{INTERLUDE}

I was watching a romcom with Karkat when a terribly sad seen came on, making both of us cry severely.

The jade blooded matesprit was holding his rust blooded flush mate when the village mob finally caught up to them, teariung them from each others embrace, then they started torturing the jade blood for thinking that he could have love, right before his rust blooded matesprit used his psychic powers to lift the mob and clash the together, killing all members of the mob. I was crying when the couple hugged at their reunion but when everything happened I was finding it hard to not make a sound , I was crying so hard.

When the movie ended with the jade blood culling himself to be with the rust blood he loved in death, Karkat and I were hugging each other for comfort while we cried. That was the saddest fucking movie I have seen.

Karkat had his face buried in my chest while we tried to compose ourselves. I didn't find anything sexual about the embrace as I saw Karkat like Dolorosa saw Signless, as a lusus sees its grub.

When he eventually pulled away, my black shirt was soaked with his bright red tears. He got up and took out the beautiful piece of heartache.

"Is there anything else you wanna watch?" He was always so kind to me, he didn't even yell when it was just the two of us, he tried to be quiet with his loud voice. I shook my head no. All that crying wore me out, all I could think of doing is sleeping.

Karkat saw how tired I was because he offered his recoopracoon for me to sleep in. I declined signing that I didn't hear voices when I slept but he did and that he needed it more.

"Fine. You want some pillows and blankets?" I nod yes. I'm far too tired to even attempt to go to my respiteblock. I lay down on the couch and pass out before Karkat gets back.

I sat crying over the loss of my matesprit, Psiionic. I was so red for him that Signless's blood was dark in comparison. I had cried so much that I thought my shirt would be stained with my but it wasn't. My blue jeans should also be stained, but like my shirt, wasn't.

I look up to see Psiionic watching me with a worried expression. I clumsily run to him. I wrap my arms around him, never wanting to let go. I look at his face.

"Psii! I'm so glad to see you! I'm so sorry I left, I didn't mean to. I'm so sorry, I'm sorry. Please forgive me." My voice is a whisper at the end. I want him, so much, to forgive me. I stare at him pleadingly.

"II'm thorry but II can't hear you." he apologized. He couldn't hear me? I fell to my knees in front him, crying more.

"H-hey, calm down. IIt'th going to be okay, juth thettle down." Psiionic said as he wrapped his arms around me. Psii couldn't comfort crying people worth a shit, he never could, but it was so nice to be in his arms again.

I tried over and over to tell him I was sorry for what happend and he still couldn't hear me.

"HEY WAKE UP!" Karkat yelled as he shook me. I sat up straight, feeling tears roll down my face.

"Were you having a nightmare?" he asks in a calm yet worried voice.

'Yes but I don't remember it, I just know it was sad.' I sign. I can't remember what it was about, even though it just happened.

"Do you want something to drink?"

'Yeah. I'll get it myself.' I get up after wiping away my tears and head to his personal food preparation block.

That was the first of many sad dreams that always disappear from my memory when I wake up.

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{END INTERLUDE}