Disclaimer: all characters are property of S.M
Hi everyone! Well first off, W-O-W thank you all for the reviews... U ARE ALL AWESOME! I really wasnt expecting so much ... thank u!
Second, i need to apologize for going a little over the top with TK. I got alittle carried away.
Third, you asked why Embry's still phasing, at first i was going for the, 'pass-the-pack-to-his-son' way, but now i'm not too sure. Sorry, thats me being careless. =[
i'm also hoping that most chapter will be around about the same length.
I wrote quite a few Alternative chapter 2's, and i ended with this one. I'm trying to keep the storyline basic, while trying to keep all the characters personalities the same.
So if you think this chapter is too serious or not serious enough, then tell me.
Anyway... thank u all again for reading. I hope you enjoy chapter 2 of 'This is my story'
Love Summer
Seth's turn to speak.
It had been exactly 11months, 1 week 2 days and 7hours since i last saw my angel.
I can recollect every single thing from that sad, wet afternoon.
I remember how she refused to sit down, she stood next to her window the whole time.
When i explained i was leaving she couldn't understand why, 21 questions didn't even begin to cover how many she had to ask.
First she blamed herself, i was quick to reassure her that it wasn't anything she had done. But when she asked if it was about her, i couldn't lie. Of course it was about her... how could it not be? My whole life revolved around her.
She demanded an explanation but this time i didn't give her the truth, i lied and said i needed to get away from La Push.
The truth would have hurt her, she would have blamed her father.
Embry and I had been talking, he had asked if i could leave for awhile – before TJ's love changed towards me, from a best-friend to a lover – he asked, to see if I was what she wanted.
For a few weeks i refused, he didn't pressure me into it. But after watching TJ sneak out at night - to go to her boyfriends house - i became worried that her love towards me would always be the 'brotherly' love. It would hurt to go without my little angel, but what if real happiness isn't with an imprint. What if TJ found better love from someone besides me? Tommy (her boyfriend) what if he made her happier than i could?
Thats what changed my mind, nothing mattered more than TJ's happiness. Nothing. Not even my wants or needs. I was going to leave to help her find happiness. If she didn't find happiness then i will tell her everything, imprinting and all.
I was very nervous leaving her, I wasn't allowed to check into La Push, i spent some time with Leah in Portland Oregon – she was a doctor at the hospital.
After 2months with Leah, I was contemplating if i should go back to La Push, just to check that she was okay.
Jacob advised against it ... i battled myself for weeks, but finally i took wolf form and just ran around, eventually ending up at Alaska.
Embry had promised that he would call me if anything happened with TJ. But after 11 months, it wasn't looking so good. It must be a bad sign if i hadn't heard from them in so long.
Maybe she had found happiness? Maybe i was only destined to be a friend?
I caught Jacob thinking about them occasionally but he would just phase back and ignore my pleads.
I was considering taking off in wolf form again – just for another few months – but Nessie stopped me.
"SETH! Wait!" She yelled just as i started off east.
Nessie wasn't as fast as us, but i knew if i ignored her Jake would get angry.
I slowed my oversize paws, the powder snow melting under me.
I pulled my sweat pants back on just as Nessie loped out of the trees into the little field of snow.
"No matter what you say Ness... I'm going." I stated.
She snorted delicately and flicked her hair over her shoulder, "I think i might have one exception."
I rolled my eyes and gestured her to go on, I loved Nessie, like a little sister.
"TJ." She said gently.
That caught me off guard, i was expecting her to threaten me with Emmett or Alice but... TJ? What does TJ have to do with it? She was safe in La Push...
"Guess who's coming to Alaska?" Her smile lit up her face, her brown eyes excited.
"She's coming here?" I asked in disbelief.
I was unable to do anything but wait for Nessie to tell me if i had it all wrong, or if my dreams were coming true.
Her warm hand took mine, she gently touched my cheek.
The conversation she had with Lexi flashing through my head.
My hands began to tremble as she continued to play over Lexi's words, "...TJ needs him."
My eyes glazed over, all i could see was my angels face; haunting my every thought.
She needs me, and I'll be damned if i would not be there for her.
"So..." Nessie snapped me out of my 'TJ trance,' that was one trance i wouldn't mind living in.
"So what?" I asked, still slightly dazed.
"So, are you still leaving?" She smirked when i snapped my head up to her, confused as to how she could even think that.
"Of course I'm staying." I turned my head up, staring up at the dark sky, thanking whoever was up there, for my angel.
"You coming home now?" She stepped towards the trees.
"Uh... nah, not right now." I mumbled shuffling my feet backwards – my eyes fixed on the moonless night sky.
"Okay... have fun. But they arrive here in two days time. I think you should be at the airport to meet them." Nessie said already running towards the house, located a few miles west.
"I'll be there." I said to myself, "I'll be there."
I pulled the warmth around my body, letting it fill me completely until i phased; the remainders of my shorts fluttering to the snow.
I tilted my head up to the starry sky and let the most joyous song fill the wintry night.
Running helped, it gave me something to do while i thought about TJ's perfect face.
I knew it was wrong to find her attractive when she just turned 16, but their was so much that was changing with her.
"Seth! Come on, their plane has landed." A loud tap on the car window followed by Jacob's voice.
"Coming." I said shuffling out of the car and behind Nessie and Jacob.
We had to take two cars to fit us all in, I planned on taking TJ; but of course it was up to her.
The airport was jam packed full, I kept Jake and Nessie in my eye sight but i didn't make a big deal if i was a few paces behind them.
"There!" Nessie said, pointing to a free seat.
The nervous butterflies assaulted my stomach, causing my knees to shake, while we sat and waited for their plane to land.
The anticipation was going to kill me for sure, how long does it take to get off a flight?
Then two familiar faces merged from the crowd, both grinning ear to ear.
Lexi and Embry.
Jake went and kissed Lexi's cheek, hugging her tightly, followed by Nessie.
"Seth!" Lexi wailed and ran straight into my arms.
"Hey Lex! Long time, no see." I lifted her feet off the ground.
"Is it possible that you're still growing?" She cocked her head to the side as i placed her back to the solid ground.
"Or you're just shrinking." I retorted, patting her head; which she quickly slapped my hand away.
"Hey old-man-Jake!" A husky voice called out.
We all turned to see a grinning TK, he was looking... like one of us. His black hair cropped short, toned muscles – and only wearing jeans and a t-shirt.
"Old man!" Jacob scoffed pulling him into a 'bro hug.'
"Seth, Seth, Seth...." He said lowly.
"TK..." I said just as blandly. All the eyes were flickering between us, unsure if this was a tense moment.
A small smile played on his lips, causing me to erupt in victory.
"Ha! You smiled! I win!" I crowed. My eyes swept over the crowd again but the familiar face was nowhere to be found.
"Damn it." TK sighed dramatically, but stepped forward to give me a bone crushing hug.
TK kept an arm slung over my shoulder, i was looking down at the floor when i felt that pull in the pit of my stomach.
I jerked my head up to see ... her. TJ.
My Talia-Jay.
A part of me wasn't even sure if it was TJ.
How could she change so much after only 11 months? I felt the need to drop to my knees and just worship her.
I wanted to be mad at the changes, but i couldn't. The earth shifted again, this time the pull towards TJ was intensified with the need for her body, touch, anything!
I wanted to hold her to me forever, to never let her out of my arms.
She wasn't my little girl anymore, the words 'DEVELOPED' was stamped to her forehead.
I flexed my hands, they were yearning to touch her perfect russet skin.
With out even consciously deciding too, i did a once over; starting from her fur coated boots, to her black fitted jeans, the white jacket that hugged her body, her long hair tumbling down to her waist.
She was a lot taller, up to my shoulders at least.
Finally ... her face. The face was what had changed the most, her lips were fuller – luscious and kissable. Her cheekbones were more defined, finally the eyes.
The amount of times i had dreamed of those eyes, the amount of times i had thought of those eyes... i was pleased to see that the eyes were very much the same, big brown pools that i would get lost in for hours. Belonging to TJ.
It hadn't even been a few seconds, she haltered to a stop, eyes piercing into mine.
I couldn't help it, a small smirk broke out across my face. Her eyes widened and seemed to dance with excitement, then the excited eyes changed into gawking, her lips parted in a perfect O.
I could have stared at her all night but it seems she had other plans.
The bewildered expression disappeared she threw her hands up in the air – a irritated noise escaping her throat.
"Why the hell does this have to happen to me?! Crap crap crap!" She growled at herself, and started pacing back and forward.
I was getting nervous as to what she was talking about but i was also very much entertained, and some what relieved that TJ was still very much herself.
"Shit TJ, trust you to do this! Shit! Argh!" Her pacing started to quicken and her hands shoke.
Nessie, Jake, Embry and Lexi were all looking at TJ confused, sort of worried. TK on the other hand, was smirking at his sister.
"Damn it! Damn it! Damn it!" She stomped her feet.
"I see you still talk to yourself." I couldn't help but call out. She froze – back facing me – her hands stopped shaking.
"Oh fan-freaking-tastic TJ!" She hissed to herself before she turned around slowly.
Once she composed herself she gave me a sarcastic smirk,
"Seth..."She nodded then turned to her audience.
"Nessie! Uncle Jake!" She squealed running into Nessie's surprised arms.
Great! She was ignoring me.
Ha! Well i can play her little games.
I watched her talk animatedly with Nessie, but i also would catch her glancing over at me every few seconds; a red tinge covering her cheeks.
"Okay, well lets get out of here. Mom's been dying to see you Lex." Nessie smiled and reached for Jake's hand.
We walked to the car park, TJ keeping her distance from me, not saying a word.
Even the way she walked was beautiful, her hips swayed side to side naturally, there was a certain grace about her.
"Wait!" TK stopped suddenly, "Theirs seven of us. How can we all fit?"
"Don't worry, Mom can sit on Dad's knee and Seth can just walk home." I heard TJ mumble.
"Only if you walk with me." I grinned at her.
Her eyes sparkled for a second then she shook her head and turned away.
"Actually we brought two cars." Jake clarified.
"Shot gun riding with Jacob!" TK practically yelled, gaining weird looks from us all.
"We have the truck, so Em – Lex, you can come too." Nessie said gently.
"That would be great." Lexi said.
OH GOD! I know what that means...
TJ ... in the car ... alone ... with me! For over an hour.
My heart started beating loud and clear, Jake, TK and Nessie all snickered, Embry on the other hand gave a low growl.
TJ's turn to speak.
Wow, Seth was looking ... wow.
How could i have never noticed how attractive he was? Dumb dumb dumb TJ!
We were all walking through the car park – i tried to keep away from him, afraid that if i got too close then ill do something stupid.
Too late! Teenage TJ said.
Yeah... TJ, that was really embarrassing back there. Even mature TJ was agreeing.
I didn't mean to start yelling at myself when i first saw him.
It just took me by surprise.
His perfect face, his toned chest... but it was his lips and eyes that sent me over the edge.
I hadn't even been standing there for 10seconds and already i was having little fantasies that were definitely X-RATED!
So that was why i started talking to myself.
I was angry, furious that i was feeling attracted to Seth, more than attracted – i felt like i needed him... and that, i didn't want. I didn't want to ruin our friendship with sex.
Besides, he was like my best friend and my dads friend.
Wait! He doesn't even like you! Mature TJ pointed out.
You saw the way his eyes raked over you! Teenage TJ retorted.
I had to admit, i did like the way his eyes widened when he did the once over.
"Wait!" TK broke into my daydreaming, "Theirs seven of us. How can we all fit?"
I'll sit on Seth's knee! Say it! Teenage TJ screamed.
Don't say it! Mature TJ yelled back.
"Don't worry, Mom can sit on Dad's knee and Seth can just walk home." I was actually answering the two TJ's that were yelling in my head, but i guess i said it louder than i thought.
"Only if you walk with me." His seductive voice purred.
I looked over at him, the grin – damn that sexy grin!
All the X-Rated fantasies started up again...
Get a grip! Mature TJ mentally slapped me.
I shook my head – this is ridiculous – I really need to calm down.
Try and ignore him? Maybe the feelings will go away.
It's just the crazy teenage hormones – Maybe even lack of food.
I wasn't even paying attention to the conversation surrounding me until they all stopped next to a massive truck.
"Okay... we'll see you at home." Mom smiled, dad helping her into the truck.
Jacob climbed into the drivers side, Nessie sat in the back with mom and TK.
It wasn't until the truck roared to life that i realized i wasn't inside with them...
"Hey! Wait!" I yelled.
"See you at home!" TK called out as they drove away. Leaving me alone.
"We're here." That seductive voice said behind me.
Okay... i take that back. I am not alone.
Seth held open the car door for me, something he always done.
Deep breathes! Do not hyperventilate.
He got into the drivers side, I glanced over at him while he concentrated on the road.
Lips, lips, lips....Those sexy, soft, heated, LIPS!
Go on ... just start drooling over him. Mature TJ hissed.
As if he could hear my thoughts, his tongue slipped out and ran over his lower lip, making my knees shake. I snapped my head forward, praying he didn't hear my heart quicken.
"H-How longs the drive?" I asked.
He turned his head to smile at me, "A little over an hour."
An hour in a car with Seth.
I couldn't decide if it was my prayers that were being answered or if it was my worst nightmare coming to life.
I looked over at the clock, 7:45pm.
1hour, I can do this. We were already leaving the lights of town, trees were surrounding us.
"So hows things been?" He asked softly.
I don't even think hes aware how alluring his voice is... or the effect it has on me.
"TJ?" He asked once i didn't answer.
"Oh, huh?" I seriously just blanked out.
"How's things been?" He repeated, slower.
Hows things been? Well if you were around you would know!
"Fine, just same old." I felt the anger coarse through me. My thoughts on the plane to Alaska played over.
"I knew that i will always love Seth, but if – by some miracle – i ever got to meet him again, I would be angry at him. For all the unintentional times he hurt me"
"How's school?" He asked bringing me back into reality.
Tell the truth? Or Lie?
Truth? Lie?
"I got kicked out." I said simply deciding he will find out anyway.
I saw and heard his hands grip the steering wheel, was he angry? Good!
"What for?" He growled.
"I got in a fight." I said shrugging. His foot slammed down on the brakes, causing me to slam against the seatbelt then back against my seat. We weren't going very fast but it gave me one hell of a fright.
"Shit Seth!" I snarled rubbing my neck.
"You what?" He hissed, eyes blazing with fury.
"What's you're problem Seth?" I glared at him.
"..?" He said slowly.
Was he angry? Why?
"I got in a fight." I said looking around outside the car, there was nothing but trees and snow.
Seth was suddenly getting out of the car, the wintry air invading my warmth.
"Seth! Come on!" I whined.
His arms and hands were shaking... that answers my question.
He was angry.
What a crap time to decide he was about to phase! It was freezing!
I crossed my arms and huffed, watching him pace in front of the car.
After what seemed like hours – according to the clock it was only 15minuets - Seth had calmed down enough to get back into the car.
"I'm sorry," He whispered starting the car again.
"Why were you angry?" I already had a fair idea why, but I wanted to know for sure.
"Uh – Oh – Okay, well um, i-it was just the thought of someone trying to hurt you..." He shuddered. He cares for you! Mature TJ said.
"But haven't you been phasing for years? Don't you have control?" Dad had really good control, TK didn't really, but that was because he was new to it – kind of.
"Yeah – I guess you now see how angry i was." He looked over and gave a small smile.
"You know, i don't need to be protected Seth. I can take care of myself." I continued to look straight ahead, I wanted him to see that i was independent. That i have changed since he left. I've grown up.
"I will always be around to protect you." He said giving me a serious look. I wanted to believe him, i really did; but i knew it wasn't true, I had already heard that promise before.
"Not always." I said breaking away from his intense gaze.
This time, he pulled over to the side of the road slowly, turning his body to face me.
"TJ, i mean it. I will always be here." He reached out and touched the bracelet on my left wrist.
"Always." He said reaching up to pull my chin to look at him.
Even with that small touch, my skin felt like it complete bliss.
"Talia... look at me." The way he said my name almost had my eyes rolling to the back of my head. He was still trying to get me to look at him, but i refused.
"Why don't you believe me?" He asked pulling his hand back to put on the steering wheel.
"Can we just go now Seth? Please." I sighed, my fingers twisting and twining together from nervousness.
He didn't say anything, he just kept staring at me, waiting for me to explain.
"Seth, i'm tired. Please can we just go?"
Still nothing.
"Fine! Do i have to walk there?" I threatened my hand on the door handle.
"TJ..." He growled, as I popped it open.
"Seth..." I growled back.
"Look, just tell me why you don't believe me and then i wont bring it up again." He gave the puppy dog eyes.
"That crap doesn't work on me!" I snapped angrily.
That was the same face Tommy used to do when we were together – it was always when he wanted to go a step further but i said no. Although the puppydog look suited Seth way way way better.
"TJ... come on. Please. We used to talk about everything... what's changed?" His face softened and his eyebrows were pulled up in the middle, pleading.
I know what changed. I changed. I'm ruining our friendship because i was attracted to him.
This is such soap-opera material!
"Come on, it's just me." He said gently, looking down at his fifgeting hands then up through his long black lashes.
OH-MY-GOD!
How – How did he do that?
'Houston we have a problem....' Teenage TJ said.
I was frozen, if i had been standing up when he did that, i would have surely fallen over backwards.
His eyes did this – smoldering – Burning – Sexy - Thing, that actually made my heart want to beat out of my chest and jump into his.
W-O-W
Seth should really consider a career in modeling or acting ... just somewhere that people will see his natural beauty.
"Have you considered modeling?" I blurted out.
He gave me a weird, unsure-if-I'm-being-serious look.
"You're changing the subject. Answer my question." He said a slight edge of annoyance coating his tone.
"What was you're question." I asked, turning my head to look out the window again.
"Why do you not believe that i will be there for you?"
Damn! That is a easy question but it will definitely make Seth angry again.
"And don't lie." He added quickly.
"Fine. The reason i don't believe that you will always be here for me is because i have heard it before. That was you're exact promise when you gave me this bracelet, and not even a week after giving me it, you leave. That... is the reason i don't want to believe you." I didn't want to look over at him, afraid of what i would find.
"You wanted the truth and this is it." I said coldly after he didn't answer.
He started the car without another word and we drove in silence the rest of the way there.
It was now 8:45 and we would have been at Nessie's house by now if we didn't stop earlier.
Seth still hadn't said a word to me, with each minuet that went by i was feeling more and more guilty.
"Seth. I'm sorry for saying that before. It wasn't nice." I said as he turned down a driveway.
"S'Okay TJ, don't worry about it." He said, still not looking at me.
I gritted my teeth and crossed my arms tightly across my chest.
Damn my stubborn side! It was something that was passed down from my mother, when we were angry – we were like poisonous snakes. Deadly.
"We're nearly there." He murmured.
Not even 5minuets later i saw light at the end of the tunnell of trees.
Once we came out the end, a beautiful white three story house stood before us. It was giagantic but still elogant, the white paint merging with the soft lights.
"Wow... Esme really goes all out with these houses." I practically had my face pressed up against the car window.
"Yeah, she has an eye for it." Seth said nodding in agreement.
We continued past the house down the driveway a little more, till there was another house, definitely not as big as Esme's, but probably the same size as our house back in La Push.
Outside was the massive truck that mom and dad went in.
"Esme made this house for Jake and Nessie. Bella and Edwards house is a mile east." Seth said.
"Why a mile?" I couldn't help but ask.
He shrugged, "I think it's a private joke with Emmett, ask him."
"You live with them?" I asked.
"I have a little two bedroom house thing out the back of Jakes. Esme designed it... I told her not too but she insisted it could be a guest house also." He shook his head, obviously grateful but still unsure.
Seth parked the car outside Jake and Nessie's, then ran around to open my door.
We walked up the porch steps, the smell of cooking had me inhaling deeply through my nose.
Oh god i'm hungry!
"Come on, lets get some food." Seth held open the front door.
Inside was just as amazing as the outside, wooden floors with paintings and pictures hanging everywhere, sort of old fashioned with a hint of urban life.
I followed Seth around the halls until we made it to the busy lounge.
"Wow you actually made it back. I thought you must have been a little busy..." Jacob winked and wiggled his eyebrows.
I wish! Teenage TJ swooned at the thought of Seth and me...
I shook my head from that thought.
Mess with his head! Teenage TJ cheered.
"You know Jacob, you're supposed to be an adult figure..." I checked to make sure Seth wasn't near me. "Is it really appropriate to be putting such thoughts into my head?"
His eye widened, TK – sitting on the other couch – snickered, he knew i was just messing with Jakes head.
"I don't think mom would be very happy if she found out you were suggesting that i was having sex with Seth." I whispered even lower.
Jacob's eyes looked like they were about to pop out of his head. I smothered the grin with a scowl.
Jake straightened up and cleared his throat, clearly uncomfortable.
1 point to TJ – 0 to Jake.
We had some food and talked for awhile, then Edward and Bella came over.
They looked just as beautiful as the last time i saw them. Of course. They never aged.
Edward kept giving me odd looks, no doubt about my inappropriate thoughts surrounding Seth.
"I'm tired. Can i go to bed?" I asked looking around the table.
"Yeah sure hon... follow me." Nessie took me upstairs, down the hall to a huge big bedroom, bigger than my one back home.
My suitcase was already laid out near the bed.
"Whoa Ness... this is – wow." I said looking around the beautiful bedroom.
"Thanks. Anyway, you have a good sleep. I'll see you in the morning." She kissed my cheek then fluttered out the door, closing it behind her.
I pulled on my PJ's then took my toothbrush to my on suite bathroom.
"Ugh, you look terrible." I sighed at myself in the mirror.
Alright then, lets try and fix this mess.
I tied my hair up, scrubbed my face, brushed my teeth then decided i was too tired to do anything else. Slowly i made my way to the big fluffy white bed situated near the window, crawling to the middle then collapsing into a heap. Exhausted.
Today has been eventful to say the least.
Well not really eventful more complected, it's amazing. After this one evening, my life seems to have turned in a completely different direction. I have also managed to screw up my friendship with the one and only person that understands me ... or understood me.
Why did i have to be attracted to him? Is it undo-able? Can whats already happened be erased? Or is that friendship dead?
What about being angry at him? I was furious the last month, all my fury aimed at him. But as soon as i saw him smile i knew my anger was pointless.
"God you suck!" I whispered to myself.
I fell into a easy sleep quicker than i thought possible. I still shed a few tears – like i always did – but this time it was for different reasons. I was lost, and lonely, all i wanted was to be found, but only one person could do that...
Halfway through the night i felt someone kiss my forehead, I was too far gone to wake up and see who it was.
TK? probably.
Dad? Wouldn't be unusual for him to check on me
Seth? I wish...
Yeah, i really really really wish. But at the same time, I'm praying that nothing will happen.
A/N: Okay... be honest. I think i can take it, *I brace myself against a wall*
Oh and don't hate on Embry... he's just being... a dad.
But i know... he's being a hypocritical dad. Gotta love him though.
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