CHAPTER 2

'Knock Knock!' The sleep in my eyes is heavy, too heavy to even open them so I lift my hand from under the bed covers and wipe away the gunk. My eyes open, i'm not in my room, it wasn't a dream, it was all real. My heart becomes extremely slow and I roll onto my back.

"Bella can I come in?" Sirius' voice comes from behind the door, I grunt and roll back onto my stomach stuffing my face into the fluffy pillow, "yeah, come in," my voice is muffled by the pillow, suffocating all my breath from me but whats the point in moving, if I die atleast I would be able to see Snape again. 'Snape wouldn't want you to be like this' I thought, then I know its the truth and roll onto my back again. The door opens and Sirius walks in wearing his pajamas as well, a pair of red shorts and a - oh, no teeshirt..

"Come on, wake up and come have breakfast, you have to eat something, if you loose anymore weight we have another problem." Open to the conversation now from properly waking up, I sit and crawl out of bed then look at Sirius.

"But i'm not hungry." He shows a cheeky and cocky smile, "then i'll force it down your throat." He winks at me, puts his arm around my shoulder and walks me down the two flights of stairs I walked up yesterday. There is noise coming out of the kitchen, the people who were here yesterday are still, I turn around to Sirius, pull him back one step by the arm and whisper "you didn't tell me everyone was here still, I don't want them to see me like this."

"But you look beautiful when your tired," I smile and at him and blush, "ah, thanks.." Sirius pulls me down the step again, "now come on!" He walks into the kitchen and Kreature hops past the doorway with a gleaming pot in his little hands. I take a deep breath and walk in the kitchen trying to hold back the tears, Remus shyly smiles at me from the closest end of the table, Harry oddly stands when he sees me and leaves, 'what did I do?' I sit next to Remus taking Harry's place, "good morning." My voice was almost a whisper, croaky from sleep and unstable like I would cry at any moment without notice, I just hope no-one will bring up yesterday as a talking subject. Remus nods at me politely and MadEye taps him on the shoulder harshly, he turns around in his chair with his head still down, a shameful gesture.

"Are you going to explain to me why one of our best Aurors was nearly killed yesterday?" MadEye lives up to his name, his left glass eye scans round the room in search of something to examine, and unluckily lands on me.

Remus sighs, "did you expect me to let him shoot me instead?" MadEye turns attention to me, "Shoot you?.. Bellatrix, best you leave."

"I don't mind, she can stay. And yes shoot me, he had a muggle invention with him in the forest last night." A muggle invention, I think back trying to remember what the name is, "a gun?" Remus nods, "yes, one of those."

"He was hunting then?"

My curiosity gets the better of me, "hunting what?" Silence beckons over the kitchen and Remus turns to me with a weary face, "werewolves."

"Oh, i'm so sorry, I - I didn't know." How embarrassing, I look at my bare feet and fidget with my thumbs, "its alright, your not the first one." Was that supposed to be an accepted apology? I don't know.

"Remus, Tony Seatium is important to the Order at this time!" Kreature jumps at the loudness of Professor Moody's voice, "come on Moody, give him some slack. Its not like he can help it, and if he could then he would be just a head on a wall." Sirius leans against the back of my chair. A head on a wall? People actually hunt werewolves, for trophies? Thats horrible! I make my hand into a fist and grit my teeth, MadEye grunts, "hmm, at least he doesn't know who you are Remus." He hobbles out the room on his walking stick and apparates.

"That was cheery." Sirius returns to making his breakfast so i'm left with Remus. Wait was MadEye talking about The Order Of The Phoenix? I always wanted to join against Voldemort's plight, maybe now will be the time since my birthday is tomorrow. Even better, seeing as Snape was a part of The Order, I could take over his place, that is if I get accepted.

"Hey Remus," He lifts his head, "yes?"

"I have always wanted to and now seems like the right time, so would I be able to j-"

"-Bella, I know what your going to say and its not the best idea." I frown, "why can't I join?" Remus shakes his head as Sirius walks over to me, "you want to join The Order?" I nod and Sirius looks off into space thinking about my position in The Order Of The Phoenix, his pupils dilate again and he joins back into the conversation, a one way conversation that is. Remus is still yelling about how i'm not to join and how dangerous it is.

"Remus, calm down! I already know all of this, Severus told me about his role a few months ago. I was the one who healed him when he came home from that massacre just outside of The Three Broomsticks last week." Wow, its just gone so fast, last week Severus was fine - after I healed him of course - but still, he was living. Now, he's gone, and by my only suspicion, Voldemort's followers had turned against him.

"Come on Remus, it makes perfect sense. You need someone to spy on Voldemort and hand information across to The Order, and I can do that." Sirius shuts his eyes, "there is a major problem though.." I stop, one obstacle can't completely take my idea off of the table not matter how big it is.. Can it?

"Bella.. Voldemort found out about Severus spying for Dumbledore and The Order, they killed him.." I stop, sit for a moment and a single tear runs down my cheek, Remus leans over the table to put his hand on my shoulder, "Sirius, too soon." Sirius nods, "i'm sorry Bella," and walks out the room. Another tear runs down my face and I wipe it away before I make the situation anymore uncomfortable.

"You and Severus were close weren't you?" He sighs, "last year when you moved in with him I thought you hated him." I chuckle at all the different ways me and Severus had to annoy each other.

"I have to admit, we weren't very friendly when we first met. But after I fell in the frozen lake things changed I guess." Remus removes his hand from my shoulder, "the lake in the forbidden forest?" I nod, "I have many memories there." Remus laughs and I just smile at him, guessing that this is a private joke, so I won't ask.

"Look Bella, you can join The Order - if, your sure about it and I have permission that I take all responsibility for your actions.. And, if you ever need any help or advice that you come straight to me with no hesitation."

"Remus, you can't do that-"

"-Its the only way i'll let you join." Remus stares me in the eyes, is it legal that a gentleman like him can blackmail? I guess so..

Another tear runs down my face and I sigh, "okay, anything to join.. Why do you have to be so difficult?" Remus stands, wipes the tear off my cheek and walks to the doorway then stops without turning, "because i'll feel better knowing your safe with me." He walks off and I smile thinking 'Remus is a good guy, why didn't I see that earlier?' Still off in my thoughts I wait until the meeting later today, hopefully I can talk to Sirius then.

The crowded space around me closes in and I push my way out of the crowd in the kitchen around the table, I never knew there are so many members committed to The Order Order Of The Phoenix. Before everyone arrived I went to talk to Harry for a bit, I never really speak to him much but I guess with our new living arrangements that will change soon. He also let me borrow a shirt and pants, I didn't want to be in my pajamas when everyone got here, there a bit big but who cares anyway?

Sirius still hasn't returned from when he left, where ever he went that is, I just hope he gets back soon, and safely. Another report showed up in the Daily Prophet revealing that a ambush killed 5 people yesterday, all apart of the Ministry For Magic. I just wish it would all stop, but thats why were here I guess.

"Bella, what are you doing over there - come here." MadEye pulls me to the head of the table where everyone stares at us both, "Dumbledore will be joining us shortly i'm told, so we'll wait till then." I turn to Moody and my eyes widen, "Professor Dumbledore is coming here?" He nods, someone whistles and a loud 'pop' comes from behind the front door, "speak of the devil." MadEye walks out in the hall, trips on the elf umbrella holder - as everyone does - and opens the door.

"Alastor, my old friend!" Dumbledore, dressed in dark purple robes hugs MadEye with a pat on the back, 'my old friend?' wow, how old is Moody?

"Is everyone here?" I walk behind the door, where I won't be seen and listen to what is happening.

"Yes, Bellatrix is here and everything is ready."

"Very well, lead on." MadEye walks in with Dumbledore who smiles at me and walks to the other end of the room, he sits down next to a man I know as Barty Grouch. The crowded space is evaded by silence and MadEye stands next to me ready to address the crowd, "good afternoon everyone, you all know of why we are here I presume?" An unknown man stands up from beside Mr Grouch, "this should be unspeakable!"

"- yes, its too dangerous for a girl like her!"

"I didn't even know Severus had a daughter, how can we trust her?" Mumbles are carried from within the room and soon a loud yelling has overtaken the original conversation.

"Quiet!" MadEye yells at the top of his lungs and a hairy transfigurated cup with tiny rat arms pokes its fingers into what I expect to be its ears.

"Its only fair that we listen to whats being said." Sirius stands crookedly in the doorway and winks at me, I stare at him and as a mumble echos through the room I hop to his side, "I was worried, where did you go?" My whisper is only heard by few others in the silence, "makes no difference, i'm back now." He smiles and goes stands in the back corner of the room. I slide back to where MadEye is and he nudges me, "your turn."

"Oh," I cough and get all the nervousness out of the way, "uh, most of you obviously didn't know that i'm Severus Snapes' daughter, and even if I am, how should that change your judgement of me? I'm just asking you give me a fair chance, thats all."

"Get on with it then." A scruffy man spurts out the words with aggravation, I mumble under my breath "keep your pants on.."

"Whats that girl?" Barty Crouch moves his hat from his ears to hear me properly.

"I said, your all here because of my fathers death, and his likely candidate to take over his place. Me." Whispers are passed to Dumbledore to ask his opinion but he doesn't say anything, or even give it away in his expressions.

The conversation has gone on for hours, discussing how dangerous it is or the trust that DeathEaters rely on, I take a seat next to the scruffy looking man and just listen until they finally make up their minds.

Professor Dumbledore stands, "I have made up my decision." He silently walks over to where I sit and I jump from my seat, "I accept." I smile at his bright blue eyes peering over his half-moon glasses and whisper "thank you."

MadEye stands half asleep against the wall next to Professor Dumbledore, I nudge him and he jumps, Dumbledore nods at him and Moody speaks, "if you would most kindly repeat after me Bella: I, Bellatrix Sophia Snape, dedicate my work and trust to The Order Of The Phoenix and on no circumstances will defy my agreement. Blah blah blah.." I repeat MadEyes' words exactly, adding a sly grin to the 'blah blah blah.'

Remus jolts out of his seat sending it flying behind him, hitting a woman and spilling her drink on her, "I, Remus Lupin, take all responsibility in all of Bella's actions, and will overlook and guide her in here time in the Order." Dumbledore nods at Remus approvingly and lifts his wand from his robes, waves it over me, smiles, then walks into the hallway and aparates where everyone follows after him.

"What was the charm for?" MadEye points to a picture hung on the wall, I walk to it and examine the scene. All of the Order Of The Phoenix is standing in a group, moving slightly in the photo, some smile, and a familiar face of Sirius winks at the camera, 'thats so like him.' A shadow appears in the photo, I wipe the glass thinking its fog from the cold but the figure becomes more dominant and a small moving picture of me kneeling takes form in-between Severus and Remus, just in-front of Sirius. I look at Remus with my eyes nearly popping out of my head, "feels nice doesn't it?" I nod and look at the picture some more. It finally makes me feel like I belong somewhere. With no family left and only a handful of people I can trust these days, its nice to feel needed.