I know it's been a really long while since I wrote the first chapter, I wanted some reviews guys *.* please ;)! I've been on vacations with my family so it's been hard to have time to write but here it is ;)


I went upstairs, weakly but taking steps by steps. I saw Damon's room with his door open. He was staring at this big window, like when the time he gave me his blood so I could live, guess it's actually the same situation now.

Even though the door was closed I knocked, so he could know I was there, well I think he knew already, vampires can sense it right?

"Elena, just leave." He was still with his back turned on me, but is voice was stiff and hard to hear, he really didn't want me there, but as stubborn as I am, I walked in.

"Damon, I've already made my choice." Now he turned around to face me, but he kept the distance between us.

"So, I guess Stefan respected your decision to get killed, again." He made it all clear with that. I knew Stefan was my choice, I knew he respected my decision even though I would die. Things with Damon are totally different. He thinks he is used of me hating him. So he thought he could live with that, knowing he would save me.

"He didn't mention his opinion about it." I said coming closer of Damon, I was holding myself onto his bed, I was still feeling the weakness.

"yea… silence is consent." Has he said this he took a gulp of his bourbon.

"Well I'm glad he did." I crossed my arms over my chess.

"Whenever is your decision to make, you are always happy about it. Well good news Elena being selfish isn't just in you." He was referring to Katherine. I understood his reaction, but obviously he didn't realize it yet that I was going to transition.

"Damon, I'm going to complete my transition." When I said this, Damon interrupted immediately his drinking time.

"You what?" He approached me in anger, I thought he would be more happy about it.

"I thought you'd be more happy about it, guess I was wrong." I turned around and has I was about to leave Damon's room, he grabbed my arm, making me face him.

"Elena-I… look, I'm sorry. I am happy , my mind is just having a lot of surprises today." He smiled genuinely. I loved so much when he smiled that way for me. His good side suited him.

"No. I am sorry.." I grabbed his hand on mine has we stared at each other's eyes.

I was being selfish, I never listen to what you really feel, and I'm sorry about that. I was taken by surprise, but after hearing Caroline's words, I understood." My head was looking at the floor, I was ashamed of putting Damon in this situation. All of them.

"Vampire Barbie sometimes knows how to say the right thing, or maybe give a speech." I smiled at him, and he smiled at me, more like smirking, and we stand there, staring at each other's eyes. When Caroline interrupted the moment. "The moment?" I can't believe I consider this A MOMENT.

"I'm sorry to interrupt you guys, but Elena kind of needs to transition, and we are running out of time. We will be waiting downstairs."

I nodded to Caroline has she disappeared in her vampire speed. I was still holding Damon's hand actually torturing Damon's hand, I was squeezing it.

"Hey, you are not going to regret this are you?"

I smiled at him once again.

"I'm just nervous."

"I can tell." He said gesturing, with his hand squeezing mine back.

"Let's just go."

We head downstairs, has Damon maintained one hand on my back to make balance on my weak legs.

Everyone were standing now, at the living room, staring at me expecting the unexpected, the thing that I was about to become.

"Elena, you have to feed on human blood… do you prefer the blood bags or"

I just knew exactly what Caroline was thinking. Of course I wouldn't feed on an innocent person that was the last thing I needed. But I knew in her eyes, telling me she would always support me no matter what would be my decision.

"I won't' feed on an innocent person Caroline." I interrupted her, her chin fell as usual, I mean whenever she got excited and then we say something to break her enthusiasm, it was kind of funny to watch her.

"hum.. Ok, then I'm going downstairs you stay here with Bon, Damon, Stefan and Jer, and I'll be back in a second." I knew her between the lines. What she meant was: "I'm going to leave you with them, so they can tell you their final words, before you become a none human Elena "

I just nodded at her, forcing myself to sit on the couch, while Damon set next to me, looking at his hands. I could see he wasn't completely sure at my choice.

I started to talk, very slowly expecting some bad reactions from all of them.

"I..I a…This Is all my fault, I know you tried so hard, to see me alive, and now…I'm already dead." I looked down, ashamed of everything.

"It isn't your fault, you are still going to be my sister Elena." Jeremy approached me crouching near the couch where I was sitting. He gave me a simple smile, that somehow gave me comfort, after all I was doing this mainly because of him.

"Thank you Jer." I gave him one of my smiles.

"Yes, and… look at Caroline, she's still our Caroline, normal but less annoying Caroline." Bonnie approached me also trying to give me comfort, but I could see this was the worst thing for her. I mean she did everything to protect me including risking the life of the ones she loved, it wasn't fair.

"I'm sorry Bon, for everything." I gave her an awkward smile while she just nodded.

I could see Stefan was looking from the main door. He was keeping the distance. I believed he wanted to give me space.

"Hey Stefan." I pointed to him giving another smile. I think all these smiles were for gratitude .

When I called him he approached me, getting closer.

"I just want you to know I'll still love you no matter what." He smiled at me. I knew I chose him, I knew Stefan would always love me, but would he be next to me drinking human blood? Cause I'm sure has hell that will not going to happen. I know Damon was helping him with the blood and all, but he loves me so I guess it gets a lot worse.

"Are you going to be capable of helping me with this Stefan, cause if you don't…"

"I am, but I think we will need Damon's help for that." As soon as Stefan said this, Damon got up from the couch and went in front of Stefan.

"Oh no, brother, I'm leaving." At this point I was as shocked as Stefan, how could he? He told me he was… I don't understand, I mean I can't just let him go. Not now.

"Wait what? Why?" Stefan was confused, when he said this he looked right at me, expecting me to say something.

"Did you choose me? " Stefan approached me while Damon looked away.

"yes, I did, but what does that have to do with Damon leaving?" Damon now looked at me ready to say something but not really sure if he could.

"Stefan and I made a promise, if you chose one of us the other one would leave town for good." My heart literally fell. How could they do this to me? But then I think It would be selfish to ask one of them to stay knowing I would be all happy and the other awfully unhappy.

"But I need both of you in this stage of my life." I looked like I was about to cry, and no doubt I was.

"No, Elena since you let me go, you no longer need me, besides Stefan's deserves you better." Wait when did I heard this before? Never mind I guess I just… I have this feeling somehow long away I've heard Damon saying such an identical thing to me. But it wasn't that true at all, Damon got my heart, so did Stefan.

"No, no, Damon you can't. You shouldn't have made this without me, I need you, remember you told you would never leave me again. When Stefan weren't you were the only one standing there for me, how can you say that?" I was really crying so hard, and then I reached Damon's hand in mine, not caring if Stefan was there, actually he just stared at us. Damon didn't say anything for seconds which seemed like minutes. Damon wiped away my tears stroking my cheek.

"Elena, I said I would never leave and, I'm sure you will never forget me, but I just wish you'll be happy." He gave me one of the rarest smiles of his.

I decided to step away from Damon. I was too hurt to be near him.

Damon went upstairs, probably making his suitcase to leave.

"I'm here, guys!" Caroline went , shaking a blood bag on her hands, and smiling to me.


Some seconds after I tasted that blood, I couldn't stop even if my mind said so. Stefan went a lot of times, outside to breathe, and then coming next to me. Bonnie, went upstairs to make my necklace for sun protection, while Car and Jer set next to me along with Stefan.

Damon was nowhere to be seen, I was calmer, but the blood rushing through my veins, was pure adrenaline. My fangs had already come out, and so has my bloody eyes, I was terrifying. But Caroline made some joke, about how sexy I looked with the fangs, trying to make me feel better.

"Where's Damon?" I asked Stefan while he gave me a worried look.

" I checked a few seconds ago, his clothes are missing, he left."

"Oh… I a…Can I go upstairs I'm tired?" Bad for me I was a terrible liar, but Stefan trusted I was tired. What I really felt when I knew Damon was gone, was some mix of sadness and betrayal, I knew I couldn't get him stuck in this house knowing I would be in Stefan's bed, I knew but I couldn't let myself feel, broken inside. Damon meant something to me.

I got out of the couch and went upstairs, I saw Damon's bedroom and decided to come in.

Damon's bedroom was exactly how it was for the two last times I came here, both of them not so good. First with Rose problem, then me apologizing about hitting him.

But I remember Damon has a free spirit person and that transmits all over his room. It's so light and big, It's windows shows a beautiful view and his bed… well I can't prevent myself from thinking about how many girls he could bring to this bed. Looks huge, enough space for a great night, has Damon would probably say to me. Far from that it's pretty cozy and it has fireplace, and books. Yes books, I remember the "Gone with the wind "book, it only shows how much Damon is different, he is far from being a monster.

Suddenly I feel this urge to rest in his bed and smell him, just give me a memory of him. It only passed like what? 3 hours since he left, but it feels like an eternity. He just gives light and happiness to this big, big house. Seems haunted without him.

When I lay in his bed I feel a strange material rubbing in my back, I get up and I find this creased paper, when I open it, I see a musical score, and the lyrics of it between the notes

What I wished you could see

Was the sad of me

Was it the lonely nights

That brings us together

Was it the death of me

That you are still in here

Here…

Here…In my heart

The lyrics were beautiful indeed.

I tried to read between the lines has it said on the bottom: "from the caveman to the warrior princess". I didn't even think for a second this would be for anyone else than me, even if it was I couldn't accept it, cause either way he couldn't leave without saying goodbye. This was the way he said goodbye. My tears stained the paper but the lyrics remained intact.

I thought about sleeping here. Has I bring the paper next to my heart I fall asleep.

"Elena I need to say something, you just need to hear it" I feel myself getting colder so I push the blanket on Damon's bed. Another nightmare if you can consider it a nightmare, it's actually comforting, I'm having these dreams since I turned, whenever I fell asleep at the couch or in the chair, or right this moment. Yea I've been a little sleepy.

" I love you, and that's because I love that…I can't be selfish with you."

"...I don't deserve you but my brother does." At this moment I wake up, feeling dizzy, what does this dream means? Il' be more explicit to you. In this dream there's Damon holding my vervain necklace, sounds so weird, if someone told me but, he is confessing me his love and kissing my forehead instead of my lips, which is so not Damon. Sometimes I get the weird sensation that this happened. Wait…Whenever a person turns to a vampire they get to remember all that a vampire made them forget…no it can't be, why would he? it isn't like something that could destroy our friendship it could actually be really convenient to him.

I remember this, after we killed Elijah, I remember coming home and dress the same pajama and getting in to bed, what happened between that it's blurred but now I can see clearer.

It wasn't a dream.


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