no one" and Shockwave pushed no further. Later into the morning Blurr retired to his room, leaving Shockwave to keep track of their little femme, trusting him enough to leave them alone. Blurr knew fully well that Shockwave would never hurt their daughter, or allow any harm to befall her.
He may be a cruel Decepticon, but he was a good Sire.
Blurr was asleep for most of the day. He woke up every now and then to contractions but was otherwise unbothered. He woke up in the afternoon to Shockwave standing over him. This came as no surprise but did cause a small jolt "Why do you have to be so creepy like that?" asked Blurr, sitting up.
"You are having contractions." Shockwave stated "Why are you not informing me of this? If I am going to be delivering it I must know when it is ready to be delivered."
Blurr sat up further "I'm fine, it's not ready for transfer yet."
"Are you sure it is not you who isn't ready? I know the process is painful."
Blurr threw his legs over the bed "No, you don't know, because you've never given birth. Look, Shockwave, I've been through this before, I think I know when there's a baby about to pop out of me."
"I prefer to take every precaution."
"Do we even have a protoform to put it in?"
"Yes. I obtained one this morning well before either of you awoke."
Blurr couldn't reply as a sharp contraction squeezed at his chest. The blue bot clawed at his tight chest plate, doubling over in an attempt to ease the pain.
Shockwave took his mate by the shoulders and eased him back into the berth "Rest for now, but stay sitting up. I will return with the protoform. You must tell me if the contractions get too sever so that I know when to begin transfer."
Blurr rolled his eyes. He waited patiently for Shockwave to return with the protoform. When he did return Shockwave instantly got to work making Blurr more comfortable than entirely necessary. He set the Blue bot against a mountain of pillows and laidd two blankets across his legs "Shockwave," Blurr complained "This is unnecessary."
"I simply want you to be as comfortable as possible. You are correct, I don't know what it feels like, but I doubt the experience is enjoyable."
"It's not," Blurr grumbled, adjusting himself against the pillows "But I still think this is a bit excessive-" Blurr was interrupted by the pain in his chest. The next two hours were nothing but contractions that seared Blurr's spark, yelling at him that it was almost time to transfer. In that time Shockwave made sure everything was prepared for after transfer. The crib kept in Blurr's room had remained since Lightwave had stopped using it, so all Shockwave had to do was collect a blanket to wrap the new arrival in and make sure there was energon for his partner
Shockwave sat beside Blurr until it was time for Lightwave to come home. While it was risky to go out on the brink of night Shockwave knew that Lightwave could not get home alone. He transformed into a bot that looked like the average autobot, and picked up his daughter from school.
Lightwave was excited to see him but disappointed when she was banished to her room for the rest of the day.
Shockwave returned to Blurr's bed side. By then the blue racer was nearly ready for transfer. His chest plate was open and the sparkling, now half as big as his own, pulled away with all it's might. Blurr arched against the padding behind him. Shockwave placed the protoform against Blurr's chest. One of Blurr's hands clung to the sheet while the other squeezed Shockwave's claws as if the life depended on it.
Blurr's vents activated and switched on and off in desperate pants "Why the frag did you do this to me again!?" he screamed "Oh frag this! Frag this frag this frag this! You stupid fragger! How about the next time we interact you not knock me up like primus damn, stupid fragger!" he screamed, barely even comprehending the words coming from his mouth. He started to scream again but it was so quick that it was completely incomprehensible.
Transfer took nearly a half hour. When it was over a tiny spark-ling sat in Blurr's lap. Shockwave took it to examine it as Blurr fell back against the horde of pillows behind him, exhausted. Vents heaved on and off, his limbs were limp and his spark beat was low. His chest plate closed, and through the exhaustion, Blurr managed to huff a few words "What…is it?" he asked, his body unwilling to move. The first time he did this he had some sort of pain killers to assist in the transfer. This time, however, there were no such aids.
Shockwave cradled the new being in one arm. He played with it's fingers, examined it's optics and limbs and tried to determine whether it would be mech or femme "I believe it is a mech," said Shockwave after a moment. The color of this little thing was just filling in. It was a beautiful light teal, with dark navy blue detailing. Tiny horns stuck out from the side of it's head.
Blurr's finger's twitched. He wanted to reach out, but he couldn't. This caused Blurr great distress, he wanted to move, he wanted to see his baby "Let me see it" he sighed, struggling to get the words out. Shockwave denied the request "You can barely move. Rest now, you may see it later."
Blurr cringed with pain as he tried to move in protest "Shockwave!" he called as loud as he could, which wasn't very loud at all "Let me see my sparkling, let me…see—it" his head fell limp with the rest of his body and he fell into an uneasy recharge.
Shockwave wrapped the new being in a blanket and placed it carefully into the crib. He then turned to his partner, who was finally able to rest.
Transfers were not often, if ever, done alone or at home due to the enormous amount of strain it puts on the body. Blurr would be lucky if he recovered in a week, even with Blurr's advanced recovery.
Shockwave stayed in the apartment until morning when Blurr awoke, still in some pain and slightly limp, but aware enough now, and desperate to see his sparkling. He looked to Shockwave, who had remained awake the entire night "Shockwave," called the Carrier in a weak voice, laced with static "Can I see him now please. I want-I want to feed him. He needs to be fed."
Shockwave stood without a question and retrieved the new born for Blurr. The blue bot carefully took the child in shaky arms and held it up to the tiny nozzles, barely visible, sticking slightly from his chest. Shockwave, due to how weak Blurr still was, actually had to assist in latching the child. It suckled until Carrier fell back into recharge. At that point Shockwave returned the baby to the crib and waited for Blurr to wake up again.
At some point during the day Lightwave, who was no longer attending school, came in to meet the new arrival. She did not look particularly happy at first but her frown turned to a smile when Shockwave let her hold it. It was a short visit, afterwards Shockwave sent Lightwave back to her room and asked that she stay there until he called her out.
"They're going to be here, you know that. They're going to come for you." Said Blurr, still slightly dazed on the third day after transfer "You have to leave, you said you would leave."
"I will leave when you can lift yourself from the berth and stand on your own. I will not allow you to be alone any sooner."
"I can sit up."
"But can you walk?"
"They're going to start getting suspicious."
"Why? Lightwave isn't allowed in school any more-"
"How did you-?"
"And you have been called out of work every day this week. They are preparing to come here and take me when you told them I would be here, but by that time I will be gone."
Blurr let out a breath. After another moment he sat up, threw his legs over the berth, and went to stand up. His knee's failed at first, recovering from lack of use, but with the assistance of Shockwave Blurr made it out of the room and into the kitchen. By that time Blurr was already tired. He waved a hand, as if gesturing for something to come closer "Bring me the sparkling," he demanded, trying his hardest to pace himself but finding it difficult. Shockwave followed the command and retrieve the creature, going to wake up Lightwave as well "It needs a designation." Shockwave pointed out, handing the child to Blurr as Lightwave wandered sleepily into the room.
Blurr looked down at the little thing "Blue," he said quietly, brushing the smallest bit of dust from it's new face plate.
"Blue?" questioned Shockwave.
Lightwave went on her tippy toes to stare at the little thing in her Carrier's arms "I like Blue." She said "It's pretty."
Blurr smiled "Blue it is then," he looked up at Shockwave, looming over them "Any objections to that, Sire?" asked the Blue racer, knowing it didn't matter if he did.
"Whatever you wish." Was the soft reply.
Blurr smiled, looking down at his precious sparkling. While the sparklings he had come from a mech he could not precisely say he loved, his feelings from the sparkling were without question. He would do anything for them, he loved them more than his own life, no matter how much a burden they truly were. He would never allow such thoughts to sneak into his processor, nothing could make him feel otherwise.
Blurr began to feed the sparkling as Shockwave retrieved energon for everyone. They sipped mostly in silence, no one having anything to say. At the end of the morning Shockwave instructed Lightwave to go play in her room. She objected at first but soon came to obey her Sire, leaving her creators alone.
"Today is the last day I will be staying with you." Shockwave announced, as soon as she was gone "I simply wish to ensure your safety. I will leave tomorrow morning. Until then I will not leave your side. I have set up an energon stream for you. No one will know, and it should last you until you are able to get back on your pedes."
Blurr raised an optic ridge, confused "You hacked into the fuel line? How?"
"That is unimportant. I cannot leave my mate and sparklings without first knowing they will be taken care of."
Blurr was taken aback slightly "Thank you." He said quietly.
The rest of the day was spent together. It was the last day the tiny broken family would have together, and they made what they could of it, which wasn't much, but it was enough.
In the night Shockwave kissed his sparkling goodnight and returned to the berth room where Blurr was waiting.
The room was dim, the space being lit mostly by the city behind the half lidded blinds. Blurr sat propped up on one hand, displaying his frame sensually as he smirked and gestured for Shockwave to come closer. Shockwave approached the berth quickly. He set a knee on it as he drew Blurr into a deep and passionate kiss "I don't believe you're fit to interface in your current state," Shockwave protested making no real effort to stop what they were doing. His claws consumed Blurr's petite waist as the blue racer was eased back into the berth "I don't care what state I'm in," Blurr panted as claws tickled his valve "I want you, I want you inside of me one last time." He gasped as claws made contact with stiff desperate lips.
The interface was the most passionate moment the pair had ever shared. It was slow, filled with sweet nothings whispered in tired audio receptors, and beautiful moans that only made Shockwave want his partner even more. As the two approached the end, the sweet release of overload, Blurr's high pitched gasps grew and grew until Shockwave's name snuck itself in. Shockwave grunted softly, and, as he finally released, allowed words to slip out that Blurr never thought he'd hear "I love you," Breathed the larger as he released into the bot below him.
Blurr wrapped his arms around Shockwave's neck, keeping him there. He wanted his partner to stay there, just the way they were. He wanted to feel the large spike within him and hear the sweet phrases Shockwave whispered into his audio receptors. He wanted the feeling of completeness within his spark to remain, he wanted to raise sparklings who knew their Sire, and he wanted to forget what Shockwave was, and what he'd done.
A few tears slipped from Blurr's optics "I wish it was different." He whispered blindly "Why did it have to be you? Why did I have to fall in with you?" he whispered.
Shockwave graced his mates waist once more with light claws before he sat up "Lets not think of such things now," he whispered "Allow me to pleasure you for now, you needn't worry about anything more than what we have right at this moment."
So that is what Blurr did. He needed no convincing.
Shockwave pleasured his mate until Blurr fell into recharge. Shockwave fell in as well, soon after they ended. He wrapped a protective arm around his mate, savoring very remaining moment they had.
Deep into the night Shockwave laid awake beside his slumbering mate, deep into a peaceful recharge halfway under the thin blanket. He looked at the stunning figure and thought about just how beautiful it was and how much he truly cared for the creature. It was a more every time he thought about it.
After a few moments he carefully slipped from the berth and made his way to the sparkling sleeping on the other side of the room.
Shockwave looked into the crib and saw the sleeping figure. The little mech looked so calm, so peaceful. Shockwave knew, though, that this little thing would bring a great burden upon his mate, even if Blurr acted as though it wouldn't. It was another mouth to feed, another education to pay for, another creature he'd have to keep track of alone while working a job that took up most of his time. He'd need a sparkling sitter and other necessities. Shockwave would not be there to assist at all so the Carrier was left stressed and underfunded.
Although, all of that could be avoided if Shockwave were to take the child.
He had resources and other such "luxuries" the Decepticons were well funded and in need of another operative, even if he had to grow into it. Taking his sparkling would be taking part of a burden off both creator's shoulders, although Shockwave's less so, for he had very few at the moment.
The Decepticons were regrouping. They had a ship, a base, a plan to get Megatron out of prison and a plan to start the war again. They would win this time.
Shockwave carefully slipped his hand under the baby's head and end and lifted it from the crib, cradling it close to him in one arm. "I am sorry my love," he apologized to the recharging Carrier sprawled out elegantly on the berth. Shockwave ran a light claw against his mates peaceful face "I hope someday you may forgive me," he whispered before changing form and silently sneaking away from the apartment with no intention of returning.
The next morning Blurr found himself alone, not uncommon but always slightly un-easing. Shockwave had already left long ago. He laid down for a while and was about to go into recharge when he thought it best to check on the baby. With a bit of effort the new Carrier lifted himself from the berth and wandered over to the crib. He peaked in and found it empty, jumping him awake and to full attention. He leaned over the small berth and looked in again, baffled at the missing sparkling. He looked under the crib and around the room before running to Lightwave's room as she was just beginning to awake "Lightwave," he started frantically "Did you take your brother out of the crib?"
The little girl shook her head "No," she started tiredly confused "Why?"
Blurr didn't answer. Instead he ran out into the living room and paused, realizing what had happened. As the realization came so did the anger and concern with it. He growled "Shockwave!" he screamed in rage then slamming a few fists into the wall "You stupid fragger!" he swore punching the wall again. Despite knowing the Decepticon was long gone Blurr screamed for Shockwave to bring the sparkling back. He yelled and smacked things off counters and flipped the coffee table in rage continuing to scream as if talking to the maniacal Decepticon until his vocalizer ran dry with his energy. He slipped to his knees, facing the wall and smacking a weak fist against it "Bring him back," he cried quietly "Bring him back."
Lightwave, who had been peaking in from the hallway, emerged from her hiding spot.
"Carrier," she said in a small voice, coming up behind her distressed carrier "W-what happened? Why are you crying?"
Blurr regained himself. He took a deep breath, whipped his eyes and stood up, turning to his little sparkling "You're, uh," he didn't know how to tell the little girl that her Sire had left and taken her brother with him. But he wanted to because he wanted Lightwave to grow up disliking her Sire as much as Blurr did now.
"You're, uh-" he started again, taking a knee before the sparkling "You're Sire left this morning."
"He leaves every morning," Lightwave pointed out "He'll come back some time."
Blurr shook his head "No Lightwave, he's not coming back this time. He took your little brother with him, sweetspark, he's not coming back this time."
Lightwave looked confussed "No, he was here last night. H-he always comes back." It was as though the little femme's nightmare was suddenly coming true.
Blurr shook his head "I'm sorry honey, h-he's not coming back this time."
Tears welled in the little femme's optics "You're lying," she accused, stepping back a bit "He always come back."
"Lightwave-"
"He always comes back! Always! He'll be back! And if he doesn't come back then you must have done something wrong! This is all you're fault! What did you do!" she was nearly hysterical, backing away from her Carrier.
"Lightwave," Blurr eased "Lightwave, please, calm down."
"No! You did this! I hate you!" screamed the little girl before running off and locking herself in her room.
Blurr sighed as he stood up. He didn't go after her. She wasn't going to be reasoned with right now, not in this state. She needed a little bit of time to cry on her own.
Late into the night Blurr sat in the kitchen. He couldn't recharge so he sat in the dark and drank a cup of energon, trying to empty his thoughts and keep himself blank minded. Almost as soon has he achieved this a small sound interrupted his oblivion.
"Carrier," the small voice came from the living room. Blurr looked to see Lightwave standing in the middle, her eyes facing the ground.
"Lightwave," Blurr sighed, having believed she was already recharging. He put down his energon cube and turned in his seat to face her "What are you doing up so late?" he asked, putting out his arms as she approached and lifting her into his lap. Lightwave kept her optic down, fiddling with her fingers as tears threatened to fall "I-I can't recharge," she cried, releasing the tears and finally looking up at her Carrier. She turned onto her knees and wrapped her arms around her Carrier's neck "I'm sorry," she cried into his shoulder "I don't hate you, I just want my Sire back,"
Blurr wrapped his arms around the distressed little creature and held her tight. He allowed her to get out all of her sorrows without interruption. This was all she needed right now. All she wanted was for both Creators to be there. What she had was her Carrier.
Blurr would have to make do with what he had. Make up for everything she'd be missing.
