so i recieved the courage to wright another chapter hopefully you like it!

i always wanted my story also to focuse on Ryan's relationships with his friends and this time the friendship that i always wanted him and Calleigh to have!

i really hope that you like it


Strange and confused

"Ryan! Watch it!"

Ryan was too busy hating himself that he didn't noticed how he almost made Calleigh spill her coffee on him.

"I'm so sorry Cal apparently my head is disconnected from the rest of my body today"

"You have the right to considering the latest events" she sad giving him her coffee, without a doubt he needed it more then her

"G'd bless you" he sad while they walked they towards the lab

"There also your other problems" she sad reminding him that she knew his secrets

"Shhhh the walls are listening to you" he warned her "you are the only one who knows about my problems and I want to keep it that way"

"But…"

"Moving on… next subject" he sad making it clear that this theme was closed

"If that's what you want" Calleigh gave up "let's talk about the apology that you deserve from me"

"About?"

"Come on Ryan don't play stupid"

"I'm not playing believe me" Ryan sad seriously "I'm completely stupid today, just one big idiot"

"Stop it" she begged "I'm trying to apologize here!"

"There is no need to I've already told you that" he sad emptying his cop of coffee "you were doing our job Cal, I'm the one who got off track"

"But you were right and I…"

"Followed the evidence like you supposed to" he completed her sentence "it's not your fault that they lead you in the wrong direction"

"But you went on the right direction remember?" Calleigh was determined to feel guilty "and I didn't listen to you"

"Me being right had nothing to do with working with evidence like CSI suppose to" he sad throwing the empty cop into the trashcan "it was obsession, this girl was at the same age as my niece and went to the library that she goes to I just got lucky that my obsession didn't got me killed and that the girl is safe now"

He had a point Calleigh knew that but the guilt refused to go away.

"Look" he sad like he was reading her mind "if it so important for you to hear it you forgiven even though there is nothing to forgive for, the most important now is to find this guy"

"Ok" Calleigh gave up on trying making herself look guilty "I'll call Frank to check if there is some movement with his credit cards it's a long shot but still"

"I'll go to the big brother also known as Dave to see if he got something, oh and Cal?"

"Huh?" she asked turning around

"If Natalia asks about me just tell her that I died ok?" he sad "and make it look like I suffered so she at least feel sorry for me despite my stupidity"

Calleigh sighed quietly "here we go again" she thought, looking at her friend desperately, when it came to face criminals he has one of the bravest people in the world, but when it came to face his feelings for Natalia there was a very big problem.

"What happened now?" she asked and Ryan couldn't help but think that she sounded a little bit like his mother.

"Well remember how you always sad that this will explode some day?" he sad looking at her I told you so face

"Yeah and?" she asked preparing to hear the worse

"Well it was very close to happen today, hey don't look at me like that" he sad looking now at her I knew it face "you sad it yourself I've got things going on right now and my feelings and my brain not speaking the same language"

Calleigh sighed again "well you saved yourself today?" she asked

"Yeah" he sad sadly "but now she probably think that I lost it"

"Well you can always send flowers you know just this time sign your name on the card"

"Calleigh shhhhhh" he sad looking around in panic to see if somebody listening "Walls! Listening! What did I told you!"

She walked away smiling, she was the only one who knew about his feelings for Natalia and he wanted it to stay that way until he dies.

That flowers reference was to remind him what happened on the last Valentine's Day, Natalia was depressed and he could see it, he always knew when she was upset and he heighted it, she felt lonely and unloved and all he wanted is to make her feel better without revealing his feeling, so he send her an a anonymous huge bouquet of her favorite flowers an signed "from somebody who will always love you!"

And somehow Calleigh realized that it was his doing, she always tried to convince him to "come clean" warning him that someday it will blow up "in a big boom!" but he ignored her knowing deep inside that she is right.

This was a day that just made him fell more strange and confused with every second that passed.

If he only knew what was yet to come….


I cant wait for the 9.02 episode I feel like there will be alot of Ryan in it

mayby he finally gets the spotlight that he deserves