It feels like the dawn of the dead
Like bombs going off in my head
Never a moment of rest
It's Monday morning and Draco doesn't want to get up, doesn't want to go to class. Because going to class means having to see him and being constantly reminded of how big of a mistake it was to give him up. Draco forces himself out of bed, wincing as his head pounds furiously. He shuffles his way to the shower, hoping the steam will make his head feel less like it's going to explode.
The water pours over him and he's immediately reminded of the showers he and Harry shared together in the Prefect's bathroom.
There's no escape. Memories of you are everywhere, Harry. Even now, you never give me a moment of peace.
Nothing kills more than to know
That this is the end of the road
And I know I gotta let go
Breakfast is a disappointment. Draco keeps hoping that Harry will look at him. That their eyes will meet and everything will be forgiven, erased. That they'll be back to what they were just days before. But Harry doesn't look at him. He sits with his back to the table and Draco feels more hurt than he can remember feeling for a very long time.
It's over. You don't want me anymore. I made a mistake but you don't care. You're done with me. And I have to learn how to let go. Do you have any idea how hard that is, Harry?
Blaise asks him if he's alright and Draco says that he is. He makes an excuse about having a headache and leaves early just so he doesn't have to deal with torture of staring at the back of Harry's head and knowing that the Gryffindor isn't going to turn around and flash him that dazzling smile that had made Draco fall for him in the first place.
It's not that easy for me
To say goodbye
Everything in me wants you
Back in my life
In Defense he sits at the front of the class, just so he doesn't have to worry about Harry sitting in front of him. He wants to turn around and see if the Gryffindor is looking at him, wants to know if those beautiful emerald eyes are fixed on him. But a voice in his mind tells him he'll only be disappointed if he does.
He's done with you, Draco. You ruined everything, you stupid fucking git. And now you have to pay the price.
But Draco would pay anything to have Harry back.
Anything.
Can't let you go
