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And that's when I saw him fully,
the man who had claimed my heart so very long ago,
my Edward.


I cursed inwardly at my foolish brain for hoping that there was a chance he could have gotten less beautiful as time passed. But as was Edward, he remained perfect. His jaw was tensed and I fought the urge to run my fingers along the sharp line; like I would have done no longer than 3 years ago whenever he seemed upset. My eyes moved of their own accord to the soft pink of his lips, and up to his eyes. They were still the piercing green that had haunted my dreams for so long, and yet they were not as vibrant as I knew them to be. My heart was beating a mile a minute.

"Bella…" I couldn't fathom the underlying sad tones to his voice, but I assumed that I wasn't far off in thinking this was probably his worst nightmare, and so his sadness probably stemmed from his unfortunate run-in with me. As soon as he had uttered this, he seemed to remember what precarious position I was in, and loosed his grip on my arms. My voice box apparently was AWOL.

A rush of words came from his mouth. "Err…one minute you were upright and the next minute you got pushed to the ground…I was worried so I carried you out of the crowd..We probably should find alic-"

But he didn't have time to finish his mumblings, because the next thing Alice had come over, and grabbed Edward by his hair.

"GET AWAY FROM HER YOU FUCKING DICK!"

By this point I knew I had to intervene, whether or not my voice box was ready.

"ALICE! Let go!" When Alice heard my voice, her anger seemed to soften and she reluctantly released his hair, which had somehow managed to get more bronze since I'd last seen it. Edward, however, tensed even more and I wondered if the sound of me speaking resembled chalk on a blackboard, just as his body language was insinuating to me. He looked me dead in the eye and there was nothing there. Nothing.

"What the fuck are you doing here Edward, anyway? I thought you didn't live here anymore. Actually scratch that. I hoped that you didn't live here anymore" Alice spat with as much animosity as her little body could muster.

"Yeah, well as you can see I do live here. I came back 2 weeks ago and-"

"Oh whatever Edward, save it for people that care. We're going to go now, and if we're lucky you won't be seeing us for another 3 years you pathetic excuse of a man".

At that, Alice dragged me by the arm and we were in her car before you could say 'what the fuck is going on with my life'. I sat in silence, awaiting the torrent of abuse that Alice would most likely be letting out. But nothing came. The tears fell as silently as the air around us and I felt no urge to brush them away. He was back, and it scared me to know that two seconds in his company had affected me this much. Hadn't I slept with 4 people since he left? Why had his chaste touches left burns in their wake? My body tingled knowing he was nearby as if every cell wanted to join him.

"How are you feeling Bella?" Alice asked, upon turning to face me.

How was I feeling? Sick. Angry. Exhausted. But the scariest feeling? Longing.

"I can't believe he's here" is what I settled with.

"It was bound to happen someday I guess…this just wasn't what I expected. Do you remember at all what happened when you passed out?"

"I don't even know why I passed out! It felt like something hit me but then I was out here with…him"

"You can say his name, Bella. A guy was crowd surfing and he got dropped on you. I tried to push him away but the next thing I know Edward comes waltzing over, carrying you away while I'm left in the crowd with the guy who landed on you asking me to give him a leg up again!"

"What happened after that?" I was trying my best to ignore the voice in my head that was wondering if there was a chance that Edward had noticed me before I had fainted. But surely I would have seen him..

"I punched the shit! How dare he fall on you and then ask ME to help him back up into the crowd. I swear chivalry is dead Bella! And then I left to go looking for you and I saw him...With you in his arms."

"Yeah, well as I was coming too I thought someone was pretty much manhandling me, so I ended up kneeing him in the balls" I confessed,

Alice howled with laughter, evidently ecstatic, and her reaction worried me. Wouldn't he be hurt now? On second thoughts, karma was a bitch and it was probably going to take me weeks to get over seeing his face again. It satisfied my fucked up brain to know that since he would be feeling no emotional pain from this, at least he would be left with physical.

Her laughter stopped. I felt transparent. "Bella come on, you can't keep doing this. He left you and now he comes back without even calling you to say 'hi'. Don't even give him a second thought – I won't let you. He left you and who had to pick up the pieces? I can't bear seeing you like that ever again, and you've just got yourself together, what with the library job and me finally getting you to go out again and such. Bella if I could take your pain and make it mine I would. But I can't and you're just going to have to be strong and forget about him, can you do that for me? Please?'

I considered her words, and it hurt me to know that the damage Edward caused seemed to affect more than just me. I had thought I was a good actress, but Alice had obviously seen more than I was willing to show. I would try harder now. Alice shouldn't have to deal with my pain, and if it meant sporting the best fake face I could muster to hide my emotions, then I would do it. For her.

"Already done" I replied.

"Thank you Bella. Now, we should head to a bar or something. The night's still young! I'm thinking we go to midnight sun, it's just opened and jasper's friend owns it so we could get discount on drink and..."

But I didn't catch the rest. Although it killed me to acknowledge it, I figured since I wouldn't be seeing him anytime soon I may as well cut a little deeper into my heart since the wounds were already open and bleeding. Behind the safety of my straight-face I would welcome the torture that surely awaited me. I would welcome the pain. Because all that plagued my mind was him.


ok ok ok ok sooooooooooo why is edward grimacing when bella speaks? rude! and why is alice so hostile to edward? and where will the night take Bella and Alice?

To be continued ;)

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