Soooooooo I guess my fears were right xwx I kept rewriting to make it not seem like Ria liked Luka (cause at first I'm like "Jesus, this could so be mistaken for Luka Ria Love time"). So to clear that up...no...Ria doesn't like Luka like that here~ xwx I tried to make it clear i swear Xwx So enough rambling. Now writing o.o
Butterflies in your stomach.
Really that term was light, nothing compared to the sensation wreaking havoc inside him at that time. Yuki clutched the curtains as he locked eyes with those breath-taking silver eyes that looked so pained now. He had to stop himself before it was too late and he got lost in them, so he turned away, backing away from the window until the back of his legs hit the bed. Clapping a hand over his mouth he sat back, slumped forward.
His chest hurt.
He felt sick.
Tears stung at his eyes.
His entire body shaking.
His mind was clouded over, his thoughts hazed beyond comprehension.
He could only think of one thing.
"Luka..." That name flowed off his lips so perfectly it hurt. All the time Luka had been beside him. and he had never paid enough attention to figure it out. If he had just looked a bit closer it would have been more than obvious. He had been a girl. Luka always treated him differently, doing anything and everything for him happily, comforting him when he had hit his lowest points with out complaint, even willing to put his life at risk and cancel the contract he had assumed was the only thing that held Luka to him.
"I'm sorry..." Yuki removed the hand that had been covering his mouth, opting to grip at his chest instead. It pained him to imagine how Luka must have felt the entire time he was beside him. Never could he cross any lines. He had been forgotten and he never let it slip of what they had been to eachother, likely to protect him.
What pained him even more was the thought that perhaps Luka's feelings had changed and it wasn't that hard for the duras. Maybe as so much time passed, that love once so strong faded. Not to mention he was a boy now. Perhaps he hadn't told him for another reason, just wanting to put that relationship in the past where it belonged.
He would remain by his side no matter what, Yuki knew that much. God's Light just wasn't sure he could have him so close anymore without knowing.
'Sleep...' a sweet, female voice inside his head called.
Tears were flowing freely down his face now. For the first time since coming to tokyo he felt trully alone. Absentmindedly he ended up curled into a ball beneathe his blankets, face buried into the pillows. Without warnign he was overcome by sleep, his mind and body being exhausted from the stress they were bein put through.
'He will be there...' it spoke softly, almost reassuring him within his dreams of the truth he already.
'What will he do?' Luka couldn't help but mentally ask himself. Would Yuki continue to avoid him, or, by some blessing of gods, would they beeven closer?
Another day had passed and the scene of the hallway had barely changed. Luka could tell by the way others looked at him that his appearance must have been dreadful. He had returned to his place infront of Yuki's door quickly, finding that being alone, for once, was worse than being surrounded by others.
He had lost Yuki to death before. When he found Yuki He wasn't the same, not remembering nor loving him as She had, but he could still be the closest to him. He could bare through it all just knowing Yuki would be there again, but not anymore. Yuki wasn't there now, likely unable to even look at him if he ever emerged from the baracade he made of his room, maybe even hated him. Yuki had been the world and more to Luka, and now that world was shattered. The searing in his chest had dulled, numbing itself until Luka was half sure Yuki herself(himself?) had been a cruel dream and he was back in Infernus when he had no reason to live other than living itself. Everything was hopeless...
Just when he was ready to open his eyes to a baren wasteland though, he heard shuffling feet and the quiet creak of an opening door. His attention was ripped from such torubling thoughts and his eyes shot open to see Yuki standing in the doorway. He was on his feet in a second, taking a step forward before he stopped. At first he was glad, his hopes rising, but then he noticed how Yuki's eyes seemed to fall anywhere but on him, avoiding him at all cost.
He had gotten the aswer he'd been awaiting. This was how things were going to stay.
Luka let himself step back, his back hitting the wall that was likely the only thing keeping him on his feet. His face stayed void, eyes hidden behind black bangs as they focusedon the floor, arms crossed over his chest, hands gripping the fabric of his shirt until he was sure he was leaving holes in the sleeves.
"Yuki!" Tooko was the first to throw herself onto Yuki. He didn't fight her, seeing how tears were already overflowing from her eyes as she latched onto him.
"Yukkieeeeeeee...!" Sodom was shortly after, launching himself up so he hung from Yuki's neck, feet a few inches off the ground. Weak, Yuki began to fall forward, caught quickly by a number of hands belonging to the zweilt.
"Yuki?" Tooko whispered with her worry more than clear.
"I'm fine" he assured her and without looking Luka knew Yuki was probably wearing one of those forced smiles that only made everyone worry more. "I just need some of Katsumi's good cooking" he tried to explain, to which Tooko only nodded. She let go of him, pulling Sodom back along with her.
"Let's go get some breakfast then" she offered, gently taking hold of Yuki's hand, trying to go along with his act that nothing was wrong. Just looking at him she could tell otherwise. Even if it had just been a day he looked worse than he ever had, even after finding out Reiga's identity. He had to be a mess of confused emotions. Now she understood how Luka had been able to bare not letting him know. Seeing Yuki like this must have been a torture far worse.
With a small pull she lead Yuki down the hall, followed shortly after by the others, leaving only Luka behind. The duras felt when one by one they all glanced back at them, invisioning the looks of pity they must have had on their faces and his frown deepened.
He listened until all the echoing footsteps left the hall before finally pushing off the wall with an uncharacteristic stumble. He caught himself quickly but not before his stomach churned, leaving him dizzyheaded. Emotions he had never known before Yuki were going to be the death of him now.
Figuring he had some time, he himself headed down the hall towards the bathroom. Once there he started shower, letting the water heat up as he undressed. Not paying attention to how hot the water was before stepping inside, it seared his skin, a fact that hardly bothered him now. He stood under the flow of water, trying to focus on each drop that slid along his reddening flesh, anything but Yuki, who seemed to always take over his mind whether he wished him to or not.
"Luka...Dont forget that"
How he longed to hear that sweet, tender voice.
Yuki's soft hand cupped his cheek, fingers gently gliding over his own white skin.
He could die happily with just that touch.
His eyes were locked with hazel ones of the woman who had aved him from the meaningless existance he had known.
Luka wanted to see the same feeling in those eyes once more.
"I love you"
Luka bit his lips until the taste of copper made itself known, alerting him that his fangs had pierced his skin. He reached his hand up to inspect it only to find it already bleeding. The duras hadn't even realized he'd had both his hands clentched into fists much too tight, claw-like nails digging into his palms. He was completely numbed. Nothing compared to the sensation of broken shards of his heart ripping apart his chest, inabling him to breath correcting or even swallow.
"I'm here.."
How ironically distant those words seemed to be now.
So not much hapening this chapter X.x Main stuff will happen next chapter? Or at least begin to. Depends if I wanna be evil and leave a cliffhanger~
Not a lot to review on but its still appreciated? o.o I'll update soon o might makeanother chapte for another fic forst though X_x
