Chapter 2
"I'm pretty sure that I know what the two questions are but you go first." I said taking a drink of my coffee.
"After we broke up, I ran into Tara. We hooked up for a while and then she left to go to Chicago. And then last year, I found out that you had been home and didn't want to see me so I hooked with a crow-eater and woke up the next morning in Reno married to her." I couldn't believe what I was hearing from Jax. "We tried to make it work for 6 months and it wasn't so I filed for divorce. Then I screwed up one night. I got drunk and went to the house and got her pregnant. The divorce is final and I have already been granted full custody when he is born. His name is gonna be Abel." Jax says.
"Is that everything?" I ask. He nods. I sit there for a moment before I say anything. "Wow. That's a lot Jax."
"I know." There was an awkward silence for a little before either of us said anything. Jax was the first to speak. "Now for my two questions."
"Go for it." I said already knowing what he is going to ask.
"Do you still love me?"
"Of course I do Jax. I don't think that I ever stopped."
"Finally...Who is it?"
I took a deep breath. "Its...Kozik."
When I left the diner, Jax and I weren't exactly on the best of terms. He understood what I was asking, because I was dating one of his brothers, but I could see the hurt in his eyes. When I got home, Kozik's bike was in the driveway. I walked in the front door and he was sitting on the couch with a beer. "Hey." I said walking around the back of the couch to join him.
"Hey." He said.
When I got a good look at his face I couldn't believe it. He had a bloody nose and a split lip. "What happened?" I asked.
"Jax called me when he left the diner. Asked me where I was...said we needed to talk. We met at Lumpy's and we duked it out." He said.
"Baby, I'm sorry. I knew when I met up with him to talk about the crow that he would ask who I was seeing. I didn't think that he would take it this far."
"Its okay. I knew that there was a chance."
FLASHBACK*
It's been a year since Jax and I broke up and Kozik and I have been hanging out some when ever he's in town. Its becoming for frequent that he's been around and I'm not sure what it means.
I heard a knock at my front door and went to see who it was. When I opened the door, Kozik stood there with a single red rose. He handed me the rose and I smelled it. "Thanks." I said. "Come in."
Kozik stepped inside and closed the door behind him. "So are you coming from Tacoma or Charming?" I asked.
"Charming." He said.
"You look stressed." I said as I walked to the fridge to grab a couple of beers.
"Yeah well Jax kind of ambushed me and asked me if I've heard anything from you."
Kozik and I walked over to my couch and sat down. "What'd you tell him?"
He looked at me and smiled. "Nothing. The way I see it, he doesn't have a right to know who your spending your time with."
I nod. "That's true." I said taking a drink of my beer. "But in his eyes I'm still his old lady." I sat my beer on the coffee table. I turned towards Kozik. "What are we doing? Are we just hanging out or...do you want something more?"
I could tell by the look on his face that I took him by surprise. He sat his beer on the coffee table and grabbed my hands pulling me into his lap. "Lacey, I have wanted more for a while now." He said before leaning in and kissing me.
END FLASHBACK*
The next morning, I woke up in my bed with Kozik's arms wrapped around me. I laid there and thought about everything. I thought about Jax and everything that we had been through. I thought about how he had gotten a crow-eater pregnant and that he was gonna be a dad. And then there was the fact that he asked me if I still loved him? Of course I still loved. I don't think that I would ever stop loving Jax. Jax had been the love of my life since I was fifteen. But the question was did I love him enough to let him go? When Kozik started to wake up I pretended to be asleep. A few minutes later, Kozik climbed out of bed, got dressed and left. There's one person that I needed to talk to. I needed to talk to Donna. I needed to figure out what I wanted.
